I'm sitting there and my co-worker starts talking about that people who are not vaccinated,
they must be killed or put in the cage for life.
And everybody agreed with him because it was the most disgusting moment in my entire
probably life in the US. When everyone agreed with literally fascism, I think it was during
the covid times and that was when my whole world crashed because I had this ambition that I will
go to the United States, I will get my degree, I will become this person of the world. I will live
in New York City or I will be traveling the world and I will be pursuing my artistic career,
I will be pursuing my engineering career or whatever it will be. I thought of myself as that I
will be this free unleashed person who will just finally embrace her global and very
big dreams. Little did I know 2020 comes and the world turns with its ass towards me.
I realized that New York City is not a place of dream anymore because the people like myself
who disagreed with whatever madness was happening would not be able to leave home.
My favorite Italy went into some absolute terrible regime not allowing people to leave
home because they did not want to participate in a biological experiment. This is what it was
and people around me in the academia also went absolutely nuts like they lost their mind. It's
how it fell because they like I every week I was bringing results the data to my advisor to
everybody like we had group meetings. We were analyzing the data. I took the device,
I took the curves, I put them in a PowerPoint, I analyzed them, drew conclusions. Okay, this is fact
whatever I measured is a fact. We explained the fact and when these people were telling that
it's a fact that it's all safe and good it's a fact I'm like no it's not a fact it's not a
fact. How can you say that this is a fact you are a scientist you deal with it every
single day how does it not come to you clearly right now what is going on with you
and everyone just went I saw how their psyche something very animalistic robotic overtook
the analytical overtook the critical thinking so I watched everything crumble.
Been listening to your podcast for a while now and I love the content and the brutal honesty
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listen thanks for joining me and um I just want to say I love your latest video I mean you
did give me a heads up you said you know you're going to be uploading something on YouTube
so I watched it okay and for something that's only half an hour and forgive this long introduction
I will let you speak and for something that you know is only half an hour oh my god you packed a lot in
like it was amazing so I mean it was about self-governance and you talked about you know
let me just read it out to you you know not seeking any endorsement from any institution any
organization any authority and not sourcing your decisions outsourcing them not making your
decisions based on some authoritative figures that exist within the system that is what you
define as self-governance and then you said and that's a negative definition so let's do a positive
definition and you said let's you know you need to take full responsibility for your own life your
own decisions and you primarily listen to yourself animalistic self and your mental self self and
you say yeah you know your mental self is largely determined by your genetics and your upbringing
so we inevitably are a product of the system but however when you have analytical system
we can challenge all of the notions and all of the beliefs that we acquire throughout our life
this is when we approach maximum freedom of ourselves for ourselves and maximum freedom of
thinking this requires analog analytical thinking and being able to challenge the mainstream narrative
and maybe not even mainstream narratives because there are subgroups that are not mainstream
but are still pop culture i.e controlled opposition camp 2 and then I mean you go on and you
talk about cholesterol you talk about birth the problems of the medical system and that's
you talk about standardization of medicine not treating people as individuals but like blanket
one size fits all you talk about dogma you talk about unwritten contracts you talk about not
surrendering your free will to big media corporations and institutions you talk about how
they say oh we care about women but actually they don't when they say that it just goes to
show you how little they value you and that most people are living this inauthentic life
and and then I look I just want to say to you you packed in that 30 minutes pretty much what I've
talked about in 400 podcast episodes bravo thank you so much imagine the I mentioned this metaphor
of pressure cooker in that video this is what happens in my head so this video I don't know I
was carrying it in my head for so long and so I turned on the camera at one night I was like I
just can't I can't hold it back anymore I'm just turning the camera on and I'm just speaking I did
I think three edits to the whole video when it was when I was just like
let's move on I just cut those things it was a rare video where I did need to cut anything
almost like besides some hygienic breaks let's say so that was literally probably the synopsis of
my core values in that video suddenly just like went in one organized form and that was the
summary of the of everything that I had to rebel to find my path because I was born into
I was born in Russia just for cultural context okay 90s in Russia and all I was exposed to growing
up was people struggling to be not even happy be stable like remotely stable so I saw people
who were highly unstable who could not manage relationships who could not manage their health
who could not manage their things related to their work who could not manage their desires
a lot of people were opting for substances like alcohol was common in Russia so they would just
it all appeared to me as highly unauthentic since childhood I could not understand it I could not
just live with it and then in terms of womanhood I was also exposed to so much issues related to
female life living as a female in general but I also had deep conflict with that I couldn't
understand since like early childhood since especially during puberty why do women inherently
suffer why does nature according to what I hear from fellow women or older women
why do women become victims become patients as a result of their natural sexuality as their
nature like what distinguishes us from from from men I guess so that was something that
gave me so much conflict I was child-free for a long period of time because
every time I would hear news that someone got pregnant through birth that I'm like how did men
knowing what their woman is going to go through just do it how do they stay together and then
done then a lot of people actually end up having problems in intimate life after they give birth
because it starts being associated that woman is this glorified suffering figure and a man
effectively is put in the role of some diminished abuser and intuitively it will feel like that
because of what woman has to go through and that's the fame is I like to say the fame of Jesus
