They know something we don't about GMOs.
There's a confusion and blaming just Monsanto
when it's really we need to look at Bayer and Syngenta.
These poisons aren't just killing bees,
they're also killing beings.
I've encountered she, Charles Lieber,
since this case in public.
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This is Mary Minane.
Welcome to another episode of Truth Lives Here.
And we're gonna have a very fun, exciting show
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Welcome gentlemen.
Hello.
What's up?
There we go.
That intro is incredible.
Thank you.
What are you doing talking to us?
You got like real credentials.
Yeah, I am, no.
I need to redo that actually.
So, gentlemen.
It goes, this is such a great intro,
like how you're in all these different places
and then your powerful voice and you're just like,
it was really good, yeah.
And then down, down, down with the,
Paranoid, do you go through that too?
Did what?
With, I was getting a million views on Facebook
during the lockdowns.
Wow.
And then it was removed, like immediately.
And so it's very, I think I've lucked out.
I wasn't doing any social media at all
until maybe 2021-ish.
And that was just because I started getting
into like weird AI stuff.
And it was a way to start like posting
some of like my AI research.
And then over time, I was like,
oh, I've been running this comic company for like 15 years.
Maybe I should start investing in social for that.
But I feel that if I had already had a presence before
and like during the whole pandemic was happening,
I probably would have like a whole bunch of black lists
and like check marks next to my name
and underlined and circled.
I don't know if your teachers did that in school
or like they ran out of options.
Then we just start like drawing weird shapes
around your name over and over again.
No.
You know what I'm talking about.
I do not personally.
I know what you're talking about.
Okay. Donut knows what I'm talking about.
So, but in regards to that, I'm saying
that it's not only what you say, it's who says it
because clearly I've become radioactive
and you'll look on me and like,
why would this little brown girl be radioactive
and maybe it's because I dared to publish the book
on George Floyd and the truth.
I'm not sure.
I also don't know what the solution is
because it's like playing Sisyphus.
So I have to rely on others to help with the reach.
So, you know, as you know, freedom of speech
is not freedom of reach.
That's deep right there.
Yeah. It's true.
And also something you said about
that it's who is saying it too.
Some sort of people are allowed to say stuff
and go viral.
And that's one of the things that I have witnessed
is that during this lockdown period of let's say 2019
to 2022, 2022, that there was people like yourself,
millions of views, myself, millions of views
and it lasted a very short time.
Everybody's removed and now we're seeing people
getting back on to YouTube
that had their channels like gone.
And that was all intentional to bring in the mainstream
pundits or people that were affiliated somehow
with a mainstream, you know, programming
removed all the little people like us
and then placed in that who were going to go
against the narrative because it seems like nowadays
people do not trust the MSM at all
that if you just go against the narrative a little bit
you're recognized as you're telling the truth.
And so the people that pull the strings
they understand this and so they installed their puppets.
Yeah.
You gotta get the ones that know how to play along
and play with the script.
And I think your biggest crime, Maryam,
from their point of view, it's like, no, we let her in.
We let her like see where the furniture was at.
Like you got an insider's perspective
and for you to then do the exact opposite
of what the narrative was definitely gonna be
had you like gotten the actual play script
then it was just like, oh, how dare she come here
and not take her shoes off
and now she's got her feet up on the couch
like get her out of here and circle her name,
put an underline next to it in the star
and a couple pluses, yeah.
Yeah, I'm not sure why I've gotten such special treatment
but I think it's also to Donut's point,
you know, it's what Sam Tripoli calls
safe, dangerous versus dangerous, dangerous.
And also the inability for people to discern
so that you don't throw out the baby with the bathwater
but how many people could listen to someone and go,
that's a lie, that's truth, that's truth.
That's what I call tries, truth mixed with lies.
I don't think people can really discern
and that's also part of this age of Aquarius
of developing because there's a lot of wolves
in sheep's clothing
and it's the over 10 window as well, right?
What has become acceptable?
I think part of it too is this weird fallacy
that maybe I believed for a good portion of my life
until I got a little bit older
but you assume that over the last 2000 or 10,000
or 100,000 years that people have been getting smarter
or like elevating in some way
but really it's either the exact opposite of that
that we've all been getting dumber
or that it's just always been like this
and there's always gonna be a certain level of people
that are just like, oh, well, if the authorities say that
then it must be true and never go beyond that
cause they got a mortgage to pay
and they got laundry to do, right?
Like there's too much other stuff going on
to sit down and be like, what if everything's lies, man?
Because even if everything is lies
and you can prove it all,
like that mortgage payment is still due on the 28th, right?
It doesn't matter if you uproot the system.
I think they bank on that too.
What comes to mind when you say that like I see it as like
we've had these resets and the consciousness does get higher
and then there's a reset.
I mean, you could argue this is like
the return of Atlantis where there was also technology
and it's happening again
and it's the real war is against consciousness
and keeping people in the survival paradigm
in their digital hamstress because who has the time?
I just happened to be a researcher, documentary,
a record keeper by just innately.
So it takes a lot of time to really go to the source materials
and what do you think about these resets or Atlantis?
I've been deep into the Atlantis actually lately
so that you brought that up.
It's very important and Plato in his dialogues
of Critias and Timmyus or something.
I'm not that wicked smart.
I'm on the wicked smart journey of becoming wicked smart
and there's a limitation to becoming intelligent
kind of like what Thomas Paranoid American was touching on.
Have we always been just stupid
or have we like have the capability
of all becoming wicked smart?
And it is difficult to, there's a limitation
to being human, being imperfect,
to really grasping and understanding
and like what you were saying, Merriam,
with the certain worldviews that we get implanted with
whether we're imprinted in a culture in America
or Canada in love and hockey
or you like football if you're in Mexico.
So it's like we get imprinted with certain worldviews
and who is doing the imprinting
especially when it comes to social media algorithms
and whatnot.
So I've been relying on reading books
over a few years and right now for some reason
all the books like the universe
is bringing up Atlantis.
Isn't that interesting?
And Atlantis is very important
to a lot of the aristocratic elites,
especially around like 1850 of this one book
that I got removed off Vimeo to speak
about this aristocratic secret society
called the Thule society
which translates into like the Atlantis society.
And you have all these different governments
and you're all searching for this lost civilization
and even people who were remote viewing
this lost civilization, if it's lost or not
of Atlantis like Edgar Cayce,
he remote viewed it, I believed
and said it was at the Bermuda Triangle
where there was this portal there
where planes go missing, boats go missing.
It's like a hyper dimensional portal.
I'm reading this book right now
called Closer Encounters about the Unite,
you read it with Dr. Paul.
I haven't read it, I haven't, but it's very good.
And I'm only halfway through it
but I'm on the Atlantis section right now.
So it's all fresh in my head.
And Atlantis was also in that movie Snake Eyes
with the casino with I believe
it was President Time Traveling Trump's Casino of Atlantis.
Yeah, so like this Atlantis story,
if it's a real civilization underwater,
some people believe it's an Antarctica
and it's the new Schwaben land
or if it's the, or the Hyperborea
and it's all goes into symbolism and it's important.
So I'm very happy you brought it up as you can see
that it is sort of like, wow, wow.
Well, what about, sorry, let me say what about one,
touch upon three eye Atlas and who Atlas is,
but two, I would very much invite people
to ponder on that this is about remembrance
and that reincarnation is a real thing.
It was removed in the Council of Nassia
and you keep on making,
people know that it's like,
if you don't learn your lesson in this life,
it keeps on getting louder and louder.
And the same thing goes with like just the evolution
of the soul necessitates more than one life
and the soul is eternal.
And there is this soul collective that is,
I got the chills that is remembering,
why are we all in the collective bringing up Atlantis now?
Interesting, because it kind of dives into
what I've been researching is the Mandela effect
and deja vu and time travel where you can altered states
of memory through like a game play in a video game,
like changing, like, oh, let's go back
and play another, not so much that we're going back
in time in a sense, but changing the past in the memories
and how we forget all of our memories when we're born.
Also, the one question I have,
the kind of pushback against it is why come everybody's
reincarnation is, they're always like something magical.
Like I remember I was like having like,
I was like, I saw my reincarnation.
I know I was a pharaoh, right?
But I'm like, how egotistical are we to believe that?
I'll say, I'll respond to that.
That if you look at the supposed 144,
there's like the Monads.
And so if there's, if we're all part of a stream
and there's some more evolved souls
and then there's these archetypes
and that it is kind of like a Westworld
where you pick the avatar of the pharaoh.
I mean, of course there can be some arrogance.
I mean, Robert Edward Grant, the rebranded polymath
is claiming to have been in Atlantis actually.
So there is ego, but there's something about the journey,
the hero's journey and certain archetypes.
Like I am Egyptian, but I also have memories
of being in Egypt, not full ones,
but that's where it also dives into Gnosis
and why the Gnostics get such a bad rap
because it seems arrogant to just know things, right?
Does everyone get to be a pharaoh on a long enough timeline?
Who are you asking?
I mean, whoever has the answer.
Can play choose that avatar if you want in the video.
But that almost means though,
that there could be a possibility
that there was like a moment in time in Egypt
when everybody was a pharaoh
because they all picked the pharaoh avatar, right?
Like if it's in Fortnite and everyone picks the same skin,
everyone gets to play with the same skin.
Well, I mean, like you got to also think about,
like, this is where my head goes
to like bringing the past into the future, like to today.
And if you want to get basketball side seats,
court seats, you know what I mean?
Not everybody.
You got to reserve that, you know what I mean?
So there's probably a long reservation list.
To do that.
That sounds like our religion forms
where it's like, hey, if you want the court side seats
when you die, if you want to be the first one
to pick your avatar, then like, you know, do these tasks.
And what is if the answers are just asking
and actually looking at your shadow
and if it's a hologram, like after I had the Kundalini,
I was like, oh, shit, I've played this character
where I'm killed for keeping the records
for speaking the truth.
It's like, this is the character that I've chosen,
but is that really my over soul?
Is that really who I am in essence
and why am I choosing that character?
And there's a movie called The Discoveries
is with Robert Redford and Robert Redford.
Have any of you heard of it?
I don't think I've seen it.
No, I'll check it out.
It's basically discovered that there's an afterlife.
So the suicides go up
and his son is kind of like against him,
not to do spoiler, but they basically figure out a way.
They think that they're recording the memories at death,
but what they're recording or what is recorded
is a fork in the road where you could have made
another decision and got yourself on another timeline,
but you made the poor decision.
So I also believe you can go into a past memory
in this life and recreate it and do small alterations.
I think a lot of us are seeing,
I'm not gonna say all of us,
but I've noticed that friends
are seeing small little Mandela effects in their life
where there's glitches.
So who's doing that?
Is it CERN?
Is it because the veil is vanishing?
Do you have any thoughts on that?
I do just because I'm reading this book
about the Nordic aliens that aren't aliens,
but from human ancestry
and they're kind of manipulating this
with the UAP reports that are coming out
tying in the close encounter of the UFO flying in the sky,
actually manipulating space time
and I've been researching the portals as well.
And it's all interconnected to Atlantis.
These secret societies were looking for this Atlantis
or maybe they're coming from this Atlantis
where the time travel is property.
Is it like a future version of ourselves
coming back for ourselves?
Like where do you think 3i Atlas?
Because the range of ideas on the spiritual
YouTube channels in regards to this interstellar,
which we could argue is it really even real?
NASA, the government shut down.
So I want you guys to talk about even
the fact that it's called Atlas
and if you know who Atlas was.
Well, I got to say I'm think I'm skeptical
of the whole Mandela effect.
Like I tend to think that people just have bad memories
or sometimes off brand Chinese knockoffs
making into the market.
And no one wants to admit that they've got knockoffs
that rival their actual brand.
So you get these things like Mandela effects,
but it's almost like in my mind,
whenever the Mandela effect comes up,
it's like, so I'm either gonna, let's say like,
I've got a hundred grand.
I just like pawned everything that I owned
and I'm like selling my house.
And I'm gonna put it all on red or black in Vegas, right?
And red is that you have a bad memory
or black is that the entire fabric of reality
has changed itself around you in some objective way
that we can, like I've already bet my money
that you just have a bad memory
and I've told them to like spin the wheel.
That's kind of like where I'm at with this
because I haven't found any like definitive version
where it's like that could just be bad memory
or it could just be that a bootleg version
of Fruit of the Loom did make it out into the market
and they're just trying to keep it quiet.
Okay, I'll give you an example
before we talk about Atlas.
So let's say Haas Avocado.
How do you remember it being spelled Thomas?
H-A-A-S.
I guess, yeah.
I don't know if I ever paid close enough attention.
And now what is it?
Now it's, I forget what the Mandela is
or what it is, is it Haas now?
I don't, I don't know, not school that,
but it could be a mixture of both too, you know what I'm saying?
Like, our perceptions as humans is very limited.
It could be, but if I have to bring my skeptic,
my skeptical mind on this one again,
it's like we do have objective tests,
whatever your bar is for like a scientific test
but we've got objective tests that show
that human beings have imperfect memories.
There's not a single person on the planet
that has a 100% accurate recall
for every, like short-term, long-term fine detail.
There's some people that have photographic memories
but they don't necessarily remember everything else
that's not like photographic.
So we have evidence that people don't have perfect memories
but now we have to find evidence
that there's definitely alternate timelines
that just change little details.
Well, with the Haas, whatever it is now,
I found the old version in,
I went to newspapers.com and found it written
in a different way, but you know, your point, Donut,
that it could have been like a prototype
or like I remember like Jupiter,
I remember it Jupiter rising, but it's Jupiter ascending.
Maybe for a hot minute, they were gonna call it
Jupiter rising, the movie with-
With the bees.
Yeah, with the bees.
That's right.
I definitely resonate with that.
That's when I was like, I'm a galactical queen
just like Mila, but in this life, it's like I'm a maid.
But anyway, that movie had a different title.
What do you think about this comment,
Mandela affects a sigh up for a hyperbolic
retarded truth or just-
I think that's a good point too.
Yeah, me too.
This is why I love, you know,
I'm a very Pycinian, so I'm very creative and all that,
but I also know the importance of grounding myself
in reality and truth and looking at what's really going on
and then even knowing my, you know, limitations,
but also the excellence of just being
an individual human on this planet
of what the spirit can really bring out
more so than an AI in a lot of ways.
You know, that spirit.
But Atlantis, I got this dolphin right here.
It goes into the alien thing.
The alien thing is a big story that's being pushed
by world leaders and this is nothing new
at UFO Scare in the 1950s,
but this goes back even further
even to religions of the battles of the gods in the skies
and whatnot, but John C. Lilly was doing these experiments
with the dolphins, which was a precursor to MK Ultra
in a lot of ways.
Yes, and he was communicating with the dolphins
not to talk to dolphins.
They just had the similar brains like us,
even though they're a little bit bigger,
but it was just so they can communicate with the whales
and the whales would go down to Atlantis in the ocean
to communicate to the Atlanteans.
And that's what the government was funding him for,
according to him, on his forwards of some of his books.
That's what he's...
Why the Atlanteans lived underwater?
Yeah, so the government has been able to,
since the 70s, build underground bases underneath the water
and just the technology that we have today.
