WEBVTT 00:00.000 --> 00:05.820 I'm sitting there and my co-worker starts talking about that people who are not vaccinated, 00:05.940 --> 00:10.900 they must be killed or put in the cage for life. 00:12.200 --> 00:18.300 And everybody agreed with him because it was the most disgusting moment in my entire 00:18.960 --> 00:25.480 probably life in the US. When everyone agreed with literally fascism, I think it was during 00:25.480 --> 00:32.100 the covid times and that was when my whole world crashed because I had this ambition that I will 00:32.100 --> 00:36.620 go to the United States, I will get my degree, I will become this person of the world. I will live 00:36.620 --> 00:42.100 in New York City or I will be traveling the world and I will be pursuing my artistic career, 00:42.220 --> 00:47.640 I will be pursuing my engineering career or whatever it will be. I thought of myself as that I 00:47.640 --> 00:54.860 will be this free unleashed person who will just finally embrace her global and very 00:54.860 --> 01:02.280 big dreams. Little did I know 2020 comes and the world turns with its ass towards me. 01:02.440 --> 01:09.780 I realized that New York City is not a place of dream anymore because the people like myself 01:09.780 --> 01:14.640 who disagreed with whatever madness was happening would not be able to leave home. 01:14.900 --> 01:22.200 My favorite Italy went into some absolute terrible regime not allowing people to leave 01:22.200 --> 01:29.000 home because they did not want to participate in a biological experiment. This is what it was 01:29.000 --> 01:35.460 and people around me in the academia also went absolutely nuts like they lost their mind. It's 01:35.460 --> 01:42.780 how it fell because they like I every week I was bringing results the data to my advisor to 01:42.780 --> 01:47.840 everybody like we had group meetings. We were analyzing the data. I took the device, 01:47.840 --> 01:54.980 I took the curves, I put them in a PowerPoint, I analyzed them, drew conclusions. Okay, this is fact 01:54.980 --> 02:00.180 whatever I measured is a fact. We explained the fact and when these people were telling that 02:00.180 --> 02:05.340 it's a fact that it's all safe and good it's a fact I'm like no it's not a fact it's not a 02:05.340 --> 02:09.600 fact. How can you say that this is a fact you are a scientist you deal with it every 02:09.600 --> 02:15.160 single day how does it not come to you clearly right now what is going on with you 02:15.160 --> 02:21.800 and everyone just went I saw how their psyche something very animalistic robotic overtook 02:21.800 --> 02:27.740 the analytical overtook the critical thinking so I watched everything crumble. 02:27.820 --> 02:33.220 Been listening to your podcast for a while now and I love the content and the brutal honesty 02:33.220 --> 02:39.380 as an attorney who fought against COVID mandates I follow a lot of dissenting medical and 02:39.380 --> 02:45.880 legal voices and read a lot of great stacks but your posts and podcasts are amongst my favorite 02:45.880 --> 02:50.680 thank you for all you do legal glass thank you so much for that lovely comment and thank you for 02:50.680 --> 02:56.760 subscribing to my sub stack Helgi hi amid all the best and lots of love from Iceland I've 02:56.760 --> 03:01.000 been researching all the stuff since around 2009 ish and I have to say that your podcast is one 03:01.000 --> 03:05.580 of the best in the space so far and I fully support your chart change to start charging 03:05.580 --> 03:09.720 for every episode I didn't even know that you had to pay well before if you're ever in Iceland 03:09.720 --> 03:15.600 please come by and visit me in my brewery in Hella wow well I hope I do get to visit Iceland 03:15.600 --> 03:20.660 and I'll definitely give your shit if I come and Jewel I believe you're one of the few out there 03:20.660 --> 03:26.260 that is not controlled by ego arrogance pride money or coercion it is truly humbling to 03:26.260 --> 03:31.160 discover how much of our lives are based on lies which we failed to question and to 03:31.160 --> 03:35.560 everyone else who's signed up and become a supporter on Spotify and on sub stack I just 03:35.560 --> 03:39.980 want to say thank you so much and welcome you're part of a wonderful tribe and you keep this show 03:39.980 --> 03:45.200 alive and I'm most grateful okay let's get into the show you are listening to the dogmatic 03:45.200 --> 03:52.040 podcast this show is 100 independent and fully funded by listeners like yourself so if you wish 03:52.040 --> 03:56.280 to support Ahmed in all that he is doing then please subscribe to his channel on Spotify 03:56.280 --> 04:02.100 or his sub stack or simply buy him a coffee with a one-off donation links to which can be found 04:02.100 --> 04:19.940 at dot malik.com now let's get on with the show let's just do Nastya Nastya yes okay perfect well 04:19.940 --> 04:24.420 listen thanks for joining me and um I just want to say I love your latest video I mean you 04:24.420 --> 04:27.480 did give me a heads up you said you know you're going to be uploading something on YouTube 04:27.480 --> 04:32.960 so I watched it okay and for something that's only half an hour and forgive this long introduction 04:32.960 --> 04:38.420 I will let you speak and for something that you know is only half an hour oh my god you packed a lot in 04:38.420 --> 04:44.320 like it was amazing so I mean it was about self-governance and you talked about you know 04:44.320 --> 04:48.580 let me just read it out to you you know not seeking any endorsement from any institution any 04:48.580 --> 04:54.420 organization any authority and not sourcing your decisions outsourcing them not making your 04:54.420 --> 05:00.100 decisions based on some authoritative figures that exist within the system that is what you 05:00.100 --> 05:05.060 define as self-governance and then you said and that's a negative definition so let's do a positive 05:05.060 --> 05:10.100 definition and you said let's you know you need to take full responsibility for your own life your 05:10.100 --> 05:17.940 own decisions and you primarily listen to yourself animalistic self and your mental self self and 05:17.940 --> 05:21.920 you say yeah you know your mental self is largely determined by your genetics and your upbringing 05:21.920 --> 05:27.060 so we inevitably are a product of the system but however when you have analytical system 05:27.700 --> 05:32.440 we can challenge all of the notions and all of the beliefs that we acquire throughout our life 05:32.440 --> 05:38.420 this is when we approach maximum freedom of ourselves for ourselves and maximum freedom of 05:38.420 --> 05:44.400 thinking this requires analog analytical thinking and being able to challenge the mainstream narrative 05:44.400 --> 05:48.600 and maybe not even mainstream narratives because there are subgroups that are not mainstream 05:48.600 --> 05:54.240 but are still pop culture i.e controlled opposition camp 2 and then I mean you go on and you 05:54.240 --> 05:58.500 talk about cholesterol you talk about birth the problems of the medical system and that's 05:59.040 --> 06:04.000 you talk about standardization of medicine not treating people as individuals but like blanket 06:04.000 --> 06:09.660 one size fits all you talk about dogma you talk about unwritten contracts you talk about not 06:09.660 --> 06:14.780 surrendering your free will to big media corporations and institutions you talk about how 06:14.780 --> 06:18.660 they say oh we care about women but actually they don't when they say that it just goes to 06:18.660 --> 06:23.680 show you how little they value you and that most people are living this inauthentic life 06:24.740 --> 06:30.300 and and then I look I just want to say to you you packed in that 30 minutes pretty much what I've 06:30.300 --> 06:39.000 talked about in 400 podcast episodes bravo thank you so much imagine the I mentioned this metaphor 06:39.000 --> 06:45.280 of pressure cooker in that video this is what happens in my head so this video I don't know I 06:45.280 --> 06:51.520 was carrying it in my head for so long and so I turned on the camera at one night I was like I 06:51.520 --> 06:56.640 just can't I can't hold it back anymore I'm just turning the camera on and I'm just speaking I did 06:56.640 --> 07:00.820 I think three edits to the whole video when it was when I was just like 07:02.120 --> 07:08.020 let's move on I just cut those things it was a rare video where I did need to cut anything 07:08.020 --> 07:15.380 almost like besides some hygienic breaks let's say so that was literally probably the synopsis of 07:15.380 --> 07:23.900 my core values in that video suddenly just like went in one organized form and that was the 07:23.900 --> 07:32.000 summary of the of everything that I had to rebel to find my path because I was born into 07:32.520 --> 07:41.220 I was born in Russia just for cultural context okay 90s in Russia and all I was exposed to growing 07:41.220 --> 07:50.980 up was people struggling to be not even happy be stable like remotely stable so I saw people 07:50.980 --> 07:55.920 who were highly unstable who could not manage relationships who could not manage their health 07:55.920 --> 08:00.800 who could not manage their things related to their work who could not manage their desires 08:00.800 --> 08:06.260 a lot of people were opting for substances like alcohol was common in Russia so they would just 