Christ doesn't doesn't doesn't let people live life because everyone wants to go through this glorified
suffering it seems like and women do this too I read a lot of forums in my child-free era I was
like what is the mystery why do women go for it why do women stick with these practices
why do women go through the system of birth that puts them through so much pain
why do women struggle in relationships when they're like I just have to sacrifice sacrifice sacrifice
for do for this for this for this I just have to tolerate tolerate tolerate all of this just
blew my mind and I was like how can I find harmony because I don't want to live like that I want
to but at the same time I want to live at peace with my body I want to live at peace with my
nature but I don't want what society offers me as is what it is so rebellion led me to pursuits
of independence in hell independence in mind that how can I reformat the topic of relationships how
can I reformat the topic of sexuality how can I reformat the topic of female unique hormonal
system topic of childbirth how can I look forward to that all of these things they came as a
result of me not settling for what society was telling that that that nonsense that mass psychosis
how do we say you know so that video is in essence a summary of a lot of topics that I went through
the years and well there's only one thing I disagree with this video is the title so the title
is self-governance for women how to stop being a slave to the system and start living as a
woman I change women for human because it applies to guys as well fair fair yeah yeah fair I agree
with that women I guess because there is this mystification and deeply misunderstood and deeply
not accepted nature of female sexuality because I think that male sexuality is kind of on the
surface but with female the circus begins women tend to just adapt commodify themselves
because like historically it was just commodified tolerate and adapt and adapt in some weird ways
instead of going in instead of listening to yourself instead of trying to sit on the multiple
chairs at once and trying to embrace the unembraceable and so on so that's probably
why it was women and also with the development of of female movement I also you see this like
striking thing when we look at for example some feminist protest right who is the voice they are
trying to reach who is that authority that women are trying to scream at what is that
rage directed towards this is something that's also very strange to me because in my opinion
simply boycotting something that you don't like and embracing what you do like and nurturing it
is a much more effective strategy than trying to be this childish and inherent to suppressed voice
which means that there is authority above you that you scream at so that is my conflict too
that there is always this pursuit of authority even in the protest protest is always calling for
authority why do you need authority and that is what I see in the feminist movement often
well I do not think the feminist movement was kind of captured so like all original
like protest rebellious events it's kind of like co-opted and captured by the very
establishment and then used against people so you know women have been treated badly over
the centuries and unfairly and have been deprived of rights and respect ultimately you know they're
just seen as people to make babies and have sex with I'm not saying all cultures and all people
but you know my wife for example you know tells me all reminds me all the time women have suffered
for the ages but then you you had this feminist movement which was kind of like captured by
the Rockefellers and the Rothschilds and they promoted this yeah you should go out and
sex with as many people as you want and you don't need a man and you don't need a family and
you don't need any of this stuff and I think that's been counterproductive you know go outside
and go work and be another tax slave that's what they've created basically yeah they created double
the workforce and appreciated the workforce essentially so but that it goes hand in hand
again with with interest of public wire resources that's another theme from that video but
everything we see or every cultural movement will be picked up will be developed in response to the
changing way of acquiring resources and the interests of the economy that is operates in that operates
in the interests of the corporations because there is quite the the capital is quite monopolized so
that's why we cannot say that even like small it's in the interest of small businesses or something
something like that anymore so it's it was yes it was a strategy to build a machine
where the worth of human is depreciating gradually so yeah that that had that put back but other
phenomena with with liberation of women with liberation of our I guess sexuality liberation
of female sexuality that is quite double sided too because every time again is if you don't act if
you don't study your nature if you don't unapologetically claim your deepest desires your deepest
wants if you don't claim the need for safety if you don't claim the need for emotional security
but you go again and you see authority that's like you need to need to be a good girl for someone
still or you need to fulfill some plan of what's fashionable in the moment you are not coming from
within your body you're starting to do different things and I watched that so much and with
development of adult entertainment industry as well it started becoming a problem because
women now had a standard there's there's fashion in that area now so this sex seeming
sexual liberation ended up again uh setting a standard setting a bar setting a goal setting it
like some repertoire that you need to accomplish in order to be a desirable object so it's a
yeah it's a women like yeah it's objectification on so many levels happens regardless if you
don't take a 40 over if you are not coming from within your body and that is a challenging thing
because with high level of anxiety that is also cultivated in the modern world probably I mean
for many decades it's been cultivated with high level of anxiety it's really challenging to go
back into the body it's really challenging to hear that subtle voice that's that whispers from
within you that tells you what it is you need to actually connect with because there's so much
coming from the outside that seemingly challenges your security that seemingly challenges your
sense of belonging and feels like you would just die alone miserable if you don't chase something
in the outside but in reality you face emptiness if you don't live from within and that's yeah well
i love that i love that and you know so before we talk about some of your past and vegan you know
you're a tantra coach and tantra philosophy i wanted you to talk about that and because it's so
many different like explanations for what it is but historically it came out of like you know
india and buddhist and hindu teachings and it's a kind of like a spiritual path it's meant to be
had to focus on consciousness and awareness using your body your breath your energy there's a bit