And so if there is a civilization,
they would need to be hidden somewhere,
probably underneath the water.
And then it kind of gets strange when we think of,
like Gis Lane, who had her Teramar
or even the seeding operations, Zoro, Ranch or whatnot.
There is a lot more going on in the world
than what we think.
So I do like to expand the imagination and the creativity,
but also dial it back a little bit into reality.
I think it's super important.
When you say that,
because I've been thinking about like who's reality,
this matrix bullshit reality.
Like also I feel that since my Kundalini
and we all have this were multi-dimensional
and that if you can stay in your frequency
and create like with Neville Goddard in mind
or the gift fulfilled,
that you can fix, rearrange your hologram
to project a different reality.
Now, if we all weren't plugged into the matrix
of what reality is, could we collectively change?
Because I think there is a bifurcation
going on that people are very plugged in the matrix,
just doing their job and not really introspecting.
And then there's those of us who are raising our consciousness
and seeing, they're talking about this new earth, right?
Is this new earth on earth?
Are we going to have a solar flare?
And those of us who've done our work
are going to find ourselves somewhere else.
So this notion of what is reality anyways.
I like John C. Lilly's version of this one too,
because this was where the video game Echo the Dolphin came out
which was a direct link to John C. Lilly's work with dolphins
and his concept, the Echo, which was like
the earth coincidence control operation or something.
And basically this is what we're talking about
where the dolphins relay the message to the whales
and the whales relay to the Atlanteans
and that the Atlanteans represent some kind of like
a human or like at least earth bound intelligence.
And they were all kind of fighting or being balanced by SSI
which was solid state intelligence,
which is basically like AI, like a baked in AI model.
And that there was this like cosmic battle
constantly between a like chat GPT and then Atlanteans.
That's kind of what he was describing in early in the 70s.
And that would, it almost implies though
that it's not about earth, like humans on earth
rising their consciousness and taking control.
It's more about making sure that Echo remains in control
and the SSI doesn't take over.
We can't all be president, but like we can all get
on the same page and make sure that we have a president
that represents the things that we want to represent
but we can't all be president.
There's a film, a Japanese film from I believe
like the frickin' 50s or 60s, it's in black and white,
maybe the 70s called Rashimon.
And it came up with this term for even the court of law,
the Rashimon effect where there's four different points
of views to a court case in this movie
and everyone sees it differently.
And it's an absolutely incredible film
but our memories are so falsified
by even our own egos maybe in a sense.
And when I tell a story of what happened,
I'm gonna make it sound better and cooler.
Like, oh yeah, you know, I was getting millions of views,
you know, like I'll like from the point.
And so like how based in the truth can we be and whatnot?
But it's, yeah, it's.
Then it brings, you know, having multiple views
to create a holistic picture.
And if you are, I mean, the way I work is I,
let's say I'm looking at a topic,
it's I become, it looks like I'm obsessive
but I'm analyzing, I'm looking for patterns
and I am trying to look at a holistic,
well, what is the truth?
What for this operation?
And it takes a lot of investigations.
Also, you're talking about kind of distortions
that we might have overlaid,
but if you can develop self-awareness
where you're sitting here and kind of looking at yourself
from like a oversold perspective,
then you could be more objective as the observer.
Then it brings up the quantum effect
of if you are observing something,
you are actually having an impact on it.
Right, right, and then what's gonna happen
with all of these cameras and, you know,
Palantir and everything watching,
everything that's going on even to the point
where it's watching are like blood pressure and whatnot,
with that observer kind of effect happening,
what's gonna happen on a massive scale?
I've noticed this with video work
as I've been obsessed with videos
and just filming stuff ever since a kid.
But when I was looking through the lens
of the video camera,
whatever I was filming would change.
And it wouldn't change like automatically,
but if I was just looking and I'm like,
I wanna film something crazy happening
and I would go out and film every day,
eventually that screen that I was filming
started to warp and I was filming what I was set up
sort of like maybe a hunter going out
and hunting or a photographer going out
to capture an image of an eagle.
And also you're bringing up the Kundalini
and I'm reading a book by Julius Evella now
because I'm very much diving deeper into philosophy
and psychology, which I've always been interested in,
but this goes into our memories
and how we think and our world views
and how the world view can get manipulated
or we could deconstruct that world view to see
like why am I thinking like this?
Why do I believe this?
Why am I operating like this?
And the Kundalini is very interesting
because I'm reading this book called
The Metaphysics of Sex and it's by Julius Evella.
I found it at the C's book store.
I grabbed a bunch of his books,
but this one was the most interesting
because we're in November.
I'm not sure if you know what that is, but...
Oh yeah, I did too.
Thanks.
But this was pushed onto our world view
collective consciousness, especially for men and guys.
We always talk about it.
It's weird, but it is true.
It's on all the top podcasts.
You got to conserve your energy and so the masses,
the collective, I would say 80% of them,
they are not doing some type of like conserving
Kundalini kind of thing
for a transmutational magical purpose.
I believe that maybe that 80% would be kind of more
with their addictions and whatnot.
It would put them in a state of disembalance
where they wouldn't be tranquil anymore
and they would be kind of rigid and whatnot.
Sort of like what you would see
with somebody who's newly becoming sober.
You don't know how to deal with life and emotions
and what's going on.
And so even astrologically,
that we're in a time where we're entering the winter,
the doc winter, where we're like all the stuff
that we've planted,
we're harvesting and conserving it now, right?
So it sort of makes sense
that this would happen in a November astrologically,
but this Kundalini thing is interesting
because this book is diving deep into it.
And I look into the Super Bowl rituals,
how their fertility writes with Ishtar
and right before springtime, we get the Super Bowl.
And so I'm looking at that as a sex magic ritual.
And so I've been learning about the Kundalini,
which I have never do anything about this,
but it is interesting.
It's a female energy.
It's a female goddess.
Shakti.
Shakti, okay, yes.
And then it even means like it's like wrapping around
and it also made me think of the rabbis,
like when they wrap around the Tefillin,
I'm like, I wonder if that is like a human kind of thing.
Cause it's sort of like the same
and then going to go into the head
and then and whatnot.
So it's a very symbolic this, this.
Is it rude, is it rude to mess with your Kundalini
in public?
It is.
Like if you, like you can't just raise your Kundalini
in like a public space, would that be?
You can, you can.
I want to say a couple of things about that
because, you know, I'm a yogi,
but I never really gravitated to the Kundalini
maybe because I needed it as far as the breath,
the prana, which the, you know, the pandemic,
the, the, they attack the heart, the breath and the blood,
which are crucial to raising your consciousness.
So Kundalini, when it happened,
it did change my frequency,
but the idea is it's the coiled snake.
That's what the Christians took and demonified as the snake,
but the energy is coiled at the base of your spine.
And the idea that it, it can,
you can breathe it up and down to clear the chakras
and actually go into traumas, go into past lives.
And then it, it hemisync,
but the Monroe Institute was actually,
I wrote about this in a sub-stack
because they don't really talk about the fact that the CIA
was very intrigued with the Kundalini
and that Ishtav Bentov died in plain 191, 9-11.
And he was, he's the one who wrote Stocking, The Pendulum.
And there was another guy that they were also,
oh yeah, there's a book called Kundalini,
Transcendence or Psychosis.
Because when I first had the Kundalini,
I was hearing messages, that's how I found my place.
Just I heard go to Zillow and I went,
I was listening to it, but then it kind of tempered down.
And now I'm very aware of,
oh, I'm yesterday, I was in a very like low,
I was sad because something happened
and I have to alchemize it.
And it's with the breath,
it can be used like you can use the orgasm
to just draw breath, like it wasn't sexual, right?
That's part of why they've created all this pornography.
It's all to not tap into your own divinity.
Wow.
I think what if there's a fight night?
This is gonna be a little bit weird.
What if there is a fight night amount
of any given feeling at any time?
So like an orgasmic feeling,
there's a fight night amount of that to go around.
So for example, no nut November,
like every other time of the month,
when people aren't no nutting,
then like you've got a fight night amount
of orgasmic feeling to go around the entire world.
But then in no nut November,
the few that continue to nut their orgasms
are technically like three, four, five times as potent
because again, now they're sharing like the same amount
but out of a smaller pool.
Yeah, that's an interesting...
I think that the AI understands all of this.
Like to...
You already knew it knew.
The moment it was born, it knew all this.
During the lockdowns,
the websites were just rocket launched,
right?
Everyone's at home scared of their onophobia,
being with themselves, they're freaking out.
They're just on these websites.
Like, oh, a craze.
Like it was like breaking records
of people looking at these material.
And now these websites are like being taken away from us.
They took our websites
and you can't get into these websites
unless you upload your government ID
and whatnot.
So you can't...
Do you know about this?
No.
Like give me an example of a website.
The Naughty Web site.
Instagram, a whole bunch of them on YouTube.
Yeah, that's who I'm speaking of.
What's Naughty?
The Naughty websites.
Oh, Naughty.
Yeah, the Illuma Naughty websites.
But now it's not easy to access those
unless you upload your government ID
so they know who's watching and whatnot.
And this, I'm looking into on an emotional level
because emotions are like a big role
in all movements and everything.
Like that's why you would even get a aggressive youth
aligning with the greatest of the world.
They are put there in place for a reason
and it goes on both sides as well.
Left and right where you'll get this angst
and for me it fell into being like a punk rocker, right?
And so it's like all emotional in a sense.
So what's happening emotionally
that they're removing our access to these sugars,
these additives, everything is getting stripped away
that's addictive from us.
And I wouldn't be surprised
if they're getting everyone hooked on like the zins
for a reason to take it away
and what would happen if they took it away.
What sugars are they taking away?
Wouldn't that be a good thing?
No, we're not saying it's not a good thing.
But why is that happening?
Where is that happening that sugar's being stripped?
Like they're taking additives out of foods
that are terrible for us.
But a lot of these additives,
our bodies probably have become addicted to.
So it's just like I'm just going on a level of
if you have a like a volunteer kind of watching everybody
with their phones that are studying us,
our eye movements, our emotions, our breathing,
our excitement levels that if they just maneuver
just a little thing, let's take away this chemical
and see what happens to the collective.
And they could be like, wow, this collective
just started watching stranger things a lot more now.
Or they can run these data tests on something so micro
kind of like when you're doing a golf swing.
I don't know how to do a golf swing,
but if you just change your swing just a little bit,
it goes a long way in the long run.
So I believe that everything happening
are these test runs, even the removal
of like an additive of sugar or a website
or a point of view.
I mean, yeah.
So we could see during the pandemic
because let's say my experience in San Francisco,
I mean, San Francisco is arguably
like one of the fucking shittiest places
to experience, but then somewhere in bum fuck
in whatever in the country,
how people responded in different ways.
And then they monitored that in,
and in June, 2020, they literally had a symposium
to discuss the pros and cons of bypassing
experiments with animals in the name of an emergency.
So we became the animal.
So I definitely think that there's micro experiments
and then data collection and then pivots,
based on their findings of the collective.
The sugar one too is an interesting thing
because I think it's almost like a Hegelian dialectic
of getting you to just choose between Coke and Pepsi
and not even realize you could just drink water too.
So like for the last 10 years or maybe 15 years,
it's been, oh man, I can't believe
they replaced sugar with this high fructose corn syrup.
We need to get away from this hard.
We need to go back to good old sugar,
back when things were nice and healthy,
but like when sugar was introduced to the diet,
that was also, it just, it was a pure toxin, right?
So, but what happens is that the diet,
the conversation changes to like,
we demand sugar back in our diet,
like so we can be healthy,
but you don't even realize that it's really like,
no, you should actually cut both of them out.
But if you're too busy arguing about,
no man, red 38 is way better than red 40.
I'd never touch red 40, like red 38 all the way.
That's the one that's good for you.
Right, so it's going,
getting out of the still of the paradigm
and freeing yourself in a sense
and not being confined by whatever is being told to you,
but it's gonna be, it's gonna be difficult
if you're like Winston in the corner writing,
like in 1984, cause everything is being observed.
I mean, arguably I am a poster child
for the social credit system.
We see what they're doing with the food stamps.
I knew they were gonna pull it back
because it's about normalization.
It's like they're also Avi Loeb,
the fucking Uval Harari of the stars
just went on Fox like last week.
So they're, they're so slowly normalizing
this what I think could be district nine.
It doesn't have to be real.
It's whatever the fuck they tell you, right?
They can say, now we're gonna have to do a lockdown.
Oh, now we have an EMP strike
because of the interstellar thing.
Like we all feel this in the collective
of the techno fascist reality
that they want to create, right?
So I don't know how you get out of that.
It's like opt out.
We're gonna be relegated to the savage lands.
If any, either of you have seen Brave New World,
the remake on Peacock, it's very, it's very good.
Have any of you seen it?
I'll check it out.
It was the first book I read pretty much
in elementary school, Brave New World.
And I believe that was one of my big red pills in a sense.
But what you were saying was so incredible and you're so right.
I think looking at it like long-term effects
of what situation are we put through right now
is for a later outcome of the big story was
oh, the EBT food stamp snap was removed
and it was like a 20 day thing.
I don't know, I'm not really looking into it much.
But then you get the socialist elected in New York
which goes along the line of more of that.
We need more of that.
So it really like emotionally charged up New York
for that election with little socialist type things like that.
Now that was interesting.
I don't know if we're even pointing towards that
but everything that happens on the world stage
is for an outcome and you could just run these data tests
to see where that outcome would land with the AIs.
There's a, in William Cooper's Behold a Pale Horse
there's this one section of silent weapons for quiet wars
and he breaks down how they operate society
as if it were like a circuit board
and that if you can just put a capacitor to here
and a resistor here, you can make energy
just flow around the city and flow around the economy
any way you want to.
And I really think that like the snap EBT thing
it's related to that.
It's a way of like, because objectively
every single person using EBT or snap
isn't necessarily using it for like sustenance, right?
So there's an entire economy that springs up around this
where now I can take my snap benefits
and sell them for 50% face value
and get money to go and pay like mortgage
or car payments or like use it for things I actually need
and then figure out food and figure out the things
that that would have come with later.
And then meanwhile there's people that legitimately
relied on buying snap at a discount
from like black market snap dealers
and that's legitimately how they got their actual food
because they weren't eligible
or like long litany of reasons, right?
But what happens is that the state or the system
they wait until this economy springs up
inside this chaos they've created
like they didn't create the snap EBT economy
but like once it starts to take form
now when they take it away they're disrupting
an entire like economic system
where people were figuring out how to get mortgage
and how to like make like a living off of this thing
and it just introduces a whole bunch of entropy
into the system and it's just like flooding it
with energy and now that there'll be justification
to be like, oh, now the state has to come in
and we gotta do a new round of hiring
now we have to lower the standards
of the people that we are hiring
because there's not enough people
that wanna be cops or ice or whatever.
So like every one of these things
it justifies this ability to either lower standards
or increase authority and it seems like
this is the most obvious song over and over
the only story that's been told more often
is probably Atlantis from like 400 BC.
And with New York with Zoran Mondami
I was kinda looking into the
the etymology is like ma, da, like mom and dad
and I even see when people say his name
the captions can't even pick it up.