08:07.380 --> 08:12.520 it all appeared to me as highly unauthentic since childhood I could not understand it I could not 08:12.520 --> 08:20.660 just live with it and then in terms of womanhood I was also exposed to so much issues related to 08:20.660 --> 08:26.980 female life living as a female in general but I also had deep conflict with that I couldn't 08:26.980 --> 08:33.840 understand since like early childhood since especially during puberty why do women inherently 08:33.840 --> 08:40.480 suffer why does nature according to what I hear from fellow women or older women 08:41.220 --> 08:49.160 why do women become victims become patients as a result of their natural sexuality as their 08:49.160 --> 08:55.700 nature like what distinguishes us from from from men I guess so that was something that 08:56.480 --> 09:00.420 gave me so much conflict I was child-free for a long period of time because 09:00.420 --> 09:06.380 every time I would hear news that someone got pregnant through birth that I'm like how did men 09:06.380 --> 09:11.260 knowing what their woman is going to go through just do it how do they stay together and then 09:11.260 --> 09:15.480 done then a lot of people actually end up having problems in intimate life after they give birth 09:16.020 --> 09:22.360 because it starts being associated that woman is this glorified suffering figure and a man 09:22.360 --> 09:28.040 effectively is put in the role of some diminished abuser and intuitively it will feel like that 09:28.040 --> 09:33.480 because of what woman has to go through and that's the fame is I like to say the fame of Jesus 09:33.480 --> 09:41.780 Christ doesn't doesn't doesn't let people live life because everyone wants to go through this glorified 09:41.780 --> 09:48.840 suffering it seems like and women do this too I read a lot of forums in my child-free era I was 09:48.840 --> 09:53.900 like what is the mystery why do women go for it why do women stick with these practices 09:53.900 --> 09:58.280 why do women go through the system of birth that puts them through so much pain 09:58.280 --> 10:04.180 why do women struggle in relationships when they're like I just have to sacrifice sacrifice sacrifice 10:04.180 --> 10:10.080 for do for this for this for this I just have to tolerate tolerate tolerate all of this just 10:10.080 --> 10:15.900 blew my mind and I was like how can I find harmony because I don't want to live like that I want 10:15.900 --> 10:19.780 to but at the same time I want to live at peace with my body I want to live at peace with my 10:19.780 --> 10:28.100 nature but I don't want what society offers me as is what it is so rebellion led me to pursuits 10:28.900 --> 10:36.380 of independence in hell independence in mind that how can I reformat the topic of relationships how 10:36.380 --> 10:43.040 can I reformat the topic of sexuality how can I reformat the topic of female unique hormonal 10:43.040 --> 10:49.140 system topic of childbirth how can I look forward to that all of these things they came as a 10:49.140 --> 10:55.560 result of me not settling for what society was telling that that that nonsense that mass psychosis 10:55.560 --> 11:03.160 how do we say you know so that video is in essence a summary of a lot of topics that I went through 11:03.160 --> 11:11.580 the years and well there's only one thing I disagree with this video is the title so the title 11:11.580 --> 11:17.240 is self-governance for women how to stop being a slave to the system and start living as a 11:17.240 --> 11:24.800 woman I change women for human because it applies to guys as well fair fair yeah yeah fair I agree 11:24.800 --> 11:34.940 with that women I guess because there is this mystification and deeply misunderstood and deeply 11:34.940 --> 11:42.340 not accepted nature of female sexuality because I think that male sexuality is kind of on the 11:42.340 --> 11:49.280 surface but with female the circus begins women tend to just adapt commodify themselves 11:49.960 --> 11:56.880 because like historically it was just commodified tolerate and adapt and adapt in some weird ways 11:56.880 --> 12:01.720 instead of going in instead of listening to yourself instead of trying to sit on the multiple 12:01.720 --> 12:09.740 chairs at once and trying to embrace the unembraceable and so on so that's probably 12:09.740 --> 12:17.020 why it was women and also with the development of of female movement I also you see this like 12:17.020 --> 12:24.720 striking thing when we look at for example some feminist protest right who is the voice they are 12:25.500 --> 12:32.400 trying to reach who is that authority that women are trying to scream at what is that 12:32.400 --> 12:38.300 rage directed towards this is something that's also very strange to me because in my opinion 12:39.300 --> 12:44.160 simply boycotting something that you don't like and embracing what you do like and nurturing it 12:44.160 --> 12:50.060 is a much more effective strategy than trying to be this childish and inherent to suppressed voice 12:50.060 --> 12:56.860 which means that there is authority above you that you scream at so that is my conflict too 12:56.860 --> 13:02.780 that there is always this pursuit of authority even in the protest protest is always calling for 13:02.780 --> 13:09.460 authority why do you need authority and that is what I see in the feminist movement often 13:10.720 --> 13:16.620 well I do not think the feminist movement was kind of captured so like all original 13:16.620 --> 13:23.260 like protest rebellious events it's kind of like co-opted and captured by the very 13:23.260 --> 13:29.260 establishment and then used against people so you know women have been treated badly over 13:29.260 --> 13:37.660 the centuries and unfairly and have been deprived of rights and respect ultimately you know they're 13:37.660 --> 13:42.820 just seen as people to make babies and have sex with I'm not saying all cultures and all people 13:42.820 --> 13:47.380 but you know my wife for example you know tells me all reminds me all the time women have suffered 13:47.380 --> 13:53.340 for the ages but then you you had this feminist movement which was kind of like captured by 13:53.340 --> 13:57.940 the Rockefellers and the Rothschilds and they promoted this yeah you should go out and 13:57.940 --> 14:01.760 sex with as many people as you want and you don't need a man and you don't need a family and 14:02.300 --> 14:07.500 you don't need any of this stuff and I think that's been counterproductive you know go outside 14:07.500 --> 14:13.800 and go work and be another tax slave that's what they've created basically yeah they created double 14:13.800 --> 14:18.860 the workforce and appreciated the workforce essentially so but that it goes hand in hand 14:18.860 --> 14:24.780 again with with interest of public wire resources that's another theme from that video but 14:24.780 --> 14:30.860 everything we see or every cultural movement will be picked up will be developed in response to the 14:30.860 --> 14:37.660 changing way of acquiring resources and the interests of the economy that is operates in that operates 14:37.660 --> 14:45.680 in the interests of the corporations because there is quite the the capital is quite monopolized so 14:46.460 --> 14:52.720 that's why we cannot say that even like small it's in the interest of small businesses or something 14:52.720 --> 14:59.080 something like that anymore so it's it was yes it was a strategy to build a machine 14:59.920 --> 15:07.440 where the worth of human is depreciating gradually so yeah that that had that put back but other 15:07.440 --> 15:16.140 phenomena with with liberation of women with liberation of our I guess sexuality liberation 15:16.140 --> 15:24.760 of female sexuality that is quite double sided too because every time again is if you don't act if 15:24.760 --> 15:31.180 you don't study your nature if you don't unapologetically claim your deepest desires your deepest 15:31.180 --> 15:38.400 wants if you don't claim the need for safety if you don't claim the need for emotional security 15:38.400 --> 15:44.100 but you go again and you see authority that's like you need to need to be a good girl for someone 15:44.100 --> 15:50.820 still or you need to fulfill some plan of what's fashionable in the moment you are not coming from 15:50.820 --> 15:56.960 within your body you're starting to do different things and I watched that so much and with 15:56.960 --> 16:04.060 development of adult entertainment industry as well it started becoming a problem because 16:04.060 --> 16:11.360 women now had a standard there's there's fashion in that area now so this sex seeming 16:11.360 --> 16:19.200 sexual liberation ended up again uh setting a standard setting a bar setting a goal setting it 16:19.200 --> 16:28.740 like some repertoire that you need to accomplish in order to be a desirable object so it's a 16:29.180 --> 16:36.080 yeah it's a women like yeah it's objectification on so many levels happens regardless if you 16:36.080 --> 16:43.460 don't take a 40 over if you are not coming from within your body and that is a challenging thing 16:43.460 --> 16:49.820 because with high level of anxiety that is also cultivated in the modern world probably I mean 16:49.820 --> 16:55.460 for many decades it's been cultivated with high level of anxiety it's really challenging to go 16:55.460 --> 16:59.880 back into the body it's really challenging to hear that subtle voice that's that