ritual and meditation and it's not primarily about sex although some people might think it is
but it's about integration of the mind body and the spirit and working with energy so for you
what does it mean being a tantra coach what got you into it because you've got a very
different background haven't you don't you have like a phd in something and you're like you're well in
yes you're a completely different life you had a completely different life and now you're
doing something very different yeah i'm a physicist and then i also got phd in engineering
and i worked as a consultant for an it company research software company um and uh so tantra came
to me probably if i was to go back i got certified uh almost a year ago and the this topic wasn't the
year for many years i i wasn't therapy while i was in phd because i just found found myself deeply
depressed i think it was uh during the covid times and that one was that was when my whole
world crashed because i had this ambition that i will go to the united states i will get my degree
i will become this person of the world i will live in york city or i will be traveling the world
and i will be pursuing my artistic career i will be pursuing my engineering career or whatever it will
be i thought of myself as that i will be this free unleashed person who will just finally embrace her
global and very big dreams uh-huh little did i know 2020 comes and the world turns with its ass towards
me would say i realized that new york city is not a place of dream anymore because the people
like myself who disagreed with whatever madness was happening would not be able to leave home
my favorite italy went into some absolute terrible regime not allowing people to leave
home because they did not want to participate in a biological experiment this is what it was
and people around me in the academia also went absolutely nuts like they lost their mind it's
how it fell because they're like i every week i was bringing results the data to my advisor to
everybody like we had group meetings we were analyzing the data i took the device i took the
curves i put them in the power point i analyzed them drew conclusions okay this is fact whatever
i measured is a fact we explained the fact and when these people were telling that it's a fact
that it's all safe and good it's a fact i'm like no it's not a fact it's not a fact how can you
say that this is a fact you are a scientist you deal with it every single day how does it not
come to you clearly right now what what is going on with you and everyone just went i saw how
their psyche some something very animalistic robotic overtook the analytical overtook the critical
thinking and so i watched everything crumble and at some point yeah i was like whenever i was not
at work i wasn't bad with headphones like my my eyes were like slowly leaking and every week
and i was losing and losing and losing and losing sense of getting up and doing anything and i realized
yeah because you because you never got vaccinated you weren't allowed to come to work am i right
i was allowed to come to work i actually barely graduated so i would not be allowed the thing
they had the regime started on august 1st 2021 and i graduated i defended my thesis in july
and i was banned to go to work but i already got my work off or so i was kind of overlapping between
at work where we had remote work and i also got fired from work because of that eventually and
so i had to i had an opportunity for half a year they allowed us to not be vaccinated working
remote so i was finishing my thesis in the meantime some formalities basically remain
and uh yeah so it's in the i think january 1st 2022 i received an email or even like earlier
from my institution where i was receiving my degree so i barely submitted everything
in there like oh you're not allowed on campus or you're not allowed to work remotely without
vaccination remotely you were not allowed to do it so it was a purely some it was pure corruption
it was not it was not for anything at that point there was no reason they're just punishing
you know yeah yeah it was not it was it was such a nonsense so that's what i'm saying that
everything related to my career crumbled all of the places that were supposed to fulfill my dreams
showed their other side and so yeah i ended up this like meaning crisis
decided to go to therapy because i realized i cannot just do i cannot just put my mental
health as a burden on my loved one and i had like it started literally affecting other areas of my
life so i went through therapy my therapist eventually told me about this lady who who is a
sexologist she has like huge huge career in sexology she's a very bad person in russia
and then she also has this interest in indian culture in tantra and she actually lived in
in some temple in kamakhia temple where they actually hold on to the country tradition outside of their
basically in india there was some process of centralization of spiritual life they actually
had the military uprising in that region against the decentralization they wanted to keep the
tradition alive so she lived in that temple she got initiated and she teaches tantra
i went through this course after several years since then because because what happened was i
went through this covid nonsense i i managed to stay at my work until for a year for a whole
year after they fired me formally uh because they were they kept delaying it they were like
well you can you can you can keep working remotely filthy you filthy you just stay at
remote i'm like okay i'll stay remote but i already had plans that i will leave because i mean they
told me that we'll fire you at any point i'm like i it's disgusting to me in this position
i i am i am i have a doctor degree in science and you are firing me because of something
so ridiculous it's it's a huge act of disrespect uh so i stayed there and then um
gathered some funds and quit decided to come to start working my youtube and stuff but then
i was in for a veganism and uh i felt like i was in a very good mission so um i was doing
exclusively things that i loved i picked up sewing clothing design also another childhood
passion of mine youtube sewing all of these pursuits super beautiful life not needing to
go to work and do what i didn't want to do interfacing with people that i didn't hear to interface
then moved to tropics for a year and there i realized that i'm still not happy i still
feel empty like what's what's what's going on with me like at that point when i lived in total
paradise doing things that i love i still felt like something was off and i started auditing it
i was like okay do you want bigger apartment will it make you happy no do you want more money
no maybe like having like a little bit like more stable financial thing would be more pleasant okay
but in general would you would it make you happy no would you want a different relationship no
would you want different climate you're in tropics you're you're by the seaside no
what do you want and i'm like i don't know what i want but something is wrong
so i decided to and then i saw that this lady would have had her course in tundra and i'm