Mama, dad, dad.
Mom and daddy.
And I believe there's a psychological thing
and the knee means below
so I don't really understand why that is in the head
but it kinda makes sense because you got
the Bernie Sanders, the Bernie Bros,
the Alexandria Cortez and with him.
So it's like this, like, oh, we don't like the system
but it is what the system sort of wants to put in place
and eventually people won't need the, what's it called?
I forget what it's called, where you get the money
from the government, the credit thing,
where you get the money.
The EBT?
Universal Basic Income, so that's the UBI.
UBI, that's been the plan of the technocrats
for a long time even going back to the technocracy
of Elon's grandparents of energy credits
but that's gonna change.
It's gonna be like a ready player one
where people don't want that Universal Basic Income.
It's gonna be Universal Basic Compute.
And this was spoken about in the Time Magazine
and Time Magazine is one of the higher echelons
of the predictive programming priming,
the world, what to do and what can happen.
And they had that guy on the cover of it,
just showing sort of like an economist magazine
showing what's gonna happen.
And the Time Magazine talked about the or we'll see you now
and it went into this Universal Basic Compute.
So in the future, we're not gonna want the food credits,
we're gonna want a little bit of access to the AI
because the AI will do everything for us.
Oh, I gotta get my AI credits
so I can have someone take my trash out
because of the laziness and we're not gonna know
how to do stuff even more so on a level
that we can't even understand right now
how we don't know how to hunt and fish.
I'm not saying everybody,
I know Thomas knows how to hunt and fish.
I gotta prove, yeah, I gotta prove.
And I know you as well, Mary,
I know how to do what you gotta do.
But in the future, people aren't gonna know
how to throw away trash.
They're gonna be like, where do I put the trash?
Like you're disrupting my bait and like from idiocracy
the like a wally world sort of.
Like how many people know how to go create a product, right?
Create a DVD, a documentary, get the research, package it,
get it out there and tell people, hey, oh, check this out.
Or how many people know how to go into a store
and say, hey, these are my services.
I can do this for your company, pay me this much
and then delivering it and having a fair value transaction.
People don't know how to do that.
So I just see this just getting worse and worse.
Yeah.
Well, I'm not gonna argue on that.
I see people just doing their job,
just following policy and just doing my job.
And it's just, you're just a cog, right?
You're not a visionary, don't know what it really takes
to produce, manufacture something of creative.
I mean, it's just maybe a disparity that's being created.
I'm developing personally a severe allergy to the matrix.
Like if I go to the seven, like just the fabuloso,
the smells, everybody just onto fucking scripts like NPCs
and then if you have someone who's frequency,
you kind of like, you wig them out or something.
So I don't know, because I speak to gentlemen like you
who are critical thinkers and creators,
but the main, they're just like,
they're run by fear, right?
We're all kind of being squeezed.
I definitely know that and I do have food stamps
because of the circumstances that I found myself in
for speaking the truth and roll out.
I have stamps to start off my donut career.
So without food stamps, donut, like when it says,
I was going to the food banks.
I was getting like people giving me food.
I wouldn't eat for some days and whatnot, you know, so,
but I, and I was very ashamed of like getting them,
but like I didn't eat for two days.
And I was like in my neighbors
because I was living in a low income housing.
They were eating lobster.
They were drinking Red Bull and doing drugs
right in the front of my unit.
And I'm like, okay, they're using it.
I actually have jobs that pay taxes.
Like, so I used it and then when I got off of it,
I still worked.
I worked like over like 14 hours a day
and then got off of it.
It was good, so.
Yeah, I used to just get my meal food.
I didn't bother getting the stamps.
We just went to the store and took what we needed.
Those days are over though.
Yeah, they are.
It was the tail end of that reality
because now everyone's got it.
Even like a bodega, they all got cameras now.
Back then it was like, that wasn't even a thing.
Yeah, yeah.
What does it do for society?
If you guys, Zach made me, has made me watch one episode
of Black Mirror.
I just, it's too much,
but there's the episode with the social credit.
I don't know if I, do you guys mind
if I bring up the clip?
Hey, cheese slice.
If you do Black Mirror social credit system airport
and I want to just play that clip
because also what it's doing is it's generating fakeness
because no one's being authentic.
It's all these fucking like social justice.
So I want to, so it's, if you do Black Mirror airport
social credit.
And how they feel free just,
I just got goosebumps thinking about that episode.
How they feel free where they can just scream
like at the end, you know
because they all have the virtue signal
and it's all about narcissism.
It's all about appearances and like the removal
like a true sense of what narcissism is
of removing the self, the emotions.
And then they were able to get that out there yet.
That was a good episode.
Let's show the, I had to walk out.
Okay, let's show this.
Hi there, how are you doing?
I am wonderful.
I am so sorry that flight is canceled.
No, no customer incident at the other end.
So when is the next flight?
Yeah, they're all kind of full.
I booked this week's ago.
It's my best friend's wedding.
I'm sorry.
I have to get there.
I have to.
Okay, let's see what we can do.
Thank you.
I see there's one standby seat
on another plane leaving tonight.
That's reserved for members of our prime flight program.
You gotta be a 4.2 or over to qualify.
Oh, I'm a 4.2.
Mm-mm.
I'm afraid you're actually a 4.183.
Oh, well that's not my fault.
Some woman dinged me down in the cadre.
Can't you just-
I'm sorry, I won't let me book it
without the correct ranking.
But it's so close.
There's just nothing I can do.
It's so big, price to me, surely.
I'm gonna have to ask you
to moderate your language there.
Sorry, it's just I'm made of honor.
I cannot miss this wedding.
And I am so sorry about that.
Oh, oh, oh, oh.
Can you call the supervisor?
I cannot do that.
Can you just call the supervisor?
I cannot do that.
Call the fucking supervisor.
Okay, that's profanity.
We're zero tolerance on profanity.
I'm sorry, it's just-
Yeah, I have to serve the next customer.
No, no, no, no.
Can you step away, ma'am?
It's got to fucking help me!
I've called security.
Oh, oh, no, no, no.
Please don't do that.
I'm a 5-star on you.
5-star on you?
What's the issue here, Hannah?
Intimidation and profanity.
Oh, I don't know.
I was not intimidating.
Don't speak, ma'am.
I was just trying to-
Ma'am?
Oh, oh, oh, oh.
Okay, so in order to restore calm,
I'm invoking my authority as airport security
to dock you one full ranking point as a punitive measure.
This is a temporal measure.
No!
A score reversed to normal in 24 hours.
No, no, no, but I need it now.
The period all downvotes are subject
to a times two multiplier.
Times two?
We recommend you avoid negative feedback at this time.
I'm on double damage.
Please.
Remove yourself from the airport immediately.
What do you rank in front of?
What a great scene that you played there.
Yes, yes.
It goes for everything.
That is me.
I would be like, can't you fucking help me, fuckers?
But I'm there, meh, meh, meh, meh.
The problem there is that it's democratic
and everyone's in on it.
Like that's kind of the downfall.
Like let's let everybody vote on everybody else.
I'm blind.
I feel like that's what it would deteriorate into.
It would deteriorate into like a punitive system
to restrict others as opposed to like helping you,
anyone become better.
It would just become a weapon.
Well, we saw that with Snitch Nation.
We saw, I went and enrolled to be,
when they were, to be like moderators.
I forget what I was, the track and trace.
I mean, we were incentivizing others to, to tattletail.
I remember being in Costa Rica and going to the bank
and they'd had the, because it was unfurling there too.
They had the, the antibacterial sanitizer.
So I pretended to put it.
And then I had a security guard come.
No, the man goes, you're not using the sanitizer.
So he tattletailed on me.
He tattletailed on me and people were snitching on others.
And that was the priming of this hive mind.
I mean, this scene, you crack and then you lose your points,
but it's all fucking fake and gay.
Yes, yes.
I would have tattled on him.
I would have been like that guy didn't use any either.
And he's just trying to distract.
And like now he's down there with you.
You know what I mean?
Except it's hard in Spanish.
You know, it's a, it was a different, different language.
I went to another bank cause I was there to be at the bank
and you know, first do not fucking point that gun,
that temperature gun at my third eye.
I got very offended.
I refused to wear a mask.
I didn't want to use their sanitizer.
Now let's look at what is like, this is all bullshit,
right, but it's made into reality
that you're now a detractor.
And then they said, we're going to call the police.
And I said, why?
Why?
And he said, for your behavior.
But if we really look at the retardiveness of it all,
like it's very much social justice warriors
were doing the right thing, but it's all fake
and hypocritical.
What was your behavior?
What did you do?
I stood up and I refused the antibacterial,
refused the face diaper
and refused the fucking temperature gun at my,
that was my behavior.
The fact, the sheer fact of being the divergent,
the sheer fact of being the disruptive, right?
And where was it?
What were you trying to get access to?
To money in my bank account in Costa Rica.
Oh, so just going into the bank,
you had to go through those three hoops.
Right, and in a foreign language as a gringa
and then, and you know, all of these people,
then all of these people who are feeling good,
like that cringe air flight person
is like, it's just complete.
We've all met these people.
I, you know, you gotta watch your profanity.
Like, I'm like, oh, would you have to go
and lay in your safe space?
Oh, did I hurt your ears?
Like, really?
You haven't said the F word,
but then it's, they use that to have power.
We saw it during the pandemic.
I mean, I got kicked off of a plane by a Shaniqua
just because I spoke back at her.
And then they all wanted to exercise their power.
I mean, that's one of the reasons why they hire black people
to be the meter maids and in the airports
because they know that subconsciously
they're gonna enjoy having power over white people.
I mean, it's like psychological.
So we empowered all of these,
these, you know, when I almost also got kicked off of,
I did get kicked off of the bright line.
And it was, I was on the platform and it was AC
and I was, it had just rained.
So I hate AC.
So I was, my mom had just been put in the hospital
and she's vaccine injured.
And this young black girl comes up to me
and the first, she doesn't say hello, whatever.
I'm like, you know, on my phone, you're not safe.
Like negative.
And I said, I'm very safe.
And she said, you know, I can cancel your train ride.
And I said, oh, I know you could cancel my train ride.
They're all, it's ego, ego, ego.
So that's-
Why were you not safe?
Cause you didn't have a mask on?
Cause you're not allowed to be on the platform
until they tell you you're supposed to be on the platform.
And I was literally feeling my system
because I was all wet from the rain in the air conditioning
and I wanted to be out in the humidity.
Like I'm not safe.
What the fuck?
I'm gonna just leap into my death or something.
So it's just all bullshit.
Also, the clip that you showed showed a perfect example
of collectivism and the hypocrisy of this lady
who they were being like, she's like a mean person.
She's a threat, but at the same time,
you got all these smiling people around her
viciously destroying her life.
Pretty much they're actually murdering her
by the hidden this button.
And they're smiling and all hitting this button
destroying this lady's life.
And so the hypocrisy and virtuous signaling
of nothing but psychopathy on such a cinematic level
was very intense.
There's so many different layers in that episode that-
What isn't, wasn't that episode
was basically like that lady at the Phillies game
that like took the ball from the kid.
It's kind of like that's sort of, we've got that now.
You don't have an app with like an actual number rating,
but like people call it a job.
Like she got blacklisted from the world for-
I don't know that story.
What's that story?
There was a kid that caught like a fly ball,
but I guess he had like run from his section
over to another section and caught it.
And this lady that was in the section
the ball was headed towards,
she felt some kind of ownership.
Like you weren't allowed to come into my section
and catch this ball.
So she went and it was like a kid or it was a dad.
The dad caught it and he walked back over to his kids
and he gave it to his son and the lady stomps over
and she basically demands the dad force his kid
to give it back to him because she like,
she was going to catch it.
And dad was frightened.
The dad was frightened.
And this is just like a dad, like a masculine dad.
He was frightened.
So her energy, and if you looked at this lady,
I don't, wasn't she one of these virtual signallers
with the certain haircut?
I don't know, whatever.
Yeah, she had like the Karen haircut,
but the point being is that in that clip from Black Mirror,
I forgot that's Ron Howard's daughter, I think or something,
but like, yeah, that redhead that was like
had her credit score lowered.
She was Howard's daughter, right?
Like she got loud.
She was being annoying.
She was holding up the line.
She was kind of being a Karen.
So like the lady that demands the ball from like,
we don't know, like she might have had to put
her dog down that day or something, right?
Like she could have been going through something.
And it's not like she punched a kid.
It's not like she like, like she, she was a Karen.
She was like a nasty Karen for a blip in time.
And now like that, that destroyed her social credit rating.
Like we already have the system in place.
We just need the technology to catch up to it.
Yeah, I would, go ahead.
Something what I coined the truth or collective,
which I have been excommunicated out of
over the last few years because of my pride
in creating products and selling them like a,
like a capitalistic, you know,
and the ideologies of the left.
This is, which is also on the right as well.
But how I broke through this matrix of learning
about symbolism, etymology, bloodline, secret societies,
of how the world actually operates, right?
Now to see how the world also actually operates
studying the ideologies and these worldviews
and belief systems of the collective,
which is the collective is usually more
towards the social credit scoring.
This is what they love all throughout history.
This has always been the collective, right?
Socialism is a collective.
The democracy is the mob.
It's the collective and shies away from an individual,
you know, using their own mind and creative powers
given by God to create a life of, you know,
what they want through their hard work
and brain power or mind power spirit or whatever.
So that episode is showing the,
there's no individuality and it is the hive mind.
I want to say when I was,
if I can share the Shaniqua
that I've shared it before, maybe not to you,
but I was on the plane.
I was going to the truth about cancer.
Was that her real name?
Are you giving her that name?
I gave her that name.
Okay, I'm just checking because it's a real name.
I know it is, but so I changed seats with someone.
I checked with them.
They were reading the four agreements,
but someone, there was a Hugo Boss jacket.
So the Shaniqua comes and says, she checks the seat.
So she's registered that I changed seats.
So I said, like, excuse me, someone left their Hugo Boss
and I'm also a mirror and I'll mirror your energy.
She goes, well, maybe it's the person
who's you changed seat with.
And I said, actually no, I checked.
Uh-uh, you ain't gonna talk to me that way.
Bitch, you're talking to me that way,
but I didn't say that.
Just get up the plane, take your things
and get off the plane.
The whole plane, right?
I'm not taking my things.
So I get off the plane and I have a mask
that I got from a biohacking conference with silver,
but it just happened to be broken.
So she's like, you're nostril is showing,
you're nostril is showing.
Like literally we're fucking talking about this.
So I put it over and I said, fuck my ego.
I literally got on my knees, okay?
On the fucking carpet in American Airlines.
And I said, please don't ruin my trip.
I have a conference to attend to.
She was, get up, get up.
Why?
You're making me feel uncomfortable.
I'm making you feel uncomfortable, bitch.
I paid 750 dollars and I'm on my knees
and you're scolding me for my nostril.
Okay, but I didn't say any of that.
Get up.
Okay, so now I have to go back to the plane.
So I'm getting my things and I said,
I want you, not that they give a fuck.
I want you all to know that I'm getting off,
kicked off the plane, has nothing to do with the Rona.
They all started clapping for me getting off the plane,
just like in that scene.