whispers from 16:59.880 --> 17:08.560 within you that tells you what it is you need to actually connect with because there's so much 17:08.560 --> 17:14.020 coming from the outside that seemingly challenges your security that seemingly challenges your 17:14.020 --> 17:22.200 sense of belonging and feels like you would just die alone miserable if you don't chase something 17:22.200 --> 17:33.660 in the outside but in reality you face emptiness if you don't live from within and that's yeah well 17:33.660 --> 17:39.440 i love that i love that and you know so before we talk about some of your past and vegan you know 17:39.440 --> 17:45.440 you're a tantra coach and tantra philosophy i wanted you to talk about that and because it's so 17:45.440 --> 17:50.620 many different like explanations for what it is but historically it came out of like you know 17:50.620 --> 17:57.020 india and buddhist and hindu teachings and it's a kind of like a spiritual path it's meant to be 17:57.020 --> 18:04.080 had to focus on consciousness and awareness using your body your breath your energy there's a bit 18:04.080 --> 18:09.120 ritual and meditation and it's not primarily about sex although some people might think it is 18:09.120 --> 18:15.220 but it's about integration of the mind body and the spirit and working with energy so for you 18:15.220 --> 18:19.180 what does it mean being a tantra coach what got you into it because you've got a very 18:19.180 --> 18:23.480 different background haven't you don't you have like a phd in something and you're like you're well in 18:24.050 --> 18:27.160 yes you're a completely different life you had a completely different life and now you're 18:27.160 --> 18:32.560 doing something very different yeah i'm a physicist and then i also got phd in engineering 18:32.560 --> 18:40.680 and i worked as a consultant for an it company research software company um and uh so tantra came 18:40.680 --> 18:51.460 to me probably if i was to go back i got certified uh almost a year ago and the this topic wasn't the 18:51.460 --> 18:57.580 year for many years i i wasn't therapy while i was in phd because i just found found myself deeply 18:57.580 --> 19:04.320 depressed i think it was uh during the covid times and that one was that was when my whole 19:04.320 --> 19:08.760 world crashed because i had this ambition that i will go to the united states i will get my degree 19:08.760 --> 19:13.820 i will become this person of the world i will live in york city or i will be traveling the world 19:13.820 --> 19:20.600 and i will be pursuing my artistic career i will be pursuing my engineering career or whatever it will 19:20.600 --> 19:29.140 be i thought of myself as that i will be this free unleashed person who will just finally embrace her 19:29.140 --> 19:42.360 global and very big dreams uh-huh little did i know 2020 comes and the world turns with its ass towards 19:42.360 --> 19:49.660 me would say i realized that new york city is not a place of dream anymore because the people 19:49.660 --> 19:56.440 like myself who disagreed with whatever madness was happening would not be able to leave home 19:57.160 --> 20:05.340 my favorite italy went into some absolute terrible regime not allowing people to leave 20:05.340 --> 20:12.960 home because they did not want to participate in a biological experiment this is what it was 20:13.800 --> 20:20.280 and people around me in the academia also went absolutely nuts like they lost their mind it's 20:20.280 --> 20:29.360 how it fell because they're like i every week i was bringing results the data to my advisor to 20:29.360 --> 20:36.760 everybody like we had group meetings we were analyzing the data i took the device i took the 20:36.760 --> 20:46.580 curves i put them in the power point i analyzed them drew conclusions okay this is fact whatever 20:46.580 --> 20:53.500 i measured is a fact we explained the fact and when these people were telling that it's a fact 20:53.500 --> 21:00.420 that it's all safe and good it's a fact i'm like no it's not a fact it's not a fact how can you 21:00.420 --> 21:05.360 say that this is a fact you are a scientist you deal with it every single day how does it not 21:06.740 --> 21:13.500 come to you clearly right now what what is going on with you and everyone just went i saw how 21:13.500 --> 21:22.820 their psyche some something very animalistic robotic overtook the analytical overtook the critical 21:22.820 --> 21:33.240 thinking and so i watched everything crumble and at some point yeah i was like whenever i was not 21:33.240 --> 21:41.500 at work i wasn't bad with headphones like my my eyes were like slowly leaking and every week 21:41.500 --> 21:47.720 and i was losing and losing and losing and losing sense of getting up and doing anything and i realized 21:47.720 --> 21:52.000 yeah because you because you never got vaccinated you weren't allowed to come to work am i right 21:52.000 --> 21:58.040 i was allowed to come to work i actually barely graduated so i would not be allowed the thing 21:58.040 --> 22:05.140 they had the regime started on august 1st 2021 and i graduated i defended my thesis in july 22:05.140 --> 22:10.940 and i was banned to go to work but i already got my work off or so i was kind of overlapping between 22:11.500 --> 22:18.880 at work where we had remote work and i also got fired from work because of that eventually and 22:18.880 --> 22:23.980 so i had to i had an opportunity for half a year they allowed us to not be vaccinated working 22:23.980 --> 22:29.280 remote so i was finishing my thesis in the meantime some formalities basically remain 22:29.940 --> 22:39.000 and uh yeah so it's in the i think january 1st 2022 i received an email or even like earlier 22:39.000 --> 22:44.560 from my institution where i was receiving my degree so i barely submitted everything 22:44.560 --> 22:48.960 in there like oh you're not allowed on campus or you're not allowed to work remotely without 22:48.960 --> 22:56.880 vaccination remotely you were not allowed to do it so it was a purely some it was pure corruption 22:56.880 --> 23:02.080 it was not it was not for anything at that point there was no reason they're just punishing 23:02.080 --> 23:06.900 you know yeah yeah it was not it was it was such a nonsense so that's what i'm saying that 23:06.900 --> 23:14.900 everything related to my career crumbled all of the places that were supposed to fulfill my dreams 23:15.860 --> 23:22.260 showed their other side and so yeah i ended up this like meaning crisis 23:23.400 --> 23:30.040 decided to go to therapy because i realized i cannot just do i cannot just put my mental 23:30.040 --> 23:37.820 health as a burden on my loved one and i had like it started literally affecting other areas of my 23:37.820 --> 23:44.100 life so i went through therapy my therapist eventually told me about this lady who who is a 23:44.100 --> 23:49.080 sexologist she has like huge huge career in sexology she's a very bad person in russia 23:49.080 --> 23:54.860 and then she also has this interest in indian culture in tantra and she actually lived in 23:54.860 --> 24:02.140 in some temple in kamakhia temple where they actually hold on to the country tradition outside of their 24:03.520 --> 24:08.600 basically in india there was some process of centralization of spiritual life they actually 24:08.600 --> 24:13.280 had the military uprising in that region against the decentralization they wanted to keep the 24:13.280 --> 24:19.940 tradition alive so she lived in that temple she got initiated and she teaches tantra 24:20.920 --> 24:26.920 i went through this course after several years since then because because what happened was i 24:27.620 --> 24:34.740 went through this covid nonsense i i managed to stay at my work until for a year for a whole 24:34.740 --> 24:40.700 year after they fired me formally uh because they were they kept delaying it they were like 24:40.700 --> 24:45.760 well you can you can you can keep working remotely filthy you filthy you just stay at 24:45.760 --> 24:49.820 remote i'm like okay i'll stay remote but i already had plans that i will leave because i mean they 24:49.820 --> 24:55.460 told me that we'll fire you at any point i'm like i it's disgusting to me in this position 24:56.200 --> 25:02.600 i i am i am i have a doctor degree in science and you are firing me because of something 25:03.120 --> 25:10.480 so ridiculous it's it's a huge act of disrespect uh so i stayed there and then um 25:10.480 --> 25:17.320 gathered some funds and quit decided to come to start working my youtube and stuff but then 25:17.320 --> 25:26.460 i was in for a veganism and uh i felt like i was in a very good mission so um i was doing 25:26.460 --> 25:33.120 exclusively things that i loved i picked up sewing clothing design also another childhood 25:33.120 --> 25:40.800 passion of mine youtube sewing all of these pursuits super beautiful life not needing to 25:40.800 --> 25:45.920 go to work and do what i didn't want to do interfacing with people that i didn't hear to interface 25:46.560 --> 25:54.540 then moved to tropics for a year and there i realized that i'm still not happy i still 25:54.540 --> 25:59.580 feel empty like what's what's what's going on with me like at that point when i lived in total 25:59.580 --> 26:05.140 paradise doing things that i love i still felt like something was off and i started auditing it 26:05.140 --> 26:11.320 i was like okay do you want bigger apartment