like i'm just gonna go for it because her slogan was if you're f-ing tired of suffering
you should join and then i yeah so i went through this course and was revolutionary too because
for the first time in life i felt like i am the only one responsible for cultivating joy in my life
for cultivating life that i want cultivating life that's aligned with my full authentic self
and actually there's there were so many discoveries that
it's just absolutely fascinating i didn't even expect it i just knew that the person was legit
and i went by recommendation and then i discovered everything that tundra is that is kind
of contradictory to how it's usually perceived in the society and i was really amazed with
the results to be honest so so how how does it work because the pursuit of happiness is what
everybody wants everybody wants to be happy but it's so elusive and you're right i've met so many
people who are multimillionaires and they're miserable so while money can make your life
easier and better it doesn't guarantee happiness happiness is a tricky one so i mean i i've got
my ideas about how to be happy but what what have you learned from your teachings in your course
and from your own personal experience super insightful consultation and doc m came into it with an
incredible amount of information and support i really felt he was there to help that he cared
and that he genuinely wants the best for you can't recommend him enough thanks again doc
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and i can't wait to help you first you were absolutely right in the beginning when i gave
the introduction that it's that country's uh first not i don't want to word pursuit perhaps but
it's establishment of unity between mind body your intuition for spirit whichever terminology
you prefer it's flexible so this is this concept of unity and unity effectively means
authenticity when i'm not acting against my body while i'm pursuing my spirituality for example
when i'm not making decisions because they're the irrational to do it but i will be suffering
i will know that i'm somewhere i am deceiving my deceiving my genetic predisposition for something
i am deceiving my emotional makeup no we're not doing that we're pursuing this unity
and then this unity becomes the diagnostic tool partially because first of all you need to scan
where you are not authentic where you are
changing the scheme in your life and why why is it happening and on the other hand
tantra offers the tools for calming you down because we also carry we sometimes we cannot
achieve this authenticity there's unity between those elements because we have disorder within
each of those systems body mind and intuition so first thing the first thing that is done
in tantric course is paying attention to health literally the most basic earthly worldly things
do you eat well are you well nourished do you sleep well do you walk do are you in nature ever
do you walk do you move this is literally step zero because if you're you can you can be
you can be in therapy and i had the cases like that and that's where veganism comes in
into the in the picture if you are malnourished you spend years malnourishing yourself
know which mental health are we going to talk about brain is an incredibly expensive organ
it requires you to be very healthy omega-3s are in check iron is in check with B vitamins are in
check then we can speak about neurological health protein in check fats you get enough calories
in general so this is when we can start talking when when people come and they're like on 20
supplements they're on some fancy diet like vegan diet and they struggle with depression with
emotional issues with with brain fog with all of those things no i mean north therapist will do
the trip yeah you can go pacify yourself with antidepressants but it's it's masking the
issue masking the problem then when we dialed in the physical health the client for example comes to
you you you instruct them that okay for we're not starting from now we're on a very strict
regimen of your prioritizing your sleep prioritizing good food prioritizing movement
this is this is fixed then we go on to relaxation because meet a lot of people
a lot of people don't breathe through their entire body through their entire column
there is basically there is oftentimes there's a nodule in the center near the diaphragm
the diaphragm doesn't push down they don't breathe with their belly they hyperventilate
so they have this background anxiety that is from the habit of improper breathing for example
when were you relaxed fully last time many people weren't fully relaxed for many years
so how can they access their most pristine most embodied state
so the next skill we learn is deep relaxation calming down the nervous system such that we
can see ourselves because what do we do in this anxiety when we have a monkey brain
constant flashing electricity through the body
where's a tantric sex in that it's down the road it's very much down the road
learn to be first of all learn to be yourself learn to be in your body fully
so we start relaxing there are practices wonderful practices such as yoga nidra
but allow you to sleep drift to sleep deep very nice sleep or very deep relaxation
if you don't fall asleep during those things become regular breathing patterns that
activate vagus nerve or calm it down calm that calm it down that turn on the parasympathetic
nervous system those things become our habit until we automate those things then after we tapped in
relaxation after we started we have to build some baseline how it is to feel good
we start noticing the problem more vividly we can connect with what is our problem
we start being able to work with the actual issue because the client usually will bring not that
no not that I need to deeply relax it will bring some problem like for example I'm unhappy in
my relationship for like five years we've been having these and these and these issues or
I'm incredibly burnt out at work I cannot keep up with my career I don't know what to do I'm
very scared financial issues pressure a lot a lot a lot a person isn't also this pressure worker
and you start tapping into their issue now start unfolding and unwrapping it how can we work with
us we do visualization meditation and compared to conventional psychotherapy where a person
just talks talks talks talks tantra allows tools to go kind of around psychological
defenses where we can go into meditation and work directly with the imagery because sometimes
people cannot put their ideas their thoughts in the verbal form sometimes it's easier to work with
imagery and senses so when in therapy a person is instructed to describe what they're feeling
describe their issues sometimes there is some prohibition for certain words sometimes person
cannot communicate it clearly therapist needs to unravel it very very gradually in tantra we can
go into the world of images and the world of images kind of allows people to just see it
for face value suddenly I see my problem so in meditation we can access that and then we