And I said, you guys are all suffocating under your masks.
Welcome to Corona Con.
And I got out.
But that was a perfect example.
That's why, I mean, it was at the airport.
That's why Zach had showed it to me
and I couldn't make it through that episode.
I thought it was like so hitting home
that I had to walk out of the living room.
I'm not gonna, I'm not watching this
because I could see this is the future
only for the people who are divergence
or who are gonna push back against the system.
And I believe those days are gonna be over
because you will be punished.
Well, this has been the last two decades too, right?
Cause I mean, I remember TV shows
that have already come and gone
that was specifically about people
that were getting kicked off airplanes
or getting kicked out of the gate and airport.
It was like one of those parking meter reality shows,
but it was just about people going through issues
and it's just like watching cops.
Like you're watching cops to see someone get pulled over.
You're watching the plane show
to see people get kicked off their planes.
You don't wanna watch a show
where everyone's being nice the whole time.
And it's like, oh, here's your seat.
And you're like, thank you, I'll sit down now.
Like it's all about like those different transactions
just so that people can be like, man,
I'm glad that I don't act like that.
I'm glad I didn't get kicked off an airplane.
Like that's the real reason that people like to see.
It's like, man, I'm glad
this isn't happening to me right now.
Someone's taking the heat off
because it's like, if they put me under the microscope
maybe I'm getting kicked off.
Yeah, this collectivism is crazy.
And also the power hungry psychopaths
that isn't just like the people pulling the strings.
What I took note of during lockdown
was how I was having these grown men
with kids yell at me in my face, ready to fight
because I wasn't wearing, following the rules, you know.
And it just took note of it.
And I was like, okay.
So I was told by this Truth or Collective to fear,
you know, the people pulling the strings
but I fear more so of the crowd and the mob mentality
because they're the ones that are the actual illuminati
or whatever because they are being controlled
by the puppet masters.
And so this collective is the puppets in a lot of ways
enforcing these rules,
enforcing these dictator fascist type, you know,
get in line, don't mess it up.
And that's why America is pretty awesome
because we are rugged,
like that lady yelling at the airport or whatever,
as embarrassing as it is as a nation looking at us
like worldwide, typical American,
we're like getting drunk and fighting and whatnot.
But that ruggedness, that rough ruggedness
is also why we have the spirit
of a constitutional type republic.
That and the Second Amendment, the big one.
Yeah, and so that's sort of why I feel safer here
in America more so than anywhere,
not because that doesn't exist or it does exist anymore,
but because that spirit still lives within, you know,
people or that idea, that worldview of freedom, you know,
and that's, it's sort of crazy
because we went from this collectivism enforcing
this stuff and the anger and angst and alcoholism
turning into these different protests
that were set up by these Lush festivals.
So we had the BLMs, we had,
now we have the ICE kind of protest
or the No Kings protest,
which is funded by, you know, mega corporations.
And then you've got these,
it's all everybody's just being manipulated
and moved in certain directions.
And that direction is of this technocratic elite
of these energy credits and whatnot and being controlled.
But the ideologies is super important to understand
to even make it, I would say, in the next five to 10 years
because people are so against just the idea of working.
They want the free stuff and not, you know,
breaking their back and creating stuff
with blood, sweat, and tears.
And I really saw this every single time
I go on an endeavor to create a project.
If I want to create a project, I never get backlash.
Everyone loves me, but I'm like, I'm going to make this idea.
People I don't even know will come up to me
and be like, that's stupid.
That's people are just so anti.
And it's an ideology.
It is a communist socialist type of ideology
of the truth or collective as well
because the truth or collective,
something that I've noticed with their thoughts
and their beliefs is that if you charge
for something you worked for, you're an evil person
that it should be free.
Everything's free, free, free.
That's that idea.
Nothing is free.
That's not how nature works as well.
That it's not, and so this ideology is very,
that's why I was excommunicated from the truth
or collective because of my certain ideologies
which is sort of funny
because all the OG researchers were super pro that ideas.
So I go on a campaign with Thomas.
Everyone loves me and then we go on a campaign
to create, we create something.
We work on it for fricking two years.
Thomas is like the OG though.
He worked even harder, you know, he's so amazing.
And we work so hard.
We create a product and then everyone's like,
oh, you're a shill because you create something
and you charge for it.
That's called a transactional value.
And this collective, they'll shame you for having,
let's say a Patreon or subscriber thing.
So you could pay your bills
because they would much rather you go work for Amazon
to pay your bills and then give the truth out for free.
Or this is just the thought process.
And these same people, these same parasites,
they will ask for donations.
They'll be like, oh, this guy's a shill.
Hey, send me a donation.
What was the transactional value?
I wanna say, I wanna say also if I,
like people are like, why are you charging 66.66?
I think part of that is like,
you don't fucking know how much fucking work
to write this.
And it's not blah, blah.
It's like an actual investigation.
So it's like, you have no appreciation.
Plus not my livelihood is.
So what you share brings up, do you know the analogy,
the story of the fisherman that has a bucket of crabs
and the guy bikes buying goes,
hey, you're gonna lose your crabs.
And he goes, don't worry.
As soon as one climbs up,
another one will pull them down.
There's this spirit of like,
misery loves company, don't want you to succeed.
I mean, I've seen it of me, of like,
oh, you're intimidated by me, but why?
I'm a sweet, sweet woman
because I'm not the same as everything else.
And then it's threatening
and people don't want another person's abundance.
And they don't realize,
because I also got that with vanishing of the bees
that it's like, hey, I have fucking investors.
What are you putting it on YouTube for free?
Because you determine that it should be for free.
The hell that I went through to make that movie,
to actually make it to,
I mean, three publishers,
like you could never pay me enough money for my book.
For the truth.
Hey, Elliot Page's transition was not free.
You need to buy this movie
to fund more of these surgeries.
Come on.
Well, I'm speaking of Elliot Page.
I mean, she looks, he looks so bad.
Oh, who's happy, right?
He looks so happy.
He looks like the happiest guy I've ever seen.
So, yeah, it's very, very sad.
I think on your interview with me,
I said that I haven't changed my vanishing
of the bees poster.
Hollywood didn't come and say,
oh, we need to change it to Elliot Page
because you'll see, you know,
suppose that they even created dead naming.
Why the fuck is it dead naming
to acknowledge this was a cute little girl named Ellen
who wasn't even out as a lesbo
when she did my movie and now he's a dude.
I still think you should get Ellen or Elliot Page
to narrate your George Floyd documentary.
I think it would be per,
like it would get a whole new audience, I think.
Well, that's also the other thing of these celebrities
that are just there as, I mean,
she is a poster child for the transgender.
They're just positioned there.
She was socially engineered
and full of hate.
I mean, for anything conservative,
I mean, it's to pit people against each other.
So no, I don't think I will ever speak to Ellen again.
I remember being in a hair salon.
I'm not even gonna speak to Ellen ever again.
I will never speak to Ellen again.
I admitted to Ellen.
Ellen has left the building, as they say.
Yes, Ellen has certainly left the building.
It's very sad.
Also just, she didn't wanna be sexualized by Hollywood
and yet she can go on GQ and be sexualized
showing her scars under her former boobies.
They are kinda hot.
You have to admit that those scars are super hot.
No?
All right.
I guess it's a certain taste.
So I wanna transition start, no pun intended.
Let's transition to the conspiracy cards
and tell the audience how this idea came to mind.
And Thomas, if you can show the audience,
and again, I will encourage people to please share.
Sharing is caring, especially when you're...
Let's get Donuts card up on here.
Where'd Donut go?
Donut...
I'm going to get water and let you take it.
Go get water, go get water.
All right.
Well, yeah, so like, these are,
here's like a little flyer that I've made
for the conspiracy cards.
And she's got a few of these on here.
And basically it's a combination of Nostald,
I've got a really strong opinion
that what Disney does in particular,
because I worked at Disney for 10 years,
is that they weaponize nostalgia.
They find a way to use things
that are already in your head somewhere
that you've got a favorable like NLP anchoring.
And then they just find ways to be like,
hey, now we're attached to that feeling,
that nostalgia that you've got, that's us too.
So when you tap into that feeling or this old memory,
you're like, why do I wanna milkshake
from McDonald's all of a sudden?
Why do I wanna go and watch Frozen all of a sudden?
Like why are these corporate urges
like coming up in these seemingly random ways?
And I just wanted to like redo that
in like something a little bit more useful.
So here was the very first iteration of conspiracy cards.
They're kind of based on an old Impel X-Men,
I think like 1992 card design.
So it started as just like me and my friends.
Like I had a card, donut got a card,
and then you can see on the back.
I wanna talk about the Dolphins for a second.
I'll go back to it.
If you look at the backs of these,
they all have like these little stat ratings.
Like this is entirely inspired by these old X-Men cards.
And yeah, here's donuts.
So when he comes back, I wanna ask,
is that an albino pink dolphin and also donut?
So I'm sure in reading about the Dolphins,
can you tell the audience about the masturbating of dolphins?
Sure, yes.
So obviously Lily, they were, you know,
they were masturbating with the Dolphins.
They were getting intimate with the Dolphins.
They were doing psychedelics with the Dolphins.
What's the idea of jerking off the Dolphins?
I think it was just to, you know, get closer to them.
Because I mean, in the same way that Spartans,
they all those dudes, you know, banged each other
because it was like you go, you know,
it's a very intimate thing, you know,
you're becoming one with the dolphin.
But it was like in a manly way, not a gay way.
No, no, not at all.
And so they were doing that with the Dolphin,
but they were teaching the Dolphin to speak English.
The Dolphin would speak English to the humans.
They have it on like recording.
They're just like saying like alphabet
and it's pretty interesting.
And I mean, they had such a deep bond
with their, you know, the people there
that when John C. Lilly just thought and had the intention
as I'm gonna end this experiment,
I want these dolphins to be free,
not like locked up in like their swimming pool,
you know, having a great time.
They were having a great time.
They were having such a good time
that when he had the intentions
of ending the experiment, they committed suicide.
These dolphins committed suicide by not eating anymore.
And yeah, that's that.
So that was the bond that they had with each other.
Plus dolphins are very, very,
they're kind of like bonobos in a sense.
I feel like if this guy's not gonna keep jerking me off
every day for the rest of my life,
I'm just gonna end it now.
I'm gonna hunger strike.
Yeah.
And so that dolphin that you see down below,
I got a lot of trouble as you can see,
I tattooed like appears, you know,
that chain around him to control the dolphin.
Kind of a lot of trouble for that.
Yeah, plus I needed that though, because-
Like SeaWorld?
Woo-hoo.
Peter.
This was a baby dolphin that we took
out of the Mediterranean Sea.
And the thing is that my cat is my handler.
He's a Russian blue.
So he controls the narrative
and he doesn't like to get wet.
So as you can see, I needed to put that there for the cat.
So it wasn't, it was abusive,
but it was also out of luck, you know?
So it was like, I didn't want the cat to get wet.
So I had to keep on pulling the dolphins, you know,
nostril up, up, up.
So it would just keep kind of like hopping.
So it never really went into the water
when I was taking these photos
because it was consistently hopping on top of the water.
You know how they hop out of the water?
It was a consistent hop.
And yeah, he's dead now, but Russian peace.
So this was the original inspiration.
We're just cards that represented different podcasters
and the conspiracy and like a cult space.
But then I also started expanding it into a few other.
So here we've got-
Oh, that's the guy that I learned about.
This is Robert Anton Wilson.
Yeah, Robert Anton Wilson is the one
that wrote the Illuminatus Trilogy.
He's the one that popularized a lot of John C. Lilly's work
through his different books.
What else we got here?
This is one of people, seems to be one of the favorites.
This is Bill Hicks because I also have an Alex Jones card.
So everyone's trying to collect both the Bill Hicks
and the Alex Jones.
Here's an Isaac Cappy.
This one's a little bit more of a deep cut
for anyone that knows the Isaac Cappy was the...
He was kind of like the Hannibal Barras
for Tom Hanks and Ellen DeGeneres.
Can I say something to that?
Yeah, go for it.
Zach's arguable handler also was Cappy's handler.
Just putting that out there.
Anyway.
So that's a deep cut.
That's one that not as many people recognize.
This is Freeway Rick Ross.
One of the OGs from the 80s,
the guy that was connected through the Iran Contra scandal
where the CIA was importing crack into the West Coast
and then basically using all the drug money
to fund military operations overseas.
Here's Chaney.
Here's the Roald Dog Chaney.
We got one for Abby,
the rest of the Secret Society of Good Guys.
There's one for Layla, got a card.
And then I've got a few...
I got to shout out to Layla,
shout out to Abby, shout out to Chaney.
And then I've got some of more that are like,
I feel like we're actually important
to kind of include in this set.
So here's one is the Secret Teachings of All Ages
by Manly Palmer Hall.
I just got a card that kind of just represents it
and it's a research book card.
And it just has like some excerpts
and like a reason that you might want to read it
in the back.
Here's one to promote a different podcast,
realities ours.
There's some for different comics that I've published.
Here's A Behold the Pale Horse by William Cooper
that we were just talking about.
Illuminati Yacht Club.
Let me get to some more of the baseball ones too.
This is Michelle Remembers.
This is the book that started the Satanic Panic,
arguably was this book, Michelle Remembers.
Here we've got one from Adam Weishaupt.
And you can see that this is a Illuminati Legend card.
These ones were made special
for when we did the Illuminati comic.
There's also one for Adolf Kinnege
who was the second hand to Isaac Weishaupt.
He's actually the guy that ran the Bavarian Illuminati.
No one really knows,
but like the VP was the one actually running the company.
Then we've got Alex Jones
because you have to have Alex Jones
if you've got a conspiracy card set.
What else?
We've got William Cooper
and then some more deep cuts.
Ted Gunderson also related to,
not just Iran Contra,
but I think he got pretty deep
into like the Satanic Panic scandals.
There's D.B. Cooper,
the guy that robbed the bank
and then got on the plane
and no one knew what happened to him after that.
Here we've got your favorite, right?
Mariam, you like Jeffrey Epstein, the Islanders.
We got Marshall Applewhite.
This is the Heaven's Gate cult,
the guy that convinced everyone
to castrate themselves
and then eat the applesauce
wearing like the purple Nikes or whatever.
Terrence Yeekey.
He's a hero from the Oklahoma city.
He was a first responder that was dragging bodies out
or imported seeing multiple explosives
and then the state marked him.
We've got Aldous Huxley.
We were talking about Brave New World earlier.
There's the author of Brave New World.
Also with a whole bunch of Doors of Perception,
William Reich, Oregon Energy, Jordan Maxwell.
Here's MKUltra, Donald U and Cameron,
the guy that created psychic driving methods for MKUltra.
Here's a super deep cut.
Lawrence King from the Franklin scandal from the 1980s.
So I can keep going.
We got Barry Seal
and this is one of my favorite subseries.
It's the greatest hits
because everyone in the greatest hits
was taken out by the Clinton body count.
So here's one from Barry Seal from the Clinton body count.
You got to have Alistair Crowley.
You got to have a moth man in here.
Here's Tex Mars.
He's the one that wrote Codex Magica
and a whole bunch of other like seminal works
way back in the day.