will it make you happy no do you want more money 26:11.880 --> 26:18.100 no maybe like having like a little bit like more stable financial thing would be more pleasant okay 26:18.100 --> 26:25.620 but in general would you would it make you happy no would you want a different relationship no 26:26.980 --> 26:31.380 would you want different climate you're in tropics you're you're by the seaside no 26:32.040 --> 26:35.940 what do you want and i'm like i don't know what i want but something is wrong 26:37.340 --> 26:42.240 so i decided to and then i saw that this lady would have had her course in tundra and i'm 26:42.240 --> 26:47.760 like i'm just gonna go for it because her slogan was if you're f-ing tired of suffering 26:49.300 --> 26:56.780 you should join and then i yeah so i went through this course and was revolutionary too because 26:58.180 --> 27:05.580 for the first time in life i felt like i am the only one responsible for cultivating joy in my life 27:05.580 --> 27:14.120 for cultivating life that i want cultivating life that's aligned with my full authentic self 27:14.120 --> 27:18.040 and actually there's there were so many discoveries that 27:19.240 --> 27:25.120 it's just absolutely fascinating i didn't even expect it i just knew that the person was legit 27:25.120 --> 27:32.980 and i went by recommendation and then i discovered everything that tundra is that is kind 27:32.980 --> 27:40.740 of contradictory to how it's usually perceived in the society and i was really amazed with 27:40.740 --> 27:46.860 the results to be honest so so how how does it work because the pursuit of happiness is what 27:46.860 --> 27:52.500 everybody wants everybody wants to be happy but it's so elusive and you're right i've met so many 27:52.500 --> 27:58.500 people who are multimillionaires and they're miserable so while money can make your life 27:58.500 --> 28:07.500 easier and better it doesn't guarantee happiness happiness is a tricky one so i mean i i've got 28:07.500 --> 28:11.660 my ideas about how to be happy but what what have you learned from your teachings in your course 28:11.660 --> 28:19.660 and from your own personal experience super insightful consultation and doc m came into it with an 28:19.660 --> 28:25.080 incredible amount of information and support i really felt he was there to help that he cared 28:25.080 --> 28:30.880 and that he genuinely wants the best for you can't recommend him enough thanks again doc 28:30.880 --> 28:38.160 from dave and folks if you want to see 40 other reviews five star reviews just visit my website 28:38.800 --> 28:44.860 doc malik.com and you can look at in the menu consultations or go directly to the booking page 28:44.860 --> 28:53.260 doc malik.setmore.com book a consultation with me if you're unsure about how to move forward 28:53.260 --> 28:58.580 with a diagnosis with a treatment plan or you feel like you're stuck in a rut you don't 28:58.580 --> 29:04.920 trust your doctor you've had surgeries or and pills and you've got side effects whatever it might be 29:05.540 --> 29:12.400 i can help you i can act as your advocate i can help you work the system to your benefit 29:13.080 --> 29:18.900 knowing what questions to ask and to explore options that the mainstream doctors might not 29:18.900 --> 29:23.160 have covered with you folks if this resonates with you please book a consultation with me 29:23.160 --> 29:28.200 and i can't wait to help you first you were absolutely right in the beginning when i gave 29:28.200 --> 29:35.180 the introduction that it's that country's uh first not i don't want to word pursuit perhaps but 29:35.780 --> 29:44.020 it's establishment of unity between mind body your intuition for spirit whichever terminology 29:44.020 --> 29:50.580 you prefer it's flexible so this is this concept of unity and unity effectively means 29:50.580 --> 29:56.220 authenticity when i'm not acting against my body while i'm pursuing my spirituality for example 29:56.840 --> 30:02.960 when i'm not making decisions because they're the irrational to do it but i will be suffering 30:02.960 --> 30:09.580 i will know that i'm somewhere i am deceiving my deceiving my genetic predisposition for something 30:10.400 --> 30:16.980 i am deceiving my emotional makeup no we're not doing that we're pursuing this unity 30:17.830 --> 30:25.580 and then this unity becomes the diagnostic tool partially because first of all you need to scan 30:26.270 --> 30:29.160 where you are not authentic where you are 30:31.040 --> 30:38.020 changing the scheme in your life and why why is it happening and on the other hand 30:38.020 --> 30:49.200 tantra offers the tools for calming you down because we also carry we sometimes we cannot 30:49.200 --> 30:55.680 achieve this authenticity there's unity between those elements because we have disorder within 30:55.680 --> 31:01.580 each of those systems body mind and intuition so first thing the first thing that is done 31:01.580 --> 31:09.480 in tantric course is paying attention to health literally the most basic earthly worldly things 31:09.480 --> 31:18.520 do you eat well are you well nourished do you sleep well do you walk do are you in nature ever 31:18.520 --> 31:25.580 do you walk do you move this is literally step zero because if you're you can you can be 31:25.580 --> 31:31.180 you can be in therapy and i had the cases like that and that's where veganism comes in 31:31.580 --> 31:38.200 into the in the picture if you are malnourished you spend years malnourishing yourself 31:38.200 --> 31:43.920 know which mental health are we going to talk about brain is an incredibly expensive organ 31:44.660 --> 31:52.500 it requires you to be very healthy omega-3s are in check iron is in check with B vitamins are in 31:52.500 --> 31:59.700 check then we can speak about neurological health protein in check fats you get enough calories 31:59.700 --> 32:07.300 in general so this is when we can start talking when when people come and they're like on 20 32:07.300 --> 32:13.060 supplements they're on some fancy diet like vegan diet and they struggle with depression with 32:13.060 --> 32:19.280 emotional issues with with brain fog with all of those things no i mean north therapist will do 32:19.280 --> 32:26.540 the trip yeah you can go pacify yourself with antidepressants but it's it's masking the 32:26.540 --> 32:34.460 issue masking the problem then when we dialed in the physical health the client for example comes to 32:34.460 --> 32:40.140 you you you instruct them that okay for we're not starting from now we're on a very strict 32:40.140 --> 32:46.320 regimen of your prioritizing your sleep prioritizing good food prioritizing movement 32:47.400 --> 32:55.500 this is this is fixed then we go on to relaxation because meet a lot of people 32:56.740 --> 33:00.480 a lot of people don't breathe through their entire body through their entire column 33:01.640 --> 33:07.320 there is basically there is oftentimes there's a nodule in the center near the diaphragm 33:08.060 --> 33:12.760 the diaphragm doesn't push down they don't breathe with their belly they hyperventilate 33:13.580 --> 33:19.320 so they have this background anxiety that is from the habit of improper breathing for example 33:20.460 --> 33:27.200 when were you relaxed fully last time many people weren't fully relaxed for many years 33:27.820 --> 33:34.300 so how can they access their most pristine most embodied state 33:36.580 --> 33:44.680 so the next skill we learn is deep relaxation calming down the nervous system such that we 33:44.680 --> 33:49.460 can see ourselves because what do we do in this anxiety when we have a monkey brain 33:51.860 --> 33:54.600 constant flashing electricity through the body 33:58.220 --> 34:04.740 where's a tantric sex in that it's down the road it's very much down the road 34:04.740 --> 34:09.780 learn to be first of all learn to be yourself learn to be in your body fully 34:09.780 --> 34:17.320 so we start relaxing there are practices wonderful practices such as yoga nidra 34:18.190 --> 34:25.940 but allow you to sleep drift to sleep deep very nice sleep or very deep relaxation 34:26.390 --> 34:33.020 if you don't fall asleep during those things become regular breathing patterns that 34:33.900 --> 34:39.880 activate vagus nerve or calm it down calm that calm it down that turn on the parasympathetic 34:39.880 --> 34:51.400 nervous system those things become our habit until we automate those things then after we tapped in 34:52.500 --> 34:58.480 relaxation after we started we have to build some baseline how it is to feel good 34:59.860 --> 35:04.020 we start noticing the problem more vividly we can connect with what is our problem 35:05.360 --> 35:11.600 we start being able to work with the actual issue because the client usually will bring not that 35:12.860 --> 35:17.680 no not that I need to deeply relax it will bring some problem like for example I'm unhappy in 35:17.680 --> 35:21.620 my relationship for like five years we've been having these and these and these issues or 35:21.620 --> 35:26.600 I'm incredibly burnt out at work I cannot keep up with my career I don't know what to do I'm 35:26.600 --> 35:31.440 very scared financial issues pressure a lot a lot a lot a person isn't also this pressure worker 35:33.240 --> 35:40.760 and you start tapping into their issue now start unfolding and unwrapping it how can we work with 35:40.760 --> 35:46.860 us we do visualization meditation and compared