can work with it on the imagery plane for example there was a fascinating case of a woman
struggling with infertility and uh physically she was healthy that's a common issue sometimes
there's psychogenic infertility all of a sudden doctors say that everything's fine
ovulation happens for example con conception doesn't and uh started going to she went
through therapy and then she went to tantra coach and in the meditation
she visualized it as there is a desired thing surrounded by by the fortress
so for her this like act of desired pregnancy or the pros of desired pregnancy was behind
the fortress was protected by this monolithic wall and so what was done is that she was guided
to walk around it and not force it not jump over it not like break this wall but try to find
how she could go through this wall how she could make the door appear and so she was working on her
issue in the space of imagery that was totally seemingly unrelated to anything with the body
anything with pregnancy she just was working with some barrier that existed in her and she
visualized it as a as a fortress and there are many ways how people come up in my practice people
come up with very interesting associations very interesting imagery for their problems
and then it's a psychophysical space we're working literally with with what with how our
brain conceptualizes the process that happened in our psychophysical space which means that
they can be manipulated with very metaphysical perhaps not realistic tools that we that we wouldn't
be using in the physical world but since it's all mental space we have we have an ability to
work on them with something with some any transmutation you want but you just come
with some authentic method of undoing certain barrier of opening your own doors of removing
that cloud of outgrowing something you can out you can grow bigger you can grow stronger
you can grow softer and this reflects on your body immediately and you from this image
you suddenly access the state in which the problem doesn't exist
and you memorize it you memorize it you're familiar with it right away and because it's
such a vivid impression you're in meditation it's a vivid impression anytime you remember you said
to drink tea you like remember the state you immerse yourself in it you face the problem that's
like recurring behavioral problem in your life you remember the state and you're like oh
and you act differently because you now have remembered it's very strong imprint
and then there are also practices that are for reconceptualizing rewiring your
impression of some traumatic events there are practices that allow you to access the full
repertoire of your personality because cliche image I'm a boss girl I come from work I cannot
stop I'm a boss girl I'm wired up I cannot relax I cannot give in I cannot just enjoy
my meals no I will be enjoying my food I'm not gonna enjoy them I will be rushing them like
boss girl I will be kicking ass and are you are you exercising everything you're capable of
or are you stuck in your role that prevents you from enjoying your life maybe if you
discover multiple roles multiple facets of your personality maybe you will be able to explore
life with more pleasure maybe you will be more inside of the experiences that life throws at you
that's another stream of work in tantrum
and that creates a huge like foundation for a person because the more resources you have
the more stable you are the calmer you are so it creates this
perpetuation of your habit of living in a stable very comfortable state being able to relax because
when you're trying to solve any problem from a weird misfit state you are not going to succeed
it will create a lot of tension a lot of barrier like if I'm if I regress into a child when I
need to solve a business problem I probably won't succeed probably will just break down crying
it's not gonna work but if I'm if I'm lady boss in in bed with my lover probably also is not gonna
work and if I the opposite situation if I start being flirty and playful at work perhaps I also
won't get things done necessarily so managing those things keeping them under control knowing
your full repertoire is also very very empowering tool that we learn and that is done through
it's a very meticulous work in which a coach will demand a person to fully exhaust
there to make a fully exhaustive list of all the personas all of the facets that they possess
including things that are kind of yucky for them we also tap into that little shadow shadow concept
the concept of shadow the concept of what's good what's bad
intention not interesting thing is that we flip this hierarchy of bad shameful or this is desirable
I will never be here like this is some of your mom's that your mom's best friend daughter and I
will never be this and this is something normal for me we flip this hierarchy into horizontal
thing just tools and this is also very interesting and funny work when I work with clients and that
because when you flip this hierarchy suddenly like you objected some some female archetype
for example some dirty let's say some like dirty like prostitute how my client described that
she's sitting smoking on the curb she's like so like rude she like cusses and I don't know why
men even go to this this how my client was describing this archetype
and that was something that she felt objection towards and I said how can we functionalize it
people go for she's alive she's alive and she kind of got into your field of attention
what can you what can we get from this archetype what's also functionalized such that we remove
this hierarchy in which when we have hierarchy we allow others to judge ourselves as well because we
put ourselves in this hierarchy when we judge someone it's a sign that we live in this vertical
thing when there's someone above us someone beneath us flip it let's just see everything as tools
everything just living in its own place that's another stream of work and then there are more
like elaborate already things that we can tap into I just want to like to speak because I think I
occupied the mic I'm listening I'm listening and I don't want to speak over you it's just so
layered I mean the thing is the thing you started with Nastya I can't agree more with you the
health if you're sick if you're on alcohol drinking alcohol you need a coffee to to function in the
morning you're already not in your natural state and I and I say to people the biggest con in our
life is you know we go to school we sit there with people our age for six seven hours learning
God knows what stuff that's not relevant to our lives then we go and work until we're 65 70
and then we die you know after two three years of retirement and pension and it's like what is this
life all about but you know in in that year that we've got of working we go away on holiday for two
weeks we walk in the beach barefoot with the water you know lapping against our feet and you
know we feel great we eat lovely healthy food we're in the sunshine we're outside of nature
and we feel amazing and then we come back to work yeah and actually those two weeks
aren't amazing it's just that's our natural state and the and the other 50 weeks in the year