We got a Bigfoot.
We got something.
Here's a whole bunch more
from other comics that I'd published.
More influencers, more podcasters that I know.
Here's the comic from Sam Tripoli, Chaos Twins.
Jose Delgado.
He made the Bull Stimacever
that can remote control a bull with his brain.
There's David Ike.
It's called like mind control in the mind.
How long did it take for...
So what's the collaboration between both of you
and then the back?
Show the back to Thomas of...
So these ones that look like baseball cards,
like they straight up look like the baseball cards
that they were based on.
But instead of, you know, players,
we've got Michael Sarion in this case.
And then they all have like legitimate stats
and information about like when they were born
or what their credentials are and everything.
The collaboration between me and Donut was that this,
when I first started these conspiracy cards,
it was really just like 10 card designs.
And then when Donut and I started working
on the Illuminati comic,
we wanted to make sure that we had a card for him.
We had a card for a whole bunch of the different people
that we mentioned in the comic.
So after the comic blew up,
we pre-sold like over 5,000 copies.
We took pretty much all the extra leftover
and just invested it into like making more and more content
and more like double down on everything that was working
and put even more of it out there.
How long did it take for you to put this together?
I think two years, roughly.
Like it starts as an idea, right?
And then after a while,
it's like the idea keeps coming up.
And you're like, all right, maybe I will do this idea.
So not including all that time.
Yeah, we made the occult calendar.
We made so much cool stuff out of this.
One thing that it did so well,
we're like, let's just keep making more and more cool stuff.
Like don't let it end.
This is probably the hottest one right here
is the occult calendar,
where we have all the ritualistic dates to look out for.
Yeah, I got mine on me all the time.
Yeah.
They're limited.
There's only, I only have, I think, five.
So this is for 25 or it's universal for all years forever.
It's universal.
So like, if you look at any of these pages,
it's what's called a perpetual calendar.
So they're just numbered one through 31,
depending on if it has that many dates.
And then it just says 20.
So you put in the year and then you just decide
like what day you can write up on here,
what day is Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday or whatever.
So it turns into a calendar that you can use any year.
So right here it says November 7th, Ted Gunderson born.
Who's Ted?
Who's Ted Gunderson again?
Ted Gunderson was the guy that he was an ex FBI officer
that gave credibility to the Satanic Panic in the 80s.
And then also started talking about like Iran, Contra.
I have a question she says.
So if someone has a question, is there super chats?
Merrim needs to make some money.
Merrim can't just keep on.
Merrim really is like $200 short for her rent.
And it's very difficult to be this brilliant.
And she says-
We have rumble rants.
But do we?
Rumble rants are active.
Okay, squeaky.
If you want to know about Zach and my handler,
you can sign up to my sub-stack
or you could pay me money because it's-
We also have a few light coats for Bitcoin
and Litecoin.
Which I've never received.
So, I mean, unless someone's like,
oh, Merrim, can I send you some Bitcoin?
So, sorry to do a lot, but it's very difficult to ask
like it's humiliating, right?
I don't know.
It's like, oh, if you enjoy the show,
please give a contribution.
I'll ask for money all day long.
I mean, I'd rather do it for me
than do it for Dow Chemical
or Taco Bell or Amazon or Target, right?
Yeah.
It's a name.
Yeah, we could put Merrim in like a superwoman.
100% we can.
Cause basically every time that I've got another 50 cards
designed, it's time to do like another print run.
And I only get 200 made of any card.
So though, there'll only ever be 200,
except for me and donuts.
Cause we had to print like 100
for when we ran our campaign.
Show yours, Thomas.
Oh, I don't know if I grabbed the mine.
I was like, I don't want to show my card.
Okay.
I don't want to show my card.
I'll show donuts again.
I'm gonna start doing this crypto, that's genius.
Maybe you can give me,
well, it's only cause I had a crypto.
Maybe you can give me tips on how to get super chat.
So I have to like flash my.
Yes.
What do I need to do to get,
hey guys, you watch the show every week.
Merrim's on food stamps.
They're cut in half.
She's brilliant.
You can do a reading with me.
I do a, like, so if any tips to ask
Well, you know what I've found out with,
is the value exchange.
I don't think it's value.
Yeah, no, but like, I'll be like,
I don't get a lot of donations.
I do now that I'm monetized with the super chats,
but most of it would be from like,
I would sell like the occult calendar,
but then on top of that, like,
they get an autograph, you get an atomic,
you get like, so when there's like a package deal,
they seem to work, but don't listen to me
because I'm really dumb.
I put my whole Jewish culture to shame
because I don't know how to.
You can always get a few dollars.
I give so much freedom, be abundant.
Don't be stingy.
You can give a few dollars for your question.
I'm sorry to say that.
We're all struggling.
It's extra spicy when you're in a government shitless.
So again, Miraminane is banned on Denmo, Vimeo,
PayPal, GoFundMe, Instacart, Airbnb,
Amazon, Bumble have been smeared on television,
persecuted by the government.
Does that sound fucking average to you?
No, so consider the way the economy is
and put that on top of it.
Okay, she's also infiltrated by Procter and Gamble.
So you can always give two dollars
to ask your question about Zach's handler.
I'm sorry to say.
Do be abundant.
I give back.
I'm in service.
Don't be in fear.
Okay?
One of the other things I really liked that I saw,
he doesn't do it anymore,
but Andreas Sertis on his show,
he used to have a certain amount
that if someone donated like $4,
then he would play like a 30 second clip from a song.
And whenever someone wanted to hear that song,
it would be like, hey, if you want to hear the song,
someone put $333 in or whatever
as like the donation,
but like you can expand on that.
So it's not just you hear a clip of a song.
Maybe it's like, let me go into some crazy story
that I've never told anyone before,
but I'll only get 30 seconds in.
So it's like, you could always build up to like, right?
And then, you know, I took out my knife
and I was about to, oh, wait, okay.
That's 30 seconds and then go back to your normal.
Now I'm like, I'm not throwing my pearls to swine.
I've lost a lot for standing
for your medical freedom folks, okay?
So I'm a real hero.
I'm not like an Alex Jones or Russell brand.
That's a rebranded Christian.
Oh, don't say anything bad about Russell.
I'm not, you know, don't throw out the baby
with the bathwater,
but it's about, you know, abundance thinking.
And I have to do a lot of abundance thinking
and it's very difficult
when you're being strung-holded by the government.
You mentioned 333.
I would like to bring up this clip of Tucker,
you know, his parents who are CIA,
but he's not going to make it through.
He left the mainstream.
Now he's grousy.
He's controlling the mainstream,
but he comes straight from Fox News.
I'd have a beer with him.
Come on, what are you talking about?
He's good folk.
Yeah, he's nuts.
And I think there's something with the laugh too,
because a lot of these pastors do the laugh,
which is sort of like a,
it's like a handshake in a sense.
Like it's literally like laughing at the world.
That's interesting.
So we had this guy, Colin Flynn.
I spoke about this with Courtney.
I had her on my show.
Oh, I love Courtney.
But it's actually Snuffy who told me about the 333
because we have, we both have 333 as our number.
No, what does that mean?
Because I've been seeing 333 all over the place.
Well, it's, we'll talk, we'll play this clip
and then we can talk about what he says is the three.
May you run it, Cheese Slice?
Also, yeah, before we play it,
Cheese Slice and I have been doing this show for two years.
Cheese Slice, I'm not able to pay him.
I paid him $1111 because I pay forward.
I pay it forward.
I'm in service.
So for me, it's like I'm moving.
We're all dealing with things.
It's about, you're consuming my show
and you can give back.
Okay, play.
Oh, so all the philosophers that I know
are clowning this guy.
I've never heard of it before this show.
Is it too low?
Can we bring up the volume?
So, I mean, here's a question from,
oh, shit.
That sucks.
I know what I think.
The question is, what do they think?
Right, right.
Okay, let's not play that.
I can go to the actual, it's on YouTube
because Tucker's on YouTube.
And at the end he goes, I'm censored.
You know, subscribe now.
Just fuck off.
Yeah, I'm censored.
Monetized, you could, like this is absolutely ridiculous.
Like these creatures that were implemented
through the mainstream collective,
the push narratives and omit key aspects of information
and it is just sickening
and how the collective aligns.
All the people wearing the face mask
are now like aligning with the truth or type,
you know, thought patterns.
It's just insane.
It's fucking insane.
Well, there's a lot of people that'll blow with the wind
and when it's acceptable to be controversial
or like when it's acceptable to be counter-cultural,
then like that's when they become counter-cultural.
It's like when it, when the-
To go, when it's going-
It is to be anti-trend is when they'll do that.
I don't think one of these damn people
that are top podcast and spear,
like ever bring up, let's say like a Bill Cooper or something.
They ever uttered like his name or anything like that.
Like, I don't think so.
But now Tucker is being positioned as having this whole talk
is I'm putting it in the private chat, cheese slice.
I just put it, it should be almost cute to that part.
But now, like you said, well, it's the over 10 window.
It's the new gatekeepers.
I know they've spied on things that I've said
and then take it not only me
and also now I'm convinced,
like I was having a discussion
like what happened to Britney Spears
and like 10 minutes later,
it popped up on my feet on YouTube a whole bunch.
So the AI is generating content
and the future generations are not gonna be able to tell
what is synthetic and what is organic,
even if it fucking hits them in the face.
I really don't believe that.
Yeah, cause it knows what you're gonna wanna look at
in three days from now to a week from now.
So I think that a lot of times,
like it could be, like he's a reading our mind
but it sort of is and it isn't
because it knows how you're gonna feel
in a week from now.
Like, okay, he's been watching
nothing but Britney Spears and Justin Timberlake videos
like he's having a nostalgic phase
and in a week from now he's gonna be sick of that
and wanna look at something else
or something like that.
And it just knows what we're gonna wanna look at.
My whole algorithm,
I can't even go on any of my social medias
because every single thing is just Tucker Carlson
who I do not wanna see his face
and his face is everywhere.
Yeah, okay, but let's pull it up.
Let's pull up Tucker, show it to...
No!
I'm trying to find the timestamp.
It's there, I've sent it to Q'd up to you,
12340, do 12340, 12340.
Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't send it to you timestamp.
I'll do it again, my bad.
Listen, I always have such a good time on your show.
I do too, yeah, and I think...
I know you're very accepting
and I really feel like I could be myself when I'm with you
so I appreciate that.
Thank you, yeah, I encourage authenticity
and I hope that I would like to go on a panel
and be with others
because I think you need more badass chicks
that are intellectuals
that can prompt conversation and deep thought.
Okay, that's not what I shared with you, cheese slice.
I shared with you the YouTube link
directly in the private chat
Q'd up to the spot since this is...
Hello?
This is at one hour and 23 minutes in?
Yeah.
Okay.
If you could bring it to 12340, please.
Are we listening for what Tucker's saying
or what this guy that you've got on is saying?
He brings up the 333
and so Snuffy brought it up to me
because 333 is highest form of intelligence
so I want to play it.
He'll talk about it and then we could discuss.
71 for commentary magazine.
He was writing about the future of the internet in 1990.
One of the most brilliant, futurist...
Really?
Yeah, guys.
Wrote one of the great books ever called Men in Marriage.
Yes, and I should have said this at the beginning of it.
I was initially a very heavy AI skeptic
in terms of AI apocalypse stuff,
not necessarily AI in general,
but just people who think that AI will take over the world
I put on par with the late night Reddit reading
of people who think zombie apocalypse is gonna happen
where it's like,
if this helps you sleep better at night
to think of weird scenarios, that's great,
but I was like Han Solo.
Unlike no AI, things gonna get involved in my...
Could not have written off more.
And Park has read George Gilder's book
about AI that came out a few years ago
and he makes the point that machines,
as Turing says here,
the machine can't really truly understand what it's doing.
He says, I'll say it again,
we shall not go any further into the nature
of this oracle from saying a machine can't do it.
And so I stopped there.
What a lot of people are concerned about
and what Silicon Valley is seemingly getting up to
okay, so a machine can't be aware of what it's doing.
If there is such a thing as demons, angels, spirits,
as Al Jirqually called them,
disincarnate intelligences,
not artificial intelligences,
but disincarnate ones,
what are we...
Could those things...
Disincarnate meaning intelligence without a physical body?
Yeah, could we be creating a physical body
for the demonic?
And with Nick Land,
one of the things
that was the most chilling things I read
that really I was like,
okay, I have found a horror story
is the 333 that was his,
I think it was like his profile picture,
something like that.
And why was he into 333?
Well, I found out,
reading his old tweets,
333 is the highest intelligence in the universe.
And I found out that it represents this demon Koran's,
that again, Kenneth Grant talks about,
when Al Jirqually summoned him
and John Dee and John Kelly,
the court magicians for Queen Elizabeth,
right before the modern Bible,
the King James book was translated,
that was the demon they summoned.
Nick Land believes that, again,
the AI we are creating
break out the demons from the book of Revelation.
He believes in some cases that they are the demons,
that the demons end up becoming so advanced
that they become omniscient,
they can go back in time
and they can retro chronically create themselves,
like Skynet sending the Terminator back in time.
So what he believes is that they went back in time,
they went to ancient Babylon.
This is why Babylon is so important in Revelation.
And it is important because it's kind of like
the evil Jerusalem,
that they put Kabbalah there
to then eventually evolve into AI.
This is what we were talking about earlier,
that the demons against,
I always say, Tucker, this sounds crazy.
He's just talking about,
see, this is so annoying
because they're putting this stuff on the mainstream
that the homuncologist Juan was talking about.
Like we all in this field
talk about so many different things
and now they're like bringing it
to the perspective of simplified versions.
Yeah, diluted, diluted distilled versions.
I feel like he got paid for,
every time he said the word demon,
he got like another thousand dollars.
He just figured out a way to like,
say it 20 times.
Tucker began massages from these demons.
Right.
He gets massages from them.
He wakes up and they scrape it down.
It's hot now, man.
Deep tissue.
Like he was even like bruised
from the deep tissue massages.
I had never heard of this demon
and it's interesting that the 333,
which might be inverted
because all the numbers,
everything's been inverted is now,
is associated where it's,
it's the highest version of intelligence.
And this guy, Colin Flynn,
Courtney had a couple of things to say
because we did a show last week
on Alice Bailey and the seventh ray.
That this guy's, I mean, he's a screenwriter
and just like Tucker,
oh, Tucker has got good things to say.
Yeah, but he was,
it was so obvious.
Let's remove him from,
remove him from the mainstream
position him as like he got the shaft or whatever.
I don't even know the story.
And then he now is capturing gatekeeping
and doesn't really know,
you could tell he doesn't know
shit about this stuff really.
No, no, no, no.
And you probably be doing them rituals
with his, you know, bloodline.
I don't know.
Like it's, it's all entertainment
and it's all capturing and leading people
in a certain direction.
That's what it's all about.
Also, I think that this like the demon approach,
it's, it'll always sell.
It's like whenever any new technology
or concept comes out,
the first ones that can be like,
it's all demons, the camera,
like this new camera thing,
like it's putting painters out of business.