to conventional psychotherapy where a person 35:46.860 --> 35:53.720 just talks talks talks talks tantra allows tools to go kind of around psychological 35:53.720 --> 36:00.880 defenses where we can go into meditation and work directly with the imagery because sometimes 36:00.880 --> 36:08.860 people cannot put their ideas their thoughts in the verbal form sometimes it's easier to work with 36:08.860 --> 36:17.360 imagery and senses so when in therapy a person is instructed to describe what they're feeling 36:17.360 --> 36:24.760 describe their issues sometimes there is some prohibition for certain words sometimes person 36:24.760 --> 36:31.780 cannot communicate it clearly therapist needs to unravel it very very gradually in tantra we can 36:31.780 --> 36:36.400 go into the world of images and the world of images kind of allows people to just see it 36:36.400 --> 36:43.700 for face value suddenly I see my problem so in meditation we can access that and then we 36:43.700 --> 36:48.260 can work with it on the imagery plane for example there was a fascinating case of a woman 36:48.260 --> 36:55.760 struggling with infertility and uh physically she was healthy that's a common issue sometimes 36:55.760 --> 37:01.780 there's psychogenic infertility all of a sudden doctors say that everything's fine 37:02.440 --> 37:10.740 ovulation happens for example con conception doesn't and uh started going to she went 37:10.740 --> 37:16.320 through therapy and then she went to tantra coach and in the meditation 37:18.560 --> 37:25.520 she visualized it as there is a desired thing surrounded by by the fortress 37:27.040 --> 37:33.020 so for her this like act of desired pregnancy or the pros of desired pregnancy was behind 37:33.020 --> 37:40.380 the fortress was protected by this monolithic wall and so what was done is that she was guided 37:40.740 --> 37:47.540 to walk around it and not force it not jump over it not like break this wall but try to find 37:48.460 --> 37:54.840 how she could go through this wall how she could make the door appear and so she was working on her 37:54.840 --> 38:03.140 issue in the space of imagery that was totally seemingly unrelated to anything with the body 38:03.140 --> 38:09.020 anything with pregnancy she just was working with some barrier that existed in her and she 38:09.020 --> 38:15.340 visualized it as a as a fortress and there are many ways how people come up in my practice people 38:15.340 --> 38:19.940 come up with very interesting associations very interesting imagery for their problems 38:21.000 --> 38:27.900 and then it's a psychophysical space we're working literally with with what with how our 38:27.900 --> 38:34.940 brain conceptualizes the process that happened in our psychophysical space which means that 38:34.940 --> 38:42.600 they can be manipulated with very metaphysical perhaps not realistic tools that we that we wouldn't 38:42.600 --> 38:49.020 be using in the physical world but since it's all mental space we have we have an ability to 38:49.860 --> 38:56.260 work on them with something with some any transmutation you want but you just come 38:56.260 --> 39:02.900 with some authentic method of undoing certain barrier of opening your own doors of removing 39:02.900 --> 39:10.020 that cloud of outgrowing something you can out you can grow bigger you can grow stronger 39:10.620 --> 39:17.400 you can grow softer and this reflects on your body immediately and you from this image 39:18.080 --> 39:21.960 you suddenly access the state in which the problem doesn't exist 39:24.000 --> 39:31.140 and you memorize it you memorize it you're familiar with it right away and because it's 39:31.140 --> 39:37.360 such a vivid impression you're in meditation it's a vivid impression anytime you remember you said 39:37.360 --> 39:43.980 to drink tea you like remember the state you immerse yourself in it you face the problem that's 39:43.980 --> 39:48.900 like recurring behavioral problem in your life you remember the state and you're like oh 39:50.420 --> 39:55.920 and you act differently because you now have remembered it's very strong imprint 39:56.710 --> 40:04.700 and then there are also practices that are for reconceptualizing rewiring your 40:04.700 --> 40:10.780 impression of some traumatic events there are practices that allow you to access the full 40:10.780 --> 40:19.960 repertoire of your personality because cliche image I'm a boss girl I come from work I cannot 40:19.960 --> 40:26.240 stop I'm a boss girl I'm wired up I cannot relax I cannot give in I cannot just enjoy 40:26.240 --> 40:30.160 my meals no I will be enjoying my food I'm not gonna enjoy them I will be rushing them like 40:30.160 --> 40:38.440 boss girl I will be kicking ass and are you are you exercising everything you're capable of 40:38.440 --> 40:44.520 or are you stuck in your role that prevents you from enjoying your life maybe if you 40:44.520 --> 40:50.500 discover multiple roles multiple facets of your personality maybe you will be able to explore 40:50.500 --> 40:57.840 life with more pleasure maybe you will be more inside of the experiences that life throws at you 40:59.000 --> 41:01.620 that's another stream of work in tantrum 41:03.800 --> 41:10.160 and that creates a huge like foundation for a person because the more resources you have 41:11.500 --> 41:14.960 the more stable you are the calmer you are so it creates this 41:15.680 --> 41:23.720 perpetuation of your habit of living in a stable very comfortable state being able to relax because 41:23.720 --> 41:30.940 when you're trying to solve any problem from a weird misfit state you are not going to succeed 41:30.940 --> 41:37.320 it will create a lot of tension a lot of barrier like if I'm if I regress into a child when I 41:37.320 --> 41:41.780 need to solve a business problem I probably won't succeed probably will just break down crying 41:42.920 --> 41:51.000 it's not gonna work but if I'm if I'm lady boss in in bed with my lover probably also is not gonna 41:51.000 --> 42:01.040 work and if I the opposite situation if I start being flirty and playful at work perhaps I also 42:01.040 --> 42:09.620 won't get things done necessarily so managing those things keeping them under control knowing 42:10.420 --> 42:19.320 your full repertoire is also very very empowering tool that we learn and that is done through 42:22.240 --> 42:28.140 it's a very meticulous work in which a coach will demand a person to fully exhaust 42:29.020 --> 42:35.220 there to make a fully exhaustive list of all the personas all of the facets that they possess 42:35.220 --> 42:44.720 including things that are kind of yucky for them we also tap into that little shadow shadow concept 42:45.540 --> 42:48.740 the concept of shadow the concept of what's good what's bad 42:49.400 --> 42:59.120 intention not interesting thing is that we flip this hierarchy of bad shameful or this is desirable 42:59.120 --> 43:05.020 I will never be here like this is some of your mom's that your mom's best friend daughter and I 43:05.020 --> 43:10.420 will never be this and this is something normal for me we flip this hierarchy into horizontal 43:10.420 --> 43:17.080 thing just tools and this is also very interesting and funny work when I work with clients and that 43:18.040 --> 43:24.860 because when you flip this hierarchy suddenly like you objected some some female archetype 43:24.860 --> 43:32.260 for example some dirty let's say some like dirty like prostitute how my client described that 43:32.260 --> 43:41.760 she's sitting smoking on the curb she's like so like rude she like cusses and I don't know why 43:42.380 --> 43:46.580 men even go to this this how my client was describing this archetype 43:47.660 --> 43:53.180 and that was something that she felt objection towards and I said how can we functionalize it 43:54.500 --> 44:00.360 people go for she's alive she's alive and she kind of got into your field of attention 44:01.120 --> 44:06.580 what can you what can we get from this archetype what's also functionalized such that we remove 44:06.580 --> 44:13.640 this hierarchy in which when we have hierarchy we allow others to judge ourselves as well because we 44:13.640 --> 44:21.540 put ourselves in this hierarchy when we judge someone it's a sign that we live in this vertical 44:21.540 --> 44:29.200 thing when there's someone above us someone beneath us flip it let's just see everything as tools 44:29.200 --> 44:36.920 everything just living in its own place that's another stream of work and then there are more 44:36.920 --> 44:43.640 like elaborate already things that we can tap into I just want to like to speak because I think I 44:43.640 --> 44:50.180 occupied the mic I'm listening I'm listening and I don't want to speak over you it's just so 44:50.180 --> 44:55.520 layered I mean the thing is the thing you started with Nastya I can't agree more with you the 44:55.520 --> 45:02.980 health if you're sick if you're on alcohol drinking alcohol you need a coffee to to function in the 45:02.980 --> 45:09.000 morning you're already not in your natural state and I and I say to people the biggest con in our 45:09.000 --> 45:15.440 life is you know we go to school we sit there with people our age for six seven hours learning 45:15.440 --> 45:21.880 God knows what stuff that's not relevant to our lives then we go and work until we're 65 70 45:21.880 --> 45:27.480 and then we die you know after two three years of retirement and pension