we're in an unnatural state hyper stressed cortisol through the roof our sympathetic system on
overdrive our adrenal is burning out and we're miserable and unhappy and we're doing a job
nine to five to pay off our student debts and our loans and our mortgage
and we're not really happy and we might be with someone that we don't really love and we're just
there because we don't want to be alone or it's financially too difficult to live on your own
you know but the thing is true true authenticity is what that two week on holidays like it's
bliss and happiness and imagine you felt that every single day throughout the year
like you're on holiday that is our natural state and imagine that's what your happiness is like and
so i get it like how can you do any work on anyone when they're physically not healthy and it's the
basics like you said sleep just eat well drink good water stay away from drugs and toxins and
SSRIs that literally just numb you and stop you feeling anything happiness or sadness
um but then also when you're talking about the different layers of tantra i mean get
correct me if i'm wrong i almost feel like some of it is the spell casting so words today we don't
learn the root of the words the etymology of where the words come from because so many words are cast
like spells that keep us in this captive mindset and subservient mindset like do you understand
you're underneath you know you understand or the government the you're governing your mind or all
these kind of things so our thoughts our thoughts and perceptions become the words and our words
cast spells they are powerful and if we use the right words we create our reality we shape
our reality that's what we are all about we are reality generators so it's really important
that we have the right intentions and the right words we say the right things because that's how
we shape our reality around us and maybe with the tantra coaching you're getting people to think
a reality that is optimal rather than negative for them if that makes sense yes it does actually
set the spell yeah every word does a spell and especially the words that are pronounced
to add emotional load because i mean if you if someone just radioing something monotonously
you probably won't be picking up certain things unless something just rings rings with your current
current need or current issue you probably won't be picking up words but if something is said
with a lot of weight this is what i hear a lot people get very caught talking about not they
wouldn't word for example they're not feeling well today they will not say that they are
somewhat unwell which is to me the declaration that i love myself i love myself and there is
something that's not too well usually it's well today it's not so much well perhaps everyone can
wake up like tired or something happens somebody sneezed at someone and the next day they're like
maybe hypochondriac about it but when people put push the i like to call it s word s i c k
they push it with emotion that they feel s i c k and they feel so much passion to it and to me this
is the sign that you assign the identity to yourself i sign this negative identity because
this is this comes with from the place of full agreement and passion for you you set you agree
with it so much with what you're pronouncing right now that it charges up all of your feelings
and i i just hear it said all the time like people declare things
when they're complaining i call it also scare blessings i want to just sometimes when people
are complaining and nagging over and over and over about some issues i just want to tap them on the
shoulder and they'll stop scaring blessings like if you're if you believe in god let god love you
back why are you declaring all these things why are you hypnotizing everyone because it
works also not just a good not just in spiritual plane from very practical thing i call it creating
a verbal portrait of yourself people are memorizing you for what you're saying for what absolutely
so people will be looking at you they will you know how we like to categorize things we like to
describe something like create some some shell definition of things so if person said something
like five times with a lot of passion you will be like okay this is bob bob without with money issues
you will you will think that way okay this is bob with money issues i put them put them in my library
is that then this is catty with headaches this is headache catty she has headaches every day
so this is how brain will categorize so when you see the person it pulls primarily from
your internal library it's not it's not no longer waits for the new input from this person
it already pulls the stereotype about this person and so you look at them with like well tell me about
your headache i guess or how is your wallet going doing today as empty as yesterday like
so you set this expectation and and this becomes a mirror you create a mirror but by
generating this verbal portrait people start mirroring that before you know it because
brain loves automation it's not going to waste a bit of energy to relearn new thing about you it will
create automation about you of some person it's some person will create automation about you
so it's you need to be responsible for what verbal verbal portrait you build what state
portrait you built absolutely and what do you think of this i think the universe always listens
the universe always answers but the thing is what we put out to the universe can be very conflicting
and confusing so for example if you say i want to have more i want to have money i want to have
money oh please universe give me money i need money i want money what you're actually telling
is that you don't have money that's what you're telling you're saying i don't have money
yeah i'm a desperate miserable person yeah i'm a desperate miserable person i have no money
so the universe goes okay you've got you've got no money then and it's like or i want to be happy
and then what the body is hearing is you're not happy okay you're not happy then you're not going to
be happy so you need to you need to get past that and you need to be truly grateful you need
to imagine yourself in the state that you want to be in and feel it like it's actually there
and then the body and the universe will respond in kind so you don't say i want to be happy
you say i am happy i am grateful and i'm happy for being who i am and for my life and then the body
will respond in kind and the universe will respond in kind i think that's one of the things
i've kind of learned i don't know if that stands too woo-woo to you it's uh what i want to um
actually uh extract from this is that you make the first step as you said i'm happy you need
to feel that state first the universe is not there it's not it's not apparent the universe is just again
is what is universe for us universe is the energy mirror in essence which is composed of what we are
seeing as opportunities in life and what we and what people see in us that we pick on like as mirror
to mirror so we show up first always we bring to the world what we value the most i am happy is