It's all demons,
even when Alice,
Alice DeCurley,
even when Alexander Graham Bell
was working on the phone line,
he thought that they were like
demons or these disenfranchised
entities that you are whispering your message
and a ghost would hear it
and a ghost would travel through the line
and then whisper it to the person
you were talking to.
So it's like, always been here,
this whole dialogue.
And I think AI is just like,
oh, here's a reason to bring the demons
back out of my little set again.
Like it's time to play this whole song and dance.
And it's always-
However, so I want to,
I do believe in this Archon
or discarnate souls attaching and
attaching and people being riddled
with entities and demons.
So I'm going to give you a download
that a theory that I have
in regards to the ventilators.
Okay. So when the ventilators came out,
I was writing and talking about
ventilator associated pneumonia
or Pneumonia as I joke,
in February 2020.
So pretty early on.
And my intuition was like,
well, this is hella creepy Darth Vader.
I did a deep dive on the genesis
of how these protocols came.
People may not know,
but they were instituted during the time
where they claimed the fomite stage,
if you remember,
where they thought it was aerosolize.
So they said that they use the ventilators
to protect first responders.
But then they instituted it,
at least all over America.
What happened is people, doctors,
whatever, don't know how to calibrate
these ventilators.
I think from a transhumanist agenda,
they were practicing or doing an experiment
on keeping people mechanically alive.
Now, in the notion of consciously dying,
that if you die dramatically,
or there is a conscious way to die,
where if you're intent on not coming back
or not going to the light of the tunnel,
which is another story.
So if you die on a miasma of drugs,
you're kind of in the bardo.
So I think this,
I do believe in demons or entities.
They go through the drugs, people.
I mean, I see people who drink.
I don't drink.
I could see they're creepy crawlies.
They're not embodied.
So you could argue
that there's a shitload of souls
that have died in a fog
that could be in the bardo
and that are glomming on to others
through fentanyl, through meth,
through whatever.
So that's my theory.
Now, I've been thinking about that all the time.
And now with the invention,
which actually is kind of old,
but the cyber-dellic hallucinogens
of using technology
to have mind-altering states of consciousness,
this was the next frontier of Timothy Larry
who said tune in and drop out.
But his next quote that he was saying
was plug in and trip out on these cyber-dellics.
Like, so like that's also,
it's a think about in the future
or even today, people on their phone.
I mean, do you ever scroll through your phone
and see something that's not there,
like a word or an image
or something?
And then you're like, it's not there.
Well, at least I'm doing it.
Maybe I'm on the cyber-dellic phase
where I'm looking at it.
Give me an example.
What do you mean?
So I'll be scrolling
and then I'll see like a word,
like paranoid American.
Oh, pop up.
I'll see that word.
But then I look at it
and it doesn't say that.
This is something that maybe I'm good at.
I mean, the programming's working.
Thank you.
Yeah, the programming's working.
But cyber-dellics
will also, would that be an entity as well?
Because you got people who take
peyote and they all see the green dancing man
or something.
Even the spirit of the methamphetamines,
which the youth is all on,
like with these different substances
that are just imitations of that
or the opium sort of.
They all have a different...
Frequency.
Frequency, yeah.
And opening up to a different
like spirit realm for sure, yeah.
Yeah, absolutely.
And things can come through.
I mean, God knows,
there's no shortage of mayhem
that occurs when these drugs are involved.
I know I've been a casualty of war,
as Snuffy says,
because of these substances.
And you could dismiss them,
but they do have an impact on you being embodied.
And personally, I believe that alcohol,
it's like someone could say,
I don't drink much,
but you've not been drinking much for 40 years.
And it does lower your frequency.
I mean, alcohol is a depressant.
And I believe, to be an example like you,
to be sober and to see how you can,
you can rise from the ashes,
like a phoenix, you know,
that there is life beyond
boozing and drugging,
especially, I mean,
I don't know in your case,
donut if there's been,
if you had mayhem
or you were just causing mayhem to yourself.
It was like a spirit that takes over
or like a void of a,
like higher power or God or something.
Carl Young said the only way to cure addiction
at that time was to have a psyche phenomenon,
which he met the soul.
So it was a doubt,
your soul and your spirit.
And it's no coincidence that it's called spirits.
And, you know, because it is a spirit
that you can see with people.
And it being a depressant is very interesting.
You're bringing up words like your breath and Prana.
And this is something I've been learning about
most recently with the autonomic nervous system
and the vagus nerve of trying to get
into a parasympathetic state of relaxation,
which I've never,
and I'm always freaking out
like the anxiety ridden or whatever.
But I do feel the anxiety to top tier level
because I am not hiding from it.
I feel all the different feelings out of you.
Thank you very much.
I appreciate that.
It's been an experiment.
So staying sober through the lockdowns
was a cakewalk.
But when it comes to war in all the different people,
those lives and whatnot with that
and the totalitarian tiptoes,
that is very painful for my spirit.
But I stay sober through it.
And one day at a time,
it's not a lifelong thing.
Who knows what I'll do tomorrow?
Maybe I'll be on cybernetics tomorrow.
But today, right now,
since I woke up,
I've only been on caffeine and nicotine,
which, you know, is also a drug.
You're not doing that before.
Were you more rigid initially?
I've always been fearful and rigid.
Wait, were you doing caffeine like six months ago
or did you introduce that?
Oh, I loved it.
I used to love smoking blinds
and getting some Starbucks.
Do not smoke.
I'm smoking blinds for sure, Zeze,
but I smoke spliffs.
Yeah, no judgment here at all.
Everybody is on their own sort of life path.
My life was really messed up
in a lot of ways, spiritually.
And the Carl Jung saying that
it takes a psyche phenomenon to change,
I think just like in the 40s or something.
I have no idea when he said that maybe later.
I don't know.
But it is something to do with a spiritual realm.
Which makes me super open that not only
that the substance abuse is like some sort of spirit,
but also to overcome that also is a spiritual matter as well.
But alcohol goes straight to the liver.
So it's energetically connected to emotions.
So the number one reason why people drink alcohol
is because of resentment,
which is the refilling of a scenario,
which I do get into these resentful states
where I just replay this emotional thing
of who I'm going to slap or whatever
over and over again in my head, right?
It's that's a resentment.
Do you encounter it with Hopo Ono?
Hopo Ono, like forgive me.
Honopono, yes, I did.
Honoponopono, for who don't know,
is a Hawaiian saying, I believe,
where it is, I'm sorry, thank you.
I love you.
Yes, that was very beneficial.
I do like that.
There's a lot of things I like from different aspects.
Even I really do like the Lord's Prayer as well.
Like even with yay, he often asks for forgiveness
multiple times,
but I totally understand where he's coming from.
So I forgave him, but that doesn't mean I forget
or that I will not allow him to hang out with my family
or anything like that.
But I do forgive him because you don't know
someone's spiritual path where they're at in life.
Or the detours that they have to take
to learn the fucking lessons.
Exactly, that too.
Who are we becoming?
And that's why I do love this Lord's Prayer
because it's forgive us our trespasses
as we would like them to trespass against us.
You know that prayer because I want people
to forgive me for my actions.
So why shouldn't I forgive other people for their actions?
And by forgiveness really lifts one own spirit.
And that doesn't mean like forgiveness like,
oh, it's all good.
Like no, like there's gonna be a healthy boundary.
You know what I mean?
That's not some woo-woo kind of it's more of an internal
maybe like something like a Kundalini kind of thing
kind of integrate at a point of homeostasis
within one's own soul spirit that come out
of place of neutrality rather than from a reactionary kind of
state of being.
And the sobriety is all energetic levels.
There's this writer who wrote this book
called Power versus Force.
And this is a fantastic book.
And like I only read like a couple of pages
but then like I'm just like, I don't need to read it anymore.
This is amazing.
Yeah.
And it just shows the difference
in this power hungry world of insecurity
how people want power over others.
That's why you do get a homeland security fed kind of
telling people what to believe, how to believe.
You're not allowed to walk through here
unless you don't show those nostrils.
You know, it's all about this power hungry thing
coming from a very insecure psychopathy kind of mindset
of narcissism and these creatures they have force.
They don't have power.
Power comes from a whole nother realm of consciousness
or spirituality rather than force.
Force is I'm the president.
I'm the manager.
I'm the homeland security.
I'm whatever it is.
I'm the police officer.
I'm the mob.
I'm the virtual signaler who will lower the credit score.
That's force.
Power is so much different
because power comes from a place of people wanting
for this power to lead, not through force.
That's something that I very much believe in is freedom.
And a lot of these parents today and in the past
they don't believe in freedom for one to kind of
individuate from society.
And that's why I'm very grateful for my mom
because she allowed me to choose my friends
and choose the music I wanted to listen to,
which really, you know,
turned me to the person who I am today.
How old are you?
37.
So I'm...
How old are you, Thomas?
A lady never tells or asks.
How dare you?
I know, but you know...
Early, early 40s.
I don't.
And here is the woman who's talking to everybody
to her age.
She's, I'm fine.
I'm 52.
What?
You're 52?
I was dancing.
There's dancing in Jupiter.
I...
But I can't get there because I don't...
Even though the truck, I have the truck now,
but it's inoperable.
But anyway, so I was dancing.
It's happy dancing in Jupiter.
And these girls came up to me and said,
what do you guys...
What do you do for exercise?
And then when I told them I'm 52,
they're like, what?
I thought you were 30.
So age is a number and it's...
This is our body temple.
And instead of corrupt it,
like someone made a comment about self-respect,
it's really finding your way.
And if you've been on substances for such a long time
and it messes with your psychology
or causes breaks or allows or invites
demonic interference,
it might be an expensive train ride home.
Yeah, and I'll be very interested to see
the psychological effects of the ozempic
because when the monster energy drinks came out,
energy drinks,
everyone was freaking out about that,
what kind of spirit would enter.
When I was like a middle school,
like energy drinks came out,
but there was a precursor to that
at elementary school with Serge.
Serge was like the precursor probably
to a monster energy drink.
But now we have ozempic and I had been thinking...
Is it ozempic for weight loss?
It is for weight loss, yes.
So like, but like it's a fairly new kind of thing
that a lot of people are taking.
So it'd be interesting to see
what's going to happen with that too.
What are your views on...
I get offended when if someone's like
ayahuasca or bufo,
if they call them drugs,
where I think it's a medicine and it's sacred,
it's become very, let's say commercialized.
So a couple of weeks ago,
I had Yash Paul,
who's a physician and a medicine man,
and he's in Costa Rica.
And for anyone out there,
he's actually coming to do ceremony in West Palm
where I am.
So if anyone is interested,
like for me, it's a heart,
it's toad medicine,
and I don't see it at all as a drug, per se.
So I mean, it puts you in your heart
it really can help.
And the key is really integration, right?
Because now people will go do an ayahuasca trip
or journey,
but they will not integrate it.
They're like, it's like going to Disneyland
and they're like, it's in vogue to go do an aya trip,
but they're not really using it for spiritual growth
or there's no aftermath
on how to integrate the things that have come to you.
But I personally, I've done ayahuasca,
I don't know, at least a dozen times
over the past 15 years
and it's helped immensely to clear trauma
if you have an intent.
So I'm going to be doing the 5DMAO
when he comes.
Maybe I'm saying that wrong 5MMAO
and the bufo is toad.
Yeah, moxoxidase inhibitor, I believe.
Yeah, so that's the 22nd to the 24th
if anyone is interested or gets a call
because to me it's like, fuck yeah,
I've gotten a lot of healing,
especially in the heart from those medicines.
I've got a hot take on this a little bit
because I've talked to lots of different people
through my podcast
and just like out in real world and meet space,
like actual live human beings,
conversations with them, especially pre-internet.
Have you ever heard of something called
the noble savage fallacy?
And if not, a noble savage fallacy
is kind of like a white woman right now
thinking back about the Native Americans
and like, oh my god,
this land probably would have been so beautiful,
everyone was peaceful,
no one ever gotten to wars or fights.
Like the Native Americans were just so precious
and it's like they also had slaves,
they scout people,
they enslaved each other constantly,
like they had warfare,
they had horrific essays,
like everything that we have now in culture
except for maybe like fentanyl,
like they probably had back then,
like all the vices of human nature existed
in every single,
so there's this concept of like the noble savage
and this starts to leak into these like
ayahuasca retreats or like,
oh my god, you have to go to Central America,
you have to go to Columbia
and you have to do these steps,
you gotta drink this and you gotta throw up
and then the old lady has to come out
and hit you with the palm fronds
and they gotta burn sage,
like there's these rules to it
and I feel like this is an unjust form of gatekeeping
that just because a certain flower or plant
only existed when it was discovered
in one certain region,
that doesn't mean that region gets to dictate
to the rest of humanity,
here's the rules of consuming this plant,
here's how you have to do it,
here's the steps, like who are we to say
that the right way to do ayahuasca
is to book a flight and go and sit down
and do the whole 24 hour thing where you fast
and you have like shaman spring over you,
what if you just get a DMT pen
and you chug a two liter of mountain dew
and you play GTA 6,
like who's to say that you can't,
who's to say that you can't have
a same consequential spiritual breakthrough
without all these extra rules
and like I got to book a flight
and I got to talk to a shaman like
who's to say that you couldn't independently
playing GTA 6, chugging a two liter mountain dew,
you hit your DMT vape pen for the seventh time
and you're just like,
oh my God, I don't think I need to drink alcohol anymore,
oh my God, I've been mistreating people my whole life
and I don't know, that's my hot take though, is it like
I hear what you're saying as far as who dictates,
I think having reverence
and the intention that you put
and let's say maybe ayahuasca is not,
it's not, it's two plants, it's not DMT,
it's like there's vomiting,
I have gone to many where the shaman
is actually exercising his ego.
After the Kundalini I went to have,
I've told you this, Thomas, my own fucking great reset,
so maybe I shared with you,
I went to Homestead and then this Native American
is like, we've been playing by COVID and HIV
and I'm like, oh my God, the shaman's spreading tries
with the fuck does he know,
where's this ancient knowledge
where there's a dilution and it's been like,
it's like going on a safari
and there was one guy,
he drove me back from the dancing
and he said he had gone to an ayahuasca
and maybe yes, I'm a spiritual snob
he was jabbed, he was like kind of a pussy man
and he's like, oh so I had this session
and the shaman came and he put his third eye
against mine and I saw a snake
and I was telling him about the Kundalini
and I said, well you need to go within
and I can give you my interpretation.
So it's like, what do you think about,
what's your take on this reincarnation thing?
And I said, well, it's a real thing
and he's like, so will I have to come back?
And I said, basically he was treating the ayahuasca
like just in vogue, safari,
not having respect and reverence.
So I think that's the difference.
For instance, and with ayahuasca too,
this was outside,
but I've gone to a lot of places
where they force you to stay indoors
instead of like under the stars or go outside,
which feels fucking wrong to contain you.
There was one ceremony where I'm an adult
and I've done this before,
she took all the phones and all the keys,
the car keys and I took offense to that
like people are little,
are children and maybe they are.
So what's your take on that doughnut
as far as it being a medicine versus a drug?
Oh, sure.
I mean, if we go back to what medicine is,
it's like different plants and herbs and spices and all that.
And this psychedelic stuff goes back to a long time.