and it's like what is this 45:27.480 --> 45:32.580 life all about but you know in in that year that we've got of working we go away on holiday for two 45:32.580 --> 45:37.920 weeks we walk in the beach barefoot with the water you know lapping against our feet and you 45:37.920 --> 45:43.760 know we feel great we eat lovely healthy food we're in the sunshine we're outside of nature 45:43.760 --> 45:50.180 and we feel amazing and then we come back to work yeah and actually those two weeks 45:51.040 --> 45:59.020 aren't amazing it's just that's our natural state and the and the other 50 weeks in the year 45:59.020 --> 46:06.700 we're in an unnatural state hyper stressed cortisol through the roof our sympathetic system on 46:06.700 --> 46:12.560 overdrive our adrenal is burning out and we're miserable and unhappy and we're doing a job 46:12.560 --> 46:16.080 nine to five to pay off our student debts and our loans and our mortgage 46:16.800 --> 46:20.920 and we're not really happy and we might be with someone that we don't really love and we're just 46:20.920 --> 46:25.120 there because we don't want to be alone or it's financially too difficult to live on your own 46:25.120 --> 46:34.320 you know but the thing is true true authenticity is what that two week on holidays like it's 46:34.320 --> 46:39.680 bliss and happiness and imagine you felt that every single day throughout the year 46:39.680 --> 46:45.080 like you're on holiday that is our natural state and imagine that's what your happiness is like and 46:45.080 --> 46:51.840 so i get it like how can you do any work on anyone when they're physically not healthy and it's the 46:51.840 --> 46:57.940 basics like you said sleep just eat well drink good water stay away from drugs and toxins and 46:58.840 --> 47:03.300 SSRIs that literally just numb you and stop you feeling anything happiness or sadness 47:04.000 --> 47:08.180 um but then also when you're talking about the different layers of tantra i mean get 47:08.180 --> 47:16.860 correct me if i'm wrong i almost feel like some of it is the spell casting so words today we don't 47:16.860 --> 47:23.100 learn the root of the words the etymology of where the words come from because so many words are cast 47:23.100 --> 47:30.020 like spells that keep us in this captive mindset and subservient mindset like do you understand 47:30.020 --> 47:37.760 you're underneath you know you understand or the government the you're governing your mind or all 47:37.760 --> 47:44.040 these kind of things so our thoughts our thoughts and perceptions become the words and our words 47:44.660 --> 47:51.260 cast spells they are powerful and if we use the right words we create our reality we shape 47:51.260 --> 47:57.140 our reality that's what we are all about we are reality generators so it's really important 47:57.140 --> 48:02.660 that we have the right intentions and the right words we say the right things because that's how 48:02.660 --> 48:07.880 we shape our reality around us and maybe with the tantra coaching you're getting people to think 48:08.540 --> 48:15.260 a reality that is optimal rather than negative for them if that makes sense yes it does actually 48:15.260 --> 48:20.720 set the spell yeah every word does a spell and especially the words that are pronounced 48:20.720 --> 48:28.180 to add emotional load because i mean if you if someone just radioing something monotonously 48:28.180 --> 48:34.220 you probably won't be picking up certain things unless something just rings rings with your current 48:35.140 --> 48:41.640 current need or current issue you probably won't be picking up words but if something is said 48:41.640 --> 48:51.700 with a lot of weight this is what i hear a lot people get very caught talking about not they 48:51.700 --> 48:57.100 wouldn't word for example they're not feeling well today they will not say that they are 48:58.040 --> 49:07.440 somewhat unwell which is to me the declaration that i love myself i love myself and there is 49:07.440 --> 49:14.180 something that's not too well usually it's well today it's not so much well perhaps everyone can 49:14.180 --> 49:20.180 wake up like tired or something happens somebody sneezed at someone and the next day they're like 49:20.180 --> 49:30.140 maybe hypochondriac about it but when people put push the i like to call it s word s i c k 49:30.140 --> 49:40.600 they push it with emotion that they feel s i c k and they feel so much passion to it and to me this 49:40.600 --> 49:46.480 is the sign that you assign the identity to yourself i sign this negative identity because 49:46.480 --> 49:53.360 this is this comes with from the place of full agreement and passion for you you set you agree 49:53.360 --> 49:58.640 with it so much with what you're pronouncing right now that it charges up all of your feelings 50:00.820 --> 50:06.120 and i i just hear it said all the time like people declare things 50:07.020 --> 50:12.260 when they're complaining i call it also scare blessings i want to just sometimes when people 50:12.260 --> 50:17.400 are complaining and nagging over and over and over about some issues i just want to tap them on the 50:17.400 --> 50:23.100 shoulder and they'll stop scaring blessings like if you're if you believe in god let god love you 50:23.100 --> 50:28.960 back why are you declaring all these things why are you hypnotizing everyone because it 50:28.960 --> 50:35.740 works also not just a good not just in spiritual plane from very practical thing i call it creating 50:35.740 --> 50:43.240 a verbal portrait of yourself people are memorizing you for what you're saying for what absolutely 50:44.220 --> 50:50.780 so people will be looking at you they will you know how we like to categorize things we like to 50:50.780 --> 50:57.100 describe something like create some some shell definition of things so if person said something 50:57.100 --> 51:02.920 like five times with a lot of passion you will be like okay this is bob bob without with money issues 51:02.920 --> 51:07.200 you will you will think that way okay this is bob with money issues i put them put them in my library 51:07.200 --> 51:15.320 is that then this is catty with headaches this is headache catty she has headaches every day 51:15.320 --> 51:21.160 so this is how brain will categorize so when you see the person it pulls primarily from 51:21.160 --> 51:26.440 your internal library it's not it's not no longer waits for the new input from this person 51:26.440 --> 51:34.100 it already pulls the stereotype about this person and so you look at them with like well tell me about 51:34.100 --> 51:41.120 your headache i guess or how is your wallet going doing today as empty as yesterday like 51:41.880 --> 51:46.560 so you set this expectation and and this becomes a mirror you create a mirror but by 51:46.560 --> 51:52.140 generating this verbal portrait people start mirroring that before you know it because 51:52.940 --> 52:01.600 brain loves automation it's not going to waste a bit of energy to relearn new thing about you it will 52:02.380 --> 52:07.040 create automation about you of some person it's some person will create automation about you 52:07.580 --> 52:12.620 so it's you need to be responsible for what verbal verbal portrait you build what state 52:12.620 --> 52:17.920 portrait you built absolutely and what do you think of this i think the universe always listens 52:17.920 --> 52:23.880 the universe always answers but the thing is what we put out to the universe can be very conflicting 52:23.880 --> 52:31.160 and confusing so for example if you say i want to have more i want to have money i want to have 52:31.160 --> 52:35.800 money oh please universe give me money i need money i want money what you're actually telling 52:36.320 --> 52:40.540 is that you don't have money that's what you're telling you're saying i don't have money 52:40.540 --> 52:45.800 yeah i'm a desperate miserable person yeah i'm a desperate miserable person i have no money 52:45.800 --> 52:50.320 so the universe goes okay you've got you've got no money then and it's like or i want to be happy 52:50.840 --> 52:55.340 and then what the body is hearing is you're not happy okay you're not happy then you're not going to 52:55.340 --> 53:00.860 be happy so you need to you need to get past that and you need to be truly grateful you need 53:00.860 --> 53:06.120 to imagine yourself in the state that you want to be in and feel it like it's actually there 53:06.660 --> 53:11.480 and then the body and the universe will respond in kind so you don't say i want to be happy 53:11.480 --> 53:19.100 you say i am happy i am grateful and i'm happy for being who i am and for my life and then the body 53:19.100 --> 53:23.980 will respond in kind and the universe will respond in kind i think that's one of the things 53:23.980 --> 53:29.880 i've kind of learned i don't know if that stands too woo-woo to you it's uh what i want to um 53:29.880 --> 53:36.960 actually uh extract from this is that you make the first step as you said i'm happy you need 53:36.960 --> 53:43.580 to feel that state first the universe is not there it's not it's not apparent the universe is just again 53:43.580 --> 53:53.820 is what is universe for us universe is the energy mirror in essence which is composed of what we are 53:53.820 --> 54:00.900 seeing as opportunities in life and what we and what people see in us that we pick on like as mirror 54:00.900 --> 54:13.660 to mirror so we show up first