when it's from the authentic state you're no longer looking at universe to give you anything
you're just showing it how to reflect you so you came first with this con you came first
to this feeling this is where you take responsibility yes that's what actually my discovery in country was
i take responsibility i claim my my truth because it is scary sometimes it is scary for example it's
like oh my my my whole thing was that i felt like i was my mom's project my entire life like my mom
wanted me to go to another country my mom wanted me to pursue certain career that would enable
my success and so on and i had an idea that i need to be an artist is my thing pursue more artistic
thing i want to be a clothing designer an artist but i ended up in very hardcore science
so i always felt like i was my mom's project and i was supposed to be a sign i was supposed to be
an artist on whoever and i realized that i never claimed what i wanted like i never claimed i always
looked for approval i never made the first step to show that i am on the path no i always was hiding i
was like okay if engineering doesn't work i will tell that i'm more of a more of an artist if
artistry doesn't work if my artistic pursues don't work i was like i will say that i'm an
engineer so i never claimed and i never took responsibility and i always had expectations
that somebody will notice somebody will approve like some parent will come some good parent you know
i had this like um that parent the cruel parent who pushed me to do this but some better parent
will come and will tell me that now you can do it no the moment you leave parental home
you are on your own and that was the illusion that i had to shed that it's a claim it claim it you
want to be a tantric coach you don't need your anyone to approve it you want to do it claim it and do
it scary scary the same with you yeah yeah i was gonna say so like um where did the
veganism come in so i know you had some acne issues and then to me acne is your gut
telling you it's not happy and the gut brain access the gut immune access is huge
um did you find going vegan helped with your acne and then why did you leave veganism
i would say that veganism was not uh the veganism it was raw veganism specifically because
i was plant-based three years before i went to the us and i found that whole plant-based
eating is a thing because in russia i was eating pretty good diet i mean very complete but
with some junk food probably with some sweets with uh mayonnaise and stuff so i went to america
and i realized that there's whole foods you can buy organic foods and eat very the beautiful
delicious things started kind of flirting with mediterranean diet whole grains fish
whole tree beans and stuff and uh the acne was not the main thing probably was bothering me it was my
grains and uh also my joint started kind of hurting and was all on plant-based diet but while
on plant-based diet i never liked any vegan influencers online i never related to them
because i didn't like how they looked i didn't like their messaging i don't know i kind of
i cannot empathize with vegans i cannot the only person that i loved online
was marcus rothcrans and he was raw vegan i felt so related to him and his girlfriend
i binge watched his stuff for example i would be at night in the lab my device would be running
some tests or something and in the meantime would have like my youtube playing so i watched
his videos for a couple of years and it was very convincing raw veganism was much more
convincing than veganism and i designed the diet that was complete such that it fulfills all
amino acid needs vitamins minerals with surplus supplemented bit well vitamin d and uh for the
first time in life i was without migraines that was a huge huge huge salvation for me because
i had migraines since childhood and uh twice a year when i was a teenager my parents would give me
through the doctor would give me like injections i would take like three injections a day
for a couple of weeks or for a month twice a year i would be off migraines the injection
stopped the next day i have migraines on raw veganism i witnessed the miracle so what was
i did not think about meat i did i did not i thought about the
grain elimination later so grains to me were the problem the major thing grains and starches
so i was raw vegan for three years but then um exhaustion i guess i wasn't very low not that low
a little bit lower suboptimal methionin levels consumption of consumption and methionin is
important for retention of normal collagen bone mass it basically regulates homocysteine and vegans
usually suffer from homocysteine being elevated it's a proven thing statistically that's what happens
and vegans usually have lower methionin in the blood as well so i'm assuming that that was the
problem among others but then i conducted the whole study afterwards but what i noticed by the
end of veganism that is that i had an injury for the first time in my life i was always stretching
like crazy doing acrobatics easily this time like by the end of veganism i did a squat and i stretched
something in my hip and it wouldn't heal seven months it was not healing and my skin started
turning into absolute nonsense i would talk to my dad whose whose face but you inherited
my dad is 20 years older he looks absolutely brilliant thick skin looks younger than his age
and he smokes his entire life and i look older than him like some weirdness was was in my face
and so this uh visible deterioration scared me a lot it was depressing me so much i would like
walk by the mirror not recognizing myself and the injury not healing also i was always very
empowered in my body i was very comfortable with my body i knew that i could do anything
i could do any circus i wanted without any consequences and this time seven months from a squat
what's going on so i just one day i just got so desperate and i quit because
there was nothing i could do i also blood work was showing that i had elevated partheroid
hormone which is vitamin d not being metabolized vitamin d requires cholesterol to
get into your bloodstream so it's inevitable that you need it so i was not metabolizing
vitamin d later i realized i was not metabolizing b12 from pills either
which which requires animal fats and requires protein adequate amino acid profile
and also i tended to have high iron with low ferritin so i also was not metabolizing iron
so it was specifically not some like supplements it was cofactors for nutrients that were missing
and also i was eating tremendous amount of fiber because i was on low sugar high fat
high greens high bitter greens roe vegan diet so probably fiber flushing out everything along
the way who was not helping either uh and i quit went animal based and i'm very happy i just keep
i don't need grains still when i when i eat starches or grains i get headaches again
because they cause water retention either so um so you're not you're not um you're your animal
based now you're like an omnivore yeah but minus grains yeah yeah i mean the thing is with the
grains as well so many of them are sprayed with things like glyphosate even the stuff that