Like I was doing some research on the leg row
and whatnot and talking about the mushroom
and just diving deep into all that different stuff.
And even in the early stages of recovery programs,
they were thinking of using LSD and other stuff like that
to for hopeless cases of like homeless people
that were just out there to move them.
I'm coming from like a substance abuse mentality
of saying sober from every mind altering kind of chemical
or I call these belief changing chemicals,
not chemical, belief changing plants.
And I mean, even let's say the hair rod,
that comes from the opium from the earth, right?
Like so there's so many different things
where it could be a medicine.
Like if you're like in so much pain,
you just had surgery, scoliosis surgery,
like what's wrong with taking some medicine for something like that.
But then it gets into this fine line of who is the person
taking it, where are they at in their journey of life
of where it could be a very dangerous slippery slope
for some people, but for some other people,
it could be a spiritual type medicinal kind of thing or whatnot.
So where I'm coming from is on this level
of not taking anything or whatever.
But that doesn't mean I want to say,
because for me, let's say coffee is addictive.
You're not going to get addicted to ayahuasca
or be jonesing to vomit and go.
I mean, it's an ordeal medicine, right?
So it's interesting to how we define
the substances.
And I think, again, it's about sacredness
or the intent behind it.
If you want to better yourself or if you want to...
Yashba was talking about 36-hour Igbo gain.
I mean, this is not something you're doing
for fucking pleasure.
This is intense spiritual work.
So it's, again, if I smoke weed, am I having reverence?
Like, I'm going to do it only when I write
and I have a sacred connection with the plant.
And we have to...
But opium doesn't require a sacred connection
with the plant.
If you do opium, you're feeling it.
There's no like, oh, you didn't prepare.
There's so many drugs like that where, for example,
Salvia is a good one where a lot of people
were introduced to Salvia as like a legal weed
or like a gas station high or like an alternative
to things that were illegal.
So there's absolutely no reverence in that.
But once you get your ass kicked by Salvia,
it teaches you reverence.
It teaches you the respect that the next time
you go and do it, you're not just going to fly in
and not care about it.
But there's sort of like a fentanyl addict
doesn't have to have reverence for the fentanyl
on a crack addict doesn't have to have reverence for the crack.
I'm making a distinction where those are drugs
and I'm making a distinction with something
like an ayahuasca or the five MEO
that it's more or bufo or more medicines.
Like you're going there.
You know, my girlfriend told me she got literally
rid of some interdimensional demons
and she was freed from doing a bufo.
It could be revelatory where I don't think
anyone's doing fentanyl to have any.
I agree with that, especially because psychedelics
in particular have one property
and that's that they enhance neuroplasticity
which means that like your brain gets saturated
with all these neurotransmitters.
So all of a sudden you're firing off
in like new neural pathways that didn't exist
before you doing that.
So it literally physically creates new ways of thinking
whereas uppers and downers and stimulants and like euphorics,
those don't create neuroplasticity.
So those are more about like how you feel, not how you think.
But I do think there are people that can get addicted
to like I'm going to do mushrooms every week
because I love them so much.
And I guess they exist out there but
it's not as many as like fentanyl addicts.
She was an alcoholic, she was my old roommate
and she'd go berserkers on munching mushrooms raw.
I do, Yash Paul makes these organic psilocybin
with medicinal mushrooms as well as like cordyceps and lion's mane
and I have used them for micro dosing.
But with an intent like I'm going to get into my heart,
it's like moving things and it is very,
you know, micro dosing is in vogue and in Miami,
I went to the psychedelic conference
and it is kind of like they're normalizing it.
I think you've talked about this.
Can you score drugs easy at a psychedelics conference?
Went to the after party and they're all like,
there was, they were great.
They were MDMA slash psilocybin gummies and
it's nuts.
The only, like I would try to get more.
I feel like we're going this year, right?
We're going.
Did we miss it this year?
We're going next year.
No, we're going to sign up.
If you go, let me know.
But it was very much like papasoma,
like or just very normalized.
Yeah, it was very.
I go to the Gathering of the Druggalos and that.
It's like a site.
I go there and I'm sober.
And like people are just like here.
I think it's sort of a testing ground in some ways,
like like a hippie movement sort of just in.
It's always in different places.
When I went, it was in Oklahoma.
But this year, I believe it was in Ohio.
The I was once in this math house,
you know, because I was trying to score some
herb and this was legal.
And this was 20 years ago or something.
And everybody, it was all these clouds
that were everywhere.
This was in the hood.
And I should not have been there, but that's kind of where.
Which hood?
What city?
LA?
Phoenix, Phoenix.
And I'm from the suburbs.
So I, but I'm there because I,
this was a different time.
It's legalized now, cannabis.
And the, and we were there, great deal,
but there were clouds of this meth smoke
all over this place.
Sad enough, the lady that ran that operation
out of wherever it was, she was murdered.
It was very sad.
So it's like, that's kind of that world.
And, but I remember getting a second hand
high from it.
And I liked it so much that I never even went near that stuff
because of, because of that.
I don't know why I brought that up.
It just sort of like something that was popping up
in my head.
Have you ever seen the film, Beavis and Butthead Do America?
I'm anti-Beavis and Butthead, but so no.
So I can't stand them.
Yeah.
Well, so in this, this movie, they do peyote
and it looked awesome.
There's Rob Zombie music playing.
There's all of this.
I always wanted to do the peyote
because of this, this film, which I've never done, but
they throw up too.
They do get sick when they do it.
Yeah.
I wanted to say that I was invited my third divorce now,
but they were having, they were getting married
in Joshua Tree by Lakota and they created a TP for the,
and it was, the wedding started at six and ended at six.
It was a fucking 12 hour.
I had to bow out like at four,
like when they finally did the vows and then they served,
they served like bison and blueberries in the morning,
but they were like, okay, we're going to do the buttons.
Now we're going to do the powder.
Now we're going to drink it.
I mean, it was, that's like also an ordeal medicine.
I also want to share.
I used to, I was hired to, to be a researcher for a company
called September Films.
They were Brits and I didn't have tattoos.
You know, at one point my head, half of my hair was shaved,
but they call me, you're our secret weapon, Maryam.
Can you go find us a porn star?
Can you go find us a drug addict?
So I went into a Easy Speak or Speak Easy?
Yeah, Speak Easy.
In LA it was like a big black guy called Mickey Mouse
and they were all snorting, snorting coke
and that's like the first time to assimilate.
And so I, I tried it.
I also was told to find the, the madam was also a porn star.
So I went to the valley and I thought they were doing coke
and they were doing meth and I took some,
they gave me some and me and my boyfriend at the time
we, I still thought it was cocaine, but after it was up for three days
his brother's like, you guys just snorted meth
and then I fucking never touched that shit again.
Whereas with let's say, I know we're talking about drugs,
but I have a paradoxal effect that I could sleep with cocaine
because I have some ADHD.
It has a complete opposite.
It doesn't make me like, it calms, calms me down.
Not that I've snorted cocaine anytime soon.
But anyway, I think it's like if you have an addictive,
I personally don't have an addictive person, I'm very disciplined
but I used to do the substances like MDMA with, with my XX.
And I think it's, it's like if it's running your life
and you're, you know, missing car payments, for instance,
because you're choosing to buy drugs
and then denaliing it, then it's not cool.
I have this like fear of drugs
because I have like friendships with you
and paranoid American and responsibilities.
And so when I think, I like to remember these stories
because it gives me a healthy fear
of what God has blessed me with today in my life.
And so I just like stay away from it.
Plus, because you have an addictive personality in your life.
Yeah, that's why that's really it.
When you, if you go overboard
and then you, you have to go gangbusters
as opposed to like, oh, this is, I'm going to just,
and plus when you get older, like there's,
when I was with those Brits,
because I've never liked alcohol and, and I drank with them.
Maybe I was like, how the fuck do these people do this?
Like hangover, like I feel like crap.
And that's the thing is that when the people drink alcohol,
they have fun time and whatnot.
Where they're like, oh, I can be social now,
the social lubricant.
But then in the morning, they have the hangover
and their body goes into a state of anxiety.
So a lot of these people that drink all the time,
they're out and they seem all calm and confident.
But really, when you remove that from them,
they're screwed because they wake up in the morning
with the anxiety because their bodies like,
like delinom like, oh, this is, this is bad.
And it's not until they can redo that.
So I like the feelings of anxiety and whatnot
because it builds a faith and courage
where you can enter situations
that would usually need that lubricant
of alcohol to even talk to people.
And what if initially when basically you're numbing out
and then you get, you said earlier,
when you get newly sober,
you don't really know like you're starting fresh.
Can you talk a little bit?
What was the-
Yeah, it takes two years just to put in perspective
for alcohol to leave the brand.
So like it takes a long time.
How about all a bunch of substances
if you're doing coke and meth and what the fuck knows what?
Who knows?
Yeah, I don't know.
But that really puts stuff in perspective for me
that on my journey that like, look,
everything's not going to change.
I'm still broke.
I'm still in another apartment, you know,
I'm still, and that's fine.
It is just where I'm at in my life.
And to just know that because most of my life,
I was just not like doing anything with-
So how long were you non-sober?
I was 14 to 27.
So I think that was like 17 years or something like that.
Yeah, I would also, there's time to rebalance the break.
When I was with Zach, he has ADHD.
So I tried his Ritalin and it was really,
it calmed me down and I could focus.
And my ADHD, like they say it's from birth, whatever,
but I was never ADHD.
It was from mold.
The mold affected my eyesight.
And so when I left California,
I sat with a psychiatrist and he wanted to put me,
they don't want to put you on Ritalin.
So he gave me-
Basically meth, by the way.
I don't know what Ritalin is,
because Vyvanse is basically pharmaceutical meth
and it's pretty fucking nasty as is that.
It's like a, it's like methylphenidate
instead of methamphetamine,
but they're like sister drugs.
So if you take them in low doses,
they can increase focus.
But like once you actually take like enough,
like a meth head would take,
then obviously you don't get the focus
and the anti-ADHD properties.
All these ADHD drugs all came from
like the early 1900s and 1930s
and it all started with meth.
They were just giving children
that were having problems in school
started giving them methamphetamine
and noticed that they were paying attention to her.
There's a reason I believe the Ritalin,
so I was telling, I told the psychiatrist,
so why are you going to mess with my brain chemistry
when I've tried the Ritalin and I'm safe with it?
So it looks like you're giving some contestation,
like who are you little girl to question the doctor?
So I took the tamoxetine for two days.
They were capsules.
It fucked up my brain for six months
when I looked and usually I would look at,
my side effects, do not take if you are concerned
about having bouts of fear and sadness.
It actually said that, which I should have,
because I listened to the doctor.
So, ideally, and then I'm not using anything now,
but I tried even micro dosing the vivants
and it's pretty yucky.
But then people, I think the opiates,
they got a bunch of people on opiates
and then they yanked them off the market
and then they flooded the market with their faux fentanyl.
Yeah, they gave us the sugar
and then they gave us the high fructose corn syrup
and now they're going to go back to like,
remember when sugar was good for you?
Like it'll just go back and forth
between those synthetics and opioms.
And I do want to just,
maybe another controversial hot take,
but I feel that every single drug
probably has some actual purpose.
Like, opium is a good example of one that's been so abused
in all of its different states of morphine
and the synthetics of fentanyl and stuff.
But opium was a godsend to anyone
that had no other option for pain management,
which was the state of humanity
for hundreds of thousands of years,
until people started finding these ways.
Opium was the first big one in anesthetics.
Now all of a sudden people can get surgeries
and can survive these very traumatic things
that they have to go through
in order to fix a problem before opium existed.
Even with cocaine,
cocaine obviously destroys lives and destroys people,
but it also has uses to it.
Like Sigmund Freud used to use it
so he could stay up for three or four days straight,
writing out some thesis
because he knew if he went to sleep,
he'd wake up and maybe part of it would be gone.
So like, there are practical applications,
but humans can't really ever be trusted
to like not play by the rules.
And I get, in my mind,
that's the version of having reverence.
The version of having reverence for cocaine, for example,
is like, maybe I won't blow through like 17ers tonight.
Like maybe I'll pace myself.
Well, isn't it, yeah.
Well, it's self-control, discipline, reverence,
having an addictive personality.
What is it really covering?
I mean, there's a whole bunch of variables.
I don't know if any of you...
This is where it gets kind of spiritual,
is that in the substance abuse field of addiction and whatnot,
a lot of people,
they have a lot of discipline.
They have a lot of self-control.
And that's the weird spiritual energetic part
is to stay away and off of it,
has nothing to do with willpower at all, or self-control.
It's more of an energetic spiritual release of letting go of everything
in the sense of emotion, of outcomes, of different things.
So it's strange on that level, too.
Well, isn't it, you don't want to feel
and you're numbing shit out?
Of course, if you're doing meth, it's fueling,
and then it will fuck up your adrenals.
And then so you keep on doing it because it's sustaining you
and you know that if you stop,
you're going to crash out
and you're facing a period of adjustment.
And I don't know how you come to the point of like,
I'm done, I'm better than this.
I'm not going to let these fucking drugs control my life
and wreak havoc on other people's lives.
Yeah, that's the rock bottom.
You got to hit a rock bottom.
Well, how is it, you know, how do you do it?
I think you're a rock bottom.
You're still not at the bottom, really.
Yeah, it's sometimes the rock bottom for people
could be death or, you know, so it's different.
I mean, you'll stop then, at least you'll stop
whatever you're addicted to.
But like my rock bottom was different than some of my friends
who were just like a homeless and suicidal or whatever.
That could have been their rock bottom,
but some people's rock bottom could be like,
you know, this isn't what I was planning on life.
I want friends or, you know, this loneliness thing.
So it's different for everybody.
And even there's people that get sober at like very young age.
And that was their rock bottom.
Maybe they got in trouble and they're like,
I don't want to get in trouble anymore.
You've got the tension one time.
You're like, never again.
So it's just so many, everybody's an individual
in a different stage of where they're at in life.
And but it's that sick and tired of being sick and tired
of whatever that is in someone's life.
And everybody's different, you know.
And I mean, yeah, let's say the five MEO,
which is Josh Paul talked about with getting people at
working with addicts, as opposed to going through a treatment
where you're being given subacetrone
or whatever the F methadone,
which is still part of Rockefeller medicine,
which still can can lead to addiction.
Like, you know, Maurice, the guy that was with George Floyd,
he was a drug dealer, right?
He calls me from jail.
I have inmates calling me from jail.
I'm so proud of him as far as like,
I see his development of like really wanting to take
all this self-help and have self-reflection and be really calm.
I'm like, I'm really proud of you, Maurice.
He's started to write a book, but because he was an addict,
he could understand the journey and also tell,
you know, his nephew, for instance, was was using substances.
And I mean, that's how they oppress the people as well
with these disgusting drugs that will keep your consciousness
down.
Yes.
Yeah.
I mean, the fentanyl, the way it's made,
like what I'm not paying attention to politics,
but if they're blowing up fishermen in Venezuela,
when Venezuela is not really responsible for fentanyl,
but they do have oil as opposed to talking about the Chinese
ingredients made with the help of Mexico
and then brought in by people like George Floyd,
who was a truck driver.
Yeah.