always we bring to the world what we value the most i am happy is 54:13.660 --> 54:18.980 when it's from the authentic state you're no longer looking at universe to give you anything 54:20.380 --> 54:27.860 you're just showing it how to reflect you so you came first with this con you came first 54:27.860 --> 54:33.680 to this feeling this is where you take responsibility yes that's what actually my discovery in country was 54:34.340 --> 54:41.720 i take responsibility i claim my my truth because it is scary sometimes it is scary for example it's 54:41.720 --> 54:48.320 like oh my my my whole thing was that i felt like i was my mom's project my entire life like my mom 54:48.920 --> 54:54.500 wanted me to go to another country my mom wanted me to pursue certain career that would enable 54:54.500 --> 55:02.220 my success and so on and i had an idea that i need to be an artist is my thing pursue more artistic 55:02.220 --> 55:09.640 thing i want to be a clothing designer an artist but i ended up in very hardcore science 55:11.320 --> 55:17.880 so i always felt like i was my mom's project and i was supposed to be a sign i was supposed to be 55:17.880 --> 55:26.080 an artist on whoever and i realized that i never claimed what i wanted like i never claimed i always 55:26.080 --> 55:33.640 looked for approval i never made the first step to show that i am on the path no i always was hiding i 55:33.640 --> 55:39.180 was like okay if engineering doesn't work i will tell that i'm more of a more of an artist if 55:39.180 --> 55:43.980 artistry doesn't work if my artistic pursues don't work i was like i will say that i'm an 55:43.980 --> 55:49.880 engineer so i never claimed and i never took responsibility and i always had expectations 55:49.880 --> 55:55.580 that somebody will notice somebody will approve like some parent will come some good parent you know 55:55.580 --> 56:01.920 i had this like um that parent the cruel parent who pushed me to do this but some better parent 56:01.920 --> 56:11.280 will come and will tell me that now you can do it no the moment you leave parental home 56:11.280 --> 56:19.080 you are on your own and that was the illusion that i had to shed that it's a claim it claim it you 56:19.080 --> 56:25.140 want to be a tantric coach you don't need your anyone to approve it you want to do it claim it and do 56:25.140 --> 56:33.800 it scary scary the same with you yeah yeah i was gonna say so like um where did the 56:33.800 --> 56:40.440 veganism come in so i know you had some acne issues and then to me acne is your gut 56:40.440 --> 56:47.000 telling you it's not happy and the gut brain access the gut immune access is huge 56:47.720 --> 56:53.720 um did you find going vegan helped with your acne and then why did you leave veganism 56:54.320 --> 56:59.820 i would say that veganism was not uh the veganism it was raw veganism specifically because 56:59.820 --> 57:06.820 i was plant-based three years before i went to the us and i found that whole plant-based 57:06.820 --> 57:12.640 eating is a thing because in russia i was eating pretty good diet i mean very complete but 57:12.640 --> 57:21.580 with some junk food probably with some sweets with uh mayonnaise and stuff so i went to america 57:21.580 --> 57:26.780 and i realized that there's whole foods you can buy organic foods and eat very the beautiful 57:26.780 --> 57:32.940 delicious things started kind of flirting with mediterranean diet whole grains fish 57:32.940 --> 57:40.400 whole tree beans and stuff and uh the acne was not the main thing probably was bothering me it was my 57:40.400 --> 57:49.760 grains and uh also my joint started kind of hurting and was all on plant-based diet but while 57:49.760 --> 57:56.640 on plant-based diet i never liked any vegan influencers online i never related to them 57:56.640 --> 58:00.480 because i didn't like how they looked i didn't like their messaging i don't know i kind of 58:01.120 --> 58:05.480 i cannot empathize with vegans i cannot the only person that i loved online 58:06.000 --> 58:12.020 was marcus rothcrans and he was raw vegan i felt so related to him and his girlfriend 58:12.720 --> 58:18.580 i binge watched his stuff for example i would be at night in the lab my device would be running 58:18.580 --> 58:23.900 some tests or something and in the meantime would have like my youtube playing so i watched 58:23.900 --> 58:28.740 his videos for a couple of years and it was very convincing raw veganism was much more 58:28.740 --> 58:35.120 convincing than veganism and i designed the diet that was complete such that it fulfills all 58:35.120 --> 58:43.880 amino acid needs vitamins minerals with surplus supplemented bit well vitamin d and uh for the 58:43.880 --> 58:51.060 first time in life i was without migraines that was a huge huge huge salvation for me because 58:51.060 --> 58:59.420 i had migraines since childhood and uh twice a year when i was a teenager my parents would give me 58:59.940 --> 59:04.920 through the doctor would give me like injections i would take like three injections a day 59:05.680 --> 59:11.180 for a couple of weeks or for a month twice a year i would be off migraines the injection 59:11.180 --> 59:18.920 stopped the next day i have migraines on raw veganism i witnessed the miracle so what was 59:19.640 --> 59:23.320 i did not think about meat i did i did not i thought about the 59:23.940 --> 59:31.220 grain elimination later so grains to me were the problem the major thing grains and starches 59:31.220 --> 59:37.260 so i was raw vegan for three years but then um exhaustion i guess i wasn't very low not that low 59:37.980 --> 59:43.860 a little bit lower suboptimal methionin levels consumption of consumption and methionin is 59:43.860 --> 59:51.520 important for retention of normal collagen bone mass it basically regulates homocysteine and vegans 59:51.520 --> 59:57.540 usually suffer from homocysteine being elevated it's a proven thing statistically that's what happens 59:57.540 --> 01:00:04.300 and vegans usually have lower methionin in the blood as well so i'm assuming that that was the 01:00:04.300 --> 01:00:08.660 problem among others but then i conducted the whole study afterwards but what i noticed by the 01:00:08.660 --> 01:00:14.660 end of veganism that is that i had an injury for the first time in my life i was always stretching 01:00:14.660 --> 01:00:22.060 like crazy doing acrobatics easily this time like by the end of veganism i did a squat and i stretched 01:00:22.060 --> 01:00:28.880 something in my hip and it wouldn't heal seven months it was not healing and my skin started 01:00:28.880 --> 01:00:34.100 turning into absolute nonsense i would talk to my dad whose whose face but you inherited 01:00:34.920 --> 01:00:40.820 my dad is 20 years older he looks absolutely brilliant thick skin looks younger than his age 01:00:40.820 --> 01:00:48.580 and he smokes his entire life and i look older than him like some weirdness was was in my face 01:00:49.300 --> 01:00:55.120 and so this uh visible deterioration scared me a lot it was depressing me so much i would like 01:00:55.120 --> 01:01:00.200 walk by the mirror not recognizing myself and the injury not healing also i was always very 01:01:00.200 --> 01:01:03.540 empowered in my body i was very comfortable with my body i knew that i could do anything 01:01:04.180 --> 01:01:10.040 i could do any circus i wanted without any consequences and this time seven months from a squat 01:01:11.760 --> 01:01:17.980 what's going on so i just one day i just got so desperate and i quit because 01:01:18.580 --> 01:01:23.060 there was nothing i could do i also blood work was showing that i had elevated partheroid 01:01:23.060 --> 01:01:29.400 hormone which is vitamin d not being metabolized vitamin d requires cholesterol to 01:01:29.400 --> 01:01:35.160 get into your bloodstream so it's inevitable that you need it so i was not metabolizing 01:01:35.160 --> 01:01:38.960 vitamin d later i realized i was not metabolizing b12 from pills either 01:01:40.300 --> 01:01:46.720 which which requires animal fats and requires protein adequate amino acid profile 01:01:47.700 --> 01:01:53.320 and also i tended to have high iron with low ferritin so i also was not metabolizing iron 01:01:53.320 --> 01:01:59.020 so it was specifically not some like supplements it was cofactors for nutrients that were missing 01:01:59.400 --> 01:02:05.200 and also i was eating tremendous amount of fiber because i was on low sugar high fat 01:02:06.040 --> 01:02:14.080 high greens high bitter greens roe vegan diet so probably fiber flushing out everything along 01:02:14.080 --> 01:02:21.740 the way who was not helping either uh and i quit went animal based and i'm very happy i just keep 01:02:21.740 --> 01:02:27.440 i don't need grains still when i when i eat starches or grains i get headaches again 01:02:27.440 --> 01:02:34.200 because they cause water retention either so um so you're not you're not um you're your animal 01:02:34.200 --> 01:02:40.920 based now you're like an omnivore yeah but minus grains yeah yeah i mean the thing is with the 01:02:40.920 --> 01:02:45.760 grains as well so many of them are sprayed with things like glyphosate even the stuff that 01:02:45.760 --> 01:02:51.080 this air is organic i don't know if it is love it's gmo you just don't know what how these 01:02:51.080 --> 01:02:56.080 things have been made they've been sprayed with insecticide and pesticide and it's just 01:02:56.080 --> 01:03:02.360 full of toxins that's what i think and i don't know i think for a lot of people getting the ideal 01:03:02.360 --> 01:03:08.240 diet is so difficult you know the experiment with things like you know raw milk and then 01:03:08.240 --> 01:03:14.300 you know off the grains or you know vegan or vegetarian or purely carnivore i've got a friend 01:03:14.300 --> 01:03:19.220 who is purely carnivore that made her sick she realized it wasn't actually in the long run 01:03:19.220 --> 01:03:24.160 good for either in the beginning these kind of diets can help because if you go vegan or 01:03:24.160 --> 01:03:29.600 or you know carnivore you're kind of eliminating a lot of rubbish you know like the mayonnaise is 01:03:29.600 --> 01:03:34.140 full of seed oils so you get rid of all the seed oils you get rid of all this so yeah obviously 01:03:34.140 --> 01:03:38.520 you feel a little bit better but then in the long run i don't think physiologically we were 01:03:38.520 --> 01:03:43.780 designed to be like that we're designed to be omnivores and the funny thing is we're the 01:03:43.780 --> 01:03:48.460 only animal species on the planet who has a problem with the diet you know a bear never 01:03:48.460 --> 01:03:54.140 goes hmm what should i eat today should i be vegan or should i should i have me or or you know a 01:03:54.140 --> 01:03:59.580 lion lion never thinks hard about what what they're going to eat or a cow they know they all eat 01:04:00.160 --> 01:04:05.100 they're what they're what they're designed to eat whereas human beings we've got so confused 01:04:05.100 --> 01:04:11.140 and messed up and it's like um that's why i think a lot of us get sick but we need to get back 01:04:11.140 --> 01:04:17.060 to some kind of ancestral diet i think and away from this ultra process to not spraying all 01:04:17.060 --> 01:04:21.100 this garbage but it all comes back to like your original video that i was talking about 01:04:21.100 --> 01:04:27.880 that you covered so many topics ultimately this system is dispassionate it's cold it's 01:04:27.880 --> 01:04:34.640 unemotional and it's driven by profit that's all it cares about we are on planet human farm 01:04:34.640 --> 01:04:41.020 where we are farmed you know we're farmed and the sicker we get the better because they can 01:04:41.020 --> 01:04:45.900 profit from our sickness the sicker we are the better because then we can't resist our 01:04:45.900 --> 01:04:52.160 overlords the farm owners and we can't get our freedom back and so they like that they like us 01:04:52.160 --> 01:04:56.980 being sick and one of the ways of keeping us sick back to you know you said tantra how you make 01:04:56.980 --> 01:05:02.780 people happy and everything is being physically and you know healthy and strong if you're physically 01:05:02.780 --> 01:05:07.580 healthy and strong and robust then mentally you're physically strong and it all comes back 01:05:07.580 --> 01:05:13.280 to food food is the most important thing so that's what i found anyway on my journey i used 01:05:13.280 --> 01:05:19.500 to be diabetic hypertensive you know i've been through med school and here i was at 40 01:05:21.240 --> 01:05:26.760 overweight sick you know unhealthy and the doctors are all telling me my friends my 01:05:26.760 --> 01:05:30.220 colleagues are all telling me oh take my form and take a blood pressure medication take this 01:05:30.220 --> 01:05:35.760 drug take that drug and i'm thinking this cannot be right why is the solution to everything 01:05:35.760 --> 01:05:44.300 just a pill anyway anyway i've turned it around thank goodness thank you one of the things i found 01:05:44.300 --> 01:05:50.540 most powerful was actually limiting the eating window so you know this idea of have a little 01:05:50.540 --> 01:05:56.560 bit of food frequently is complete nonsense i i've gone to just literally one meal a day 01:05:57.360 --> 01:06:04.580 and and it's just changed my life it's driven down the insulin i feel less inflammatory i don't 01:06:04.580 --> 01:06:10.880 get bloating anymore i don't have that water retention it's quite remarkable but there's no 01:06:10.880 --> 01:06:20.240 money to be made and getting people to eat less that's the problem yeah that's yeah it's uh the 01:06:20.240 --> 01:06:26.380 focusing i don't know it's like you know you focus on those those things over those people who are 01:06:26.380 --> 01:06:30.880 trying to make money not even people anonymous organizations what's for it this way because 01:06:30.880 --> 01:06:35.240 it's always you are an individual and then there's anonymous blob that you cannot do anything with 01:06:35.760 --> 01:06:41.420 that's why that's why it's so such a powerful thing in the west when people just form a company 01:06:41.420 --> 01:06:49.420 and you become untouchable that's a very strong kind of split of responsibility that's 01:06:49.420 --> 01:06:52.940 happened and people don't acknowledge that they think that they're since because they're an 01:06:52.940 --> 01:06:57.660 individual they're dealing with something with any soul or any concept humane concept but no 01:06:57.660 --> 01:07:03.840 morals exist only for individuals everything else is regulated by different laws yeah but uh 01:07:03.840 --> 01:07:12.080 focusing on that is is not something i would say that would give you proper decisions perhaps 01:07:12.080 --> 01:07:19.180 because i remember a lot of people would go from veganism to some other extreme diets 01:07:19.900 --> 01:07:27.220 to to like following total conspiracy about nutrition and they remember it actually was pretty 01:07:27.220 --> 01:07:32.280 funny how some people with with veganism and they'll be like they are forcing us to be vegan 01:07:32.280 --> 01:07:38.360 blah blah that's why i'm going to do the opposite and i'm like no let's go from the other other 01:07:38.360 --> 01:07:43.640 place let's listen to ourselves still let's go back to ourselves yeah it can be a good starting 01:07:43.640 --> 01:07:49.700 point to think about that yeah there is some entity that wants me to do this and this but 01:07:50.360 --> 01:07:56.400 why do i give an f what this entity wants me or not doesn't want me to do who it's my life 01:07:56.400 --> 01:08:03.100 ultimately it's just different focus that i like to put and uh it's confusing indeed to 01:08:03.640 --> 01:08:10.280 as what to eat women especially struggle so much there's so much stress around food 01:08:10.280 --> 01:08:17.020 that this stress becomes a huge contributing factor to their deterioration over the nutritional 01:08:17.020 --> 01:08:23.280 qualities of food when they need for example when they learn that oh saturated fat and 01:08:23.280 --> 01:08:30.020 cholesterol is bad so i need to to be full i need to eat some grass and they eat grass and grass 01:08:30.020 --> 01:08:36.440 doesn't make them full or makes them full but not satisfied but they're avoiding what they really 01:08:36.440 --> 01:08:42.240 want what their body really craves because that's what's what's in the books so to speak 01:08:43.240 --> 01:08:49.180 and they end up malnourished because they're not coming from the place within they're afraid to 01:08:49.800 --> 01:08:56.540 claim their internal desire because it's said somewhere that it is bad to follow this desire 01:08:56.540 --> 01:09:03.320 eat grass instead eat this broccoli eat this like stocked broccoli girl go girl and be you be thin 01:09:04.280 --> 01:09:10.680 and then they struggle with hormonal issues as a result and stress goes up because i am in permanent 01:09:10.680 --> 01:09:16.900 conflict whether i realize it or not i'm in permanent conflict with what my body really wants 01:09:17.480 --> 01:09:23.560 and what i'm what i'm doing and that habit perpetuates the stress and your body screams 01:09:23.560 --> 01:09:29.440 that you're louder and louder and louder please give me what i need hello yeah i was gonna say 01:09:29.440 --> 01:09:35.100 that when you're raw vegan oh my god that sounds like hell to me eating just raw vegan i'm sorry 01:09:35.100 --> 01:09:41.540 for everyone out there who's raw vegan but i just i love food too much i love flavor i love 01:09:42.080 --> 01:09:49.080 warm stuff like i love meat i love steak i had coat the coat the booth last night on my barbecue 01:09:49.080 --> 01:09:55.040 it's delicious um so yeah i don't know did you enjoy when you're eating raw vegan or 01:09:55.040 --> 01:09:58.780 you just used to i mean when you look back now do you think oh my god i did i like that 01:09:59.440 --> 01:10:04.380 i enjoy i still crave something actually i should tell you that apple cider vinegar and 01:10:04.380 --> 01:10:14.460 and the coconut aminos or soy sauce they go a long way okay i i really love still to this day i prefer 01:10:14.460 --> 01:10:21.160 raw foods overcooked it's it's actually something that stuck with me and i don't i don't like too 01:10:21.160 --> 01:10:28.460 cooked meat either anymore i actually prefer meat on the raw side even meat because one of the 01:10:29.380 --> 01:10:35.480 rare i love it i just love it charged on the outside and rare so that's how i cook it it's just 01:10:35.480 --> 01:10:41.140 perfect yeah folks if you've enjoyed this conversation please share it with someone who needs to hear it 01:10:41.140 --> 01:10:46.620 this podcast survives because of listeners like you if you want to hear the second half 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