this air is organic i don't know if it is love it's gmo you just don't know what how these
things have been made they've been sprayed with insecticide and pesticide and it's just
full of toxins that's what i think and i don't know i think for a lot of people getting the ideal
diet is so difficult you know the experiment with things like you know raw milk and then
you know off the grains or you know vegan or vegetarian or purely carnivore i've got a friend
who is purely carnivore that made her sick she realized it wasn't actually in the long run
good for either in the beginning these kind of diets can help because if you go vegan or
or you know carnivore you're kind of eliminating a lot of rubbish you know like the mayonnaise is
full of seed oils so you get rid of all the seed oils you get rid of all this so yeah obviously
you feel a little bit better but then in the long run i don't think physiologically we were
designed to be like that we're designed to be omnivores and the funny thing is we're the
only animal species on the planet who has a problem with the diet you know a bear never
goes hmm what should i eat today should i be vegan or should i should i have me or or you know a
lion lion never thinks hard about what what they're going to eat or a cow they know they all eat
they're what they're what they're designed to eat whereas human beings we've got so confused
and messed up and it's like um that's why i think a lot of us get sick but we need to get back
to some kind of ancestral diet i think and away from this ultra process to not spraying all
this garbage but it all comes back to like your original video that i was talking about
that you covered so many topics ultimately this system is dispassionate it's cold it's
unemotional and it's driven by profit that's all it cares about we are on planet human farm
where we are farmed you know we're farmed and the sicker we get the better because they can
profit from our sickness the sicker we are the better because then we can't resist our
overlords the farm owners and we can't get our freedom back and so they like that they like us
being sick and one of the ways of keeping us sick back to you know you said tantra how you make
people happy and everything is being physically and you know healthy and strong if you're physically
healthy and strong and robust then mentally you're physically strong and it all comes back
to food food is the most important thing so that's what i found anyway on my journey i used
to be diabetic hypertensive you know i've been through med school and here i was at 40
overweight sick you know unhealthy and the doctors are all telling me my friends my
colleagues are all telling me oh take my form and take a blood pressure medication take this
drug take that drug and i'm thinking this cannot be right why is the solution to everything
just a pill anyway anyway i've turned it around thank goodness thank you one of the things i found
most powerful was actually limiting the eating window so you know this idea of have a little
bit of food frequently is complete nonsense i i've gone to just literally one meal a day
and and it's just changed my life it's driven down the insulin i feel less inflammatory i don't
get bloating anymore i don't have that water retention it's quite remarkable but there's no
money to be made and getting people to eat less that's the problem yeah that's yeah it's uh the
focusing i don't know it's like you know you focus on those those things over those people who are
trying to make money not even people anonymous organizations what's for it this way because
it's always you are an individual and then there's anonymous blob that you cannot do anything with
that's why that's why it's so such a powerful thing in the west when people just form a company
and you become untouchable that's a very strong kind of split of responsibility that's
happened and people don't acknowledge that they think that they're since because they're an
individual they're dealing with something with any soul or any concept humane concept but no
morals exist only for individuals everything else is regulated by different laws yeah but uh
focusing on that is is not something i would say that would give you proper decisions perhaps
because i remember a lot of people would go from veganism to some other extreme diets
to to like following total conspiracy about nutrition and they remember it actually was pretty
funny how some people with with veganism and they'll be like they are forcing us to be vegan
blah blah that's why i'm going to do the opposite and i'm like no let's go from the other other
place let's listen to ourselves still let's go back to ourselves yeah it can be a good starting
point to think about that yeah there is some entity that wants me to do this and this but
why do i give an f what this entity wants me or not doesn't want me to do who it's my life
ultimately it's just different focus that i like to put and uh it's confusing indeed to
as what to eat women especially struggle so much there's so much stress around food
that this stress becomes a huge contributing factor to their deterioration over the nutritional
qualities of food when they need for example when they learn that oh saturated fat and
cholesterol is bad so i need to to be full i need to eat some grass and they eat grass and grass
doesn't make them full or makes them full but not satisfied but they're avoiding what they really
want what their body really craves because that's what's what's in the books so to speak
and they end up malnourished because they're not coming from the place within they're afraid to
claim their internal desire because it's said somewhere that it is bad to follow this desire
eat grass instead eat this broccoli eat this like stocked broccoli girl go girl and be you be thin
and then they struggle with hormonal issues as a result and stress goes up because i am in permanent
conflict whether i realize it or not i'm in permanent conflict with what my body really wants
and what i'm what i'm doing and that habit perpetuates the stress and your body screams
that you're louder and louder and louder please give me what i need hello yeah i was gonna say
that when you're raw vegan oh my god that sounds like hell to me eating just raw vegan i'm sorry
for everyone out there who's raw vegan but i just i love food too much i love flavor i love
warm stuff like i love meat i love steak i had coat the coat the booth last night on my barbecue
it's delicious um so yeah i don't know did you enjoy when you're eating raw vegan or
you just used to i mean when you look back now do you think oh my god i did i like that
i enjoy i still crave something actually i should tell you that apple cider vinegar and
and the coconut aminos or soy sauce they go a long way okay i i really love still to this day i prefer
raw foods overcooked it's it's actually something that stuck with me and i don't i don't like too
cooked meat either anymore i actually prefer meat on the raw side even meat because one of the
rare i love it i just love it charged on the outside and rare so that's how i cook it it's just
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