It's a very messy business.
It's very ravishing.
I mean, I think a lot of people know someone who's died of fentanyl.
Oh, so I know so many people.
Like it's like, oh yeah, every week it's someone I know.
Yeah.
It's pretty nuts.
One of the animators I worked with at Disney
died of a heroin overdose that was likely because
there was like a mixture of fentanyl and whatever heroin.
And I remember like he literally told me when he got it
that he met some guy like on Craigslist or something.
And he was like, meet me on the side of I4,
which is like a very busy highway in Florida.
And he just like pulls off to the side of the road,
buys some random drug off some guy that he found on Craigslist.
And then he's like putting it in his arm.
And it was just so wild because like this guy was
sitting right next to me day in and day out.
Like we're doing the same job high level
corporate environment in Disney.
And then one day he just doesn't show up because he was dead.
And most of the stuff now is all like cut with that.
You know, they have like a test that you can check your math.
Is it fentanyl?
Like isn't there a check now that you could...
Yeah, but you got to ruin some of it in order to do the test.
And if you're that hard down that you're meeting up a stranger
on the side of I4 to get your fix,
you're not going to take a little teenager out
and like ruin it by putting it in some chemical
that tells you like, oh, I shouldn't do the rest of it.
Like it was a very like one track mind.
Like once the bag is secured,
the next step is it goes in your arm.
There's no in between steps where you like you pace yourself.
Oh, let me, let me test it.
Let me make sure it's organic.
Let me see if I can source where this came from.
And if it was like, if I can verify the chain of custody,
like none of that comes into play once like the bag is in your hand.
I mean, I remember way back in the day,
there was people that would just be
snorting whatever white powder was sold to them.
If it was niacin or vitamin B or baby laxative or even work.
I was on a date at the standard
and bought what I thought was cocaine in an elevator.
And then it's like, no, no, Maryam,
that's you just snorted some cracks.
But I had no idea, right?
And how stupid to buy.
I mean, I think those, those days should have never started,
but those days are definitely over where you're playing Russian roulette.
Yeah. And, and it's, it's really choosing sobriety
and choosing to feel your feelings because there's just so
like how long are you going to go numbing?
Because it's going to have to come out somehow.
You know, eventually it's going to, it's going to come back up.
Let's like every, like once or like once a year,
maybe once every two years,
I'll just do like a thousand milligrams of RSO
and it will make me cry for like a day and a half.
That's like uncontrollably and that's my trauma dump.
You just got to watch it like a movie, a sad movie.
It doesn't even work though.
I'll watch a sad movie and I might, I might like swell,
but it doesn't like, I have no problem.
It's like, it's like I'm, I'm like edging my cries.
No, I feel that, I feel that.
We all need to cry.
It's like a storm.
I've been crying for the past two days.
It's just very, it's hard on the body.
Well, that's the thing with like women are more emotionally
intelligent when it comes to that.
And then we kind of like bury, bury it in a sense.
A lot.
So when I get the opportunity of a good film,
or I could let it out, it's a good thing,
but it's very rare.
No, not November, but this is like no cry 2020s.
No cry.
It's silly though.
It's like vulnerability, especially from a man,
is strength in my, in my opinion.
It's not weak to, to be sensitive.
You know, and I guess people have their,
Well, it's part of their worldview
programming of what it is to, you know,
be a guy like the Spartans to be a man.
You got to, you know, suck up that, uh, liquid.
That was my brother Al, man.
Yeah, that was, that was, you know, uh, yeah, it's, it's wild.
I love this topic of, of recovery because it plays into a,
a lot of factions.
And one of the things that you're talking about
with the emotions, and I forgot to bring up with the alcohol,
that when people go out drinking, when you're drunk
and you go to sleep, you're not dreaming
and you're not getting into that REM, uh, you know, sleep.
So you're not processing your emotions through your dream.
So you wake up and all, that's why the anxiety is there,
because they're not processing all the emotions that happen
while we're sleeping, uh, in the body.
So it's so, it is very deep.
The whole topic is, is not.
Yeah, I, I maybe because it's close to home
because I am a casualty of war for someone that I love
that, uh, you know, chose to inject money
instead of honor, uh, manifesting a beautiful woman
in a truck, you know, and because of the continued drug use,
there's, there's Denali, Denial, uh, that's the car is,
I, I was driving and I was like, what is it on my bike?
And I saw Denali and I was like, what is it with that word?
I'm like, it's Denial living in Denali.
But that's the crazy thing.
That's the other thing with the memories that we're talking
about in the beginning is that when someone is addicted,
the denial is crazy because they have no idea that that.
And if they don't trust anybody, which is the case
with Snuffy, it's like, then who do you go to?
Even let's say I am a trustworthy person
who actually genuinely cares.
Um, but, you know, you have to decide on your, on your own.
And that's like the biggest, like people are interested
in the truth, truth, right?
The truth or stuff and the truth.
But like, how honest can we be with ourselves?
Which is very difficult, um, coming.
Can you really be lying to yourself deep down inside?
Don't you know, deep down inside?
I feel like we do lie to ourselves all the time.
Um, but somewhere deep down inside that gets suppressed
and that's where the narcissism comes out.
So we live in a very narcissistic culture
because ever since a kid through survival mechanism
of the collective or the toxic parents or whatever it is,
pushing down the individual outie, which is your emotion.
Like so the emotion that one has of something is who they are
because the emotion is part of the body.
So there's this connection to like the body and the mind
and the belief system and the placebo effects and all that.
So if I'm lying to myself since through a survival mechanism
since a little kid to becoming an adult,
like that's like a lot to uncover.
You know, and if it's a good thing, it's fine.
That's just like the human experience.
It's not like a scary thing.
It's just like, oh, this is fricking interesting.
Right. Well, if you kind of be from observer stance
and also like I find, you know,
there's a reason why they took cursive out of the schools.
And I've been journaling.
I just took a reprieve covering the pandemic.
But the things that I found even like a couple years later,
I was like, oh, I'm still doing this pattern
or where does this come from?
It could be seen as an exploration.
And that's why I'm doing more like sole purpose readings
that people want to sit and talk to me is like,
I did a meme like instead of wears Waldo wears wisdom.
So to be to sit with someone who's intuitive like me
that can use my investigative skills
and intuitive psychic skills to give a reading.
I mean, that's I'm kind of pivoting
because I'm not able to be a journalist anymore.
And I actually have always been, since 13,
been on a spiritual path.
I think it's the time now,
even though it's difficult to live your sole purpose
and really do shadow work, you know?
And a lot of the spiritual, it's like, I'm spiritual.
I went to a cattle ceremony, but you're not spiritual.
You're jabbed. You're scanning QR codes.
You're just want love and light and it's toxic bypassing
where doing the real spiritual work is facing your shadow
and knowing that people will reflect or all reflections
of like, oh, what is this bringing up in me?
Or, you know, what can I learn from this?
It's just a perspective, right?
I thought that everybody was-
Oh, positive. It's fricking messy and nuts.
And like, what the hell is going on?
But underneath it, if you can cultivate love for self
and it's like cultivates love for self and holds space
without judgment, personally, I value honesty over,
you know, I rather have the truth.
And I recently wrote in my sub-stat that like,
my dad took my sister and I, I was 13.
My dad, my sister was just, my turn 12.
And he took us for a walk and he's like,
we were in Ohio, your mother is having an affair.
And you can't tell her that, you know,
because she's threatened to commit suicide.
Okay, go play, kids.
And I found myself hiding behind the easy board.
I started spying and that's what forged my investigative skills.
But then like at 15, 16,
I'm the one who threw like the grenade in the room.
And I'm like, I refuse to live a lie.
I know, we all know, and this is happening, right?
And I think that's really cemented my journey
of just wanting the truth instead of like, faking gay.
Hi, kitty. Hi, Russian blue.
Aww. Very cute.
Yeah. Okay, guys, I think we're going to wrap it up.
If you don't mind, cheese slice.
If the gentleman don't mind to plug honey colony.
So someone mentioned the ozone.
So I created this formula.
It's called nourish.
And it's with ozone and the pollen and beeswax.
And really like very little goes a long way.
So we'll have that back in stock.
And then back in the day before the fucking algorithmic changes,
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Now Mary made $12,000 in the full whole fucking gear.
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So this is curious.
It has Damiana and Elderberry and Jojoba and actually helps with pH.
At one point, the most trafficked story on honey colony.
She says, can you pull up just even just the site?
The most trafficked story on the honey colony was vaginal dryness.
I personally don't suffer from that issue.
But there are a lot of sheniquas.
I say that because it's interesting.
There's been more African Americans that buy that buy curious
because of all the endocrine disruptors and all the petroleum in the lubricants.
This is really, you know, organic.
There's nothing non-organic on honey colony.
I did the documentary on the dryness and the
The documentary on vaginal dryness.
Well, it's just on genitalia arousal and the men suffer.
That's why you got the blue chews all over the place and whatnot.
And it's interesting.
A lot of it comes from the blue light frequencies as well.
That's right.
I mentioned that it moderates lubrication, the blue lights,
and also sell swannies, which I know you wear.
You usually wear them.
But the blue light walkers?
I'm looking for mine.
I mean, and they look so, so I have swannies, and they look so cool.
They do look cool.
They look cool.
And to, if you don't want to be looking at the thing is that sometimes I don't wear them
because I get, I stay up late.
I use the flux, but because it makes me tired right away.
So, so the honey thing that you put on the face is that the honey thing could be for men too.
Oh yeah.
This, I mean, I use it to just even as a, absolutely.
It's not, this is not honey.
This is jojoba.
Oh no, the other thing you can click it.
What, the nourish?
Yeah.
Yeah, what would a vaginal lubricant do for Donut and I?
Well, you need a vaginal lubricant.
It'll do wonders.
We can, we can make that happen, right?
I mean, you, you know, an insider.
You can get us connected to Elliott and then Elliott can give us the connections.
Yeah.
No, I think you can do better than, do better than, but I have men that use this.
I mean, you could see, I just put very little.
So this, this can last easily a month and it's, it's a moisturizer.
It's all organic.
I was actually had a manufacturer for 11 years who I thought was, you know, a colleague and
he was a Mormon.
And then he, he seen me on shows and he's like, there's a movement to free Derek.
And I'm like, yeah, Toby, that's all, that's all smoking mirrors.
And I don't know who told him, but I had to find another, another ose on me.
And then I saw the link between the Mormons and the Masons because my book does talk about
the Masons.
But anyway, so this is even more a high dose of ozone.
So the beeswax is like a protective, like if for the dirt or whatever outside, the ozone
nourishes, hence the word nourish.
And then the bee pollen, jojoba has the same sebum as the skin.
And then there's one with patchouli and there's a regular, a regular one.
And people can use, for now, they can use bee lady 15.
And, yeah, I mean, now every, all the conservatives, yeah, manifest the vagina.
Mine never got her, right?
Right.
Yeah.
Potato, potato.
All right.
I would love to do this again, gentlemen.
This has been a great show.
And let's do this like once a month, at least once a quarter.
Let's do that.
Yeah.
I would like that.
Maybe Cheeslice, I've talked about doing it on another day.
But again, this is all free.
They don't, I'm not allowed to be monetized.
So please be generous.
And like, do we ever get rumble rants?
Have we ever gotten any rumble rants?
Cheeslice, what's wrong?
I don't know if I ever got the rumble rants.
I know people that get rumble rants, but it's because they pay to like say
controversial things.
They'll be like, here's $5, say the n-word.
You've got to grow the audience on rumble.
It's just not enough people right now.
Well, I don't know, given how dangerous I am.
Some others.
It's true.
More shows, more regularly.
That's how you build.
Yeah.
Well, I'm grateful that I even, I'm able to work with you once a week.
So, yeah, it makes, it makes a difference, folks.
And yeah, I won't be, I'll take your lead doughnut to ask for money,
but because I, it's not, it's not enjoyable.
Please sign up for my sub-stack.
Marry me, can we just show the sub-stack?
Because I, Marry Me used to write for Penthouse, The Hollywood Reporter,
Maxim, all the top magazines get $2 a word, yo.
And now it's like, please sign up for my sub-stack for five bucks.
Well, I got a pitch for you.
It's, it's not just like, I need five dollars.
It's that, hey, like you, you're busy.
You've got a job, you've got a mortgage, you've got kids.
So you've got a million things going on.
And I know that if you had time, you also would be out there doing journalism,
finding out about me, finding out about George Floyd.
But since you're so busy, then like, let me, let, let us take that burden off you.
Like we'll go out there and we'll be your feet on the street and we'll be like your eyes.
But you need to actually like help make that happen.
And like the very minimum that you could do is you take whatever Starbucks you were going to get
and send that to Mariam.
So Mariam can turn that $6 into something that'll feed hundreds of thousands of people
and not just like the one quick little fix you were to get.
Like you, like you will be so much happier with $5 going to Mariam
and what Mariam can create from that than any $5 goodie or doughnut or sandwich or anything
that you would have used on that.
Like it'll, it'll be much better spent on Mariam.
And you'll see the results of it.
That'll be so much better than whatever you were going to spend it on.
Yeah.
Thank you.
So just to show I, I did one.
Why did 23 and me take away my judo?
And then I did some research because I was originally had Oskanazi Jew in my heritage.
And then ironic, like Zach also had, and he, he's like the only other person that I
actually said that it had happened to him.
They had algorithmic changes.
And so I did a story, I dove deep and it just so happened in June.
There was a hearing because of course they've, they've sold the data to pharmaceuticals.
But it's really interesting how an algorithmic change can
abracadabra, you're no longer.
Now I'm from the Levant.
I'm a Levantine, which is still, you know, the cradle of civilization.
And I don't think that's an accident.
Can you click on, on go down cheese slice?
Just show some of the content.
So yeah, then I, I wrote about go up.
Sorry.
The false memory foundation.
I had never heard about the false memory foundation and a lot of it I give for free.
But if, if I was not a censored person, so even please give back, restack,
it takes fucking two seconds.
It helps me, it helps me because even on sub stack, I had 131 subscribers.
It's like now 114.
I'm watching them take, take away my followers.
You know, and it's really like I'm really struggling.
And all I do is work, work, work, work.
I'm, I offer value.
I'm a brilliant mind.
And yeah, I'm going to advocate for myself.
So I would like to keep on doing this.
Thank you.
Your pitch is way better than mine.
I have to, I have to learn from your tips, Thomas.
I've been a limy capitalist my whole life.
So it comes natural now.
Yeah.
Well, it, it helps to be able to pitch.
So even, you know, I had someone recently and they're like, wow,
your, your information is, is fascinating.
And then of course I'm writing my second book.
I'm presenting it, my snuffy series about twin flames,
quantum entanglement, love, and so many people are like,
I can't stop reading this.
So my goal is to turn it into a book and then a series
because it's a $2 billion industry twin flames
and a lot of bullshit and Hopium.
So yeah, I'm, I'm taking my chaos and turning it into creation.
So gentlemen, this has been awesome.
Thank you, cheese slice and have a beautiful weekend everyone
and be kind to one another.
Don't take things for granted.
And enjoy life.
Thank you.
Take us out cheese slice.
Bye everyone